a view from the roof
by Douglas Messerli
Robert Little (screenwriter and director) A
Good Son / 1998
Suddenly Jack (Drew Bell), a USC student which we as suddenly recognize
Tim to also be, sits down near to him and begins to talk with the boy, mostly
asking questions such as what book he’s reading, what music he’s listening to,
etc. They exchange the names of their favorite poets, Tim enjoying Eliot while
Jack prefers Rimbaud, while recognizing that they are a year apart in the
university, Jack being a senior while Tim is a junior. Before long Jack asks if
Tim might be interested in joining him for a coke, and Tim, agreeing, tells his
father that he’s taking a short break.
The
boys continue talking, Tim finding Jack to be an agreeable and knowledgeable
person with whom he appears to share many interests. Before long Jack has
managed to lead to him the roof—a place usually closed and unknown to most
students—in order to take in a remarkable view of downtown Los Angeles.
There the two boys, after taking in the view, sit down next to one
another and continue their conversation. Just as suddenly as he first appeared
to Tim, Jack leans over and gives Tim a kiss on the cheek.
For a long while Tim just sits in place, Jack finally standing and
walking a few feet away while Tim remains sitting in apparent astonishment. He
doesn’t bolt, even when a janitor suddenly appears on the scene asking why the
boys are there yet allowing them to remain a short while longer before he
closes up the rooftop door. It is as if Tim has hit a pane of glass like a bird
dropped in his tracks to consider how to recover before taking flight.
Finally Tim stands, Jack asking if they might at least change phone
numbers. Tim claims he has a poor memory for numbers. They have no pens or
pencils, so Jack says he’ll give him his e-mail address, but as they begin to
go back down to the swim meet, Tim suddenly suggests they leave
separately—after all his whole family is waiting below. It is almost as if the
two have had sex and may prove the fact by appearing together in public
immediately after.
He returns to find his brother, his girlfriend, and father all standing
by their car, the father suggesting they were ready to leave without him.
As they are about to drive off, Jack again appears, the car slowing
down, the father apparently wondering if the stranger has something more to say
to his son, but seeing no sign of recognition in Tim’s expression, Jack says
nothing, and the car drives off.
It’s a sad story actually. Two obviously gay boys might have started a
relationship had it not been for the evident reluctance on Tim’s part to assert
a friendship with the other boy. Yet we also know by his refusal to give
himself away even a little, in his near-desperate insistence on remaining the
“good son” to his father, that something momentous has just happened, something
that he has changed him forever. We now recognize Tim is no longer the “good
son” compared with his athletically-achieving brother who has found a serious
girlfriend. Tim is now a different person than he previously was.
This is not really a story about a new relationship between two boys,
but concerns one boy’s new relationship with himself. If Tim does not meet up
with Jack again, there will be other such young men in his future.
Finally, this is a story about a father who not only will soon no longer
recognize his son, but a man who perhaps has never quite known his child. Had
he been less attentive to his other son’s athletic achievements he might have
noticed that Tim went off with Jack and that, in the boy’s final refusal to
recognize his new friend, something of great significance had happened
between them. It is almost as if his
son, turning back to look at where he had just been (a sudden vision of Sodom),
had been turned to stone. The son named Tim whom the father drives back home is
no longer the same boy he drove to that event. Nothing has outwardly changed,
but inwardly everything has.
Los Angeles, May 8, 2021
Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and
World Cinema Review (May 2021).
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