disenchantment and delight
by Douglas
Messerli
Alice Oseman
(screenwriter), Euros Lyn (director) Heartstoppers “Meet” / 2022 [27
minutes]
[Season 1,
Episode 1]
Returning to Truham Grammar
School, Charlie Spring (Joe Locke) is excited to pick up again on his last
school year’s romance with Ben Hope (Sebastian Croft), and as he enters the
school he rushes immediately to the empty library—which we soon discover has
been one of Charlie’s favorite places to hang out. But although Ben as told
Charlie to meet him there, he’s a no-show, texting that should meet at the break
instead.
Accordingly, Charlie trudges off to his new
classroom with somewhat of a heavy heart. That is, until he assigned a seat next
to the very cute Nick Nelson (Kit Connor), one of the most popular boys in the
school and the star rugby player of Year 11. Nick, so his teach explains, is a
year older than Charlie.
Charlie
begins his walk through the crowded classroom more than a little downhearted.
But once he gets a glimpse of the ruddy faced cutey, he literally stops in his
tracks, as, for the first time since the film has begun, a smile crosses his
face. Both a bit shy, particularly Charley, they share the profound greetings
of “Hi.”
Soon
after he finally meets up with Ben, both briefly discussing their Christmas
breaks before getting down to business, kisses exchanged. But almost as quickly
Ben leaves the music room, Charlie left a bit confused and miffed by their
awfully brief encounter.
Meanwhile, in the school halls, Charlie and Nick continue to run into
each other, each time greeting the other with the simple word “Hi.” But the
word grows warmer and friendlier each time to say it until, after the 4th
instance, they find that they’re both walking down the hall together to the
same room. Nick seems to be doing his homework in the process, and Charlie is
perfectly ready to tell him the answer. Yet Nick’s replay, “But then I won’t
learn,” says something profoundly deep about him already this early in the
series. Although he may be a jock, he is serious about his education and is not
seeking the easy way out of his lessons.
Yet a
moment or two later they encounter Ben walking the other way, Charlie greeting
him. To his astonishment Ben answers: “Why are you talking to me. I don’t even
know who you are.”
Ben,
however, speaks to Nick. Charlie asks if he’s friends with Ben, and Nick says
that since they’re in the same year they sometimes “hang out” together. But
Nick clearly perceives there’s something wrong about the situation.
At lunch, Charlie hangs out with his
friends Tao and Isaac, but Tao is frustrated since yet again, for the second
day in a row, he bought another bottle of apple juice for their friend Elle,
who’s now attending an all-girl’s school since, apparently having announced the
previous school year that “he” was now a “she,” Elle having evidently become
transgender. She had been a regular part of their little group of Truham outsiders.
In the
midst of Tao’s complaint that their group has become simply a trio, he notices
that Charlie’s eyes are focused on the nearby court in which Nick is heavily
engaged with several other boys in a half rugby, half wrestling match. Tao
wonders what sitting next Nick, Charlie and he might even talk about, but
Charlie enthusiastically proclaims they do talk, recalling a particular event
when Nick’s pen exploded blue ink across his own hands and shirt. But Tao warns
him against Nick insisting that “He’s exactly like the guys who bullied you
last year.” But Charlie declares, “He’s different. He’s nice.” It’s apparent
that Tao is also afraid of their dwindling “group” turning into a duo with just
him and the overweight, asexual, basically uncommunicative Isaac.
Tao interrupts the conversation as he
finally hears from Elle (Yasmin Finney) at Higgs Girls School, telling her
about Charlie’s new infatuation with a rugby player. Elle plays up her new school
as being better than Truham, texting to Tao that “everyone is really nice,” but
we notice she sits alone, and when Tao asks if she’s made new friends, we
realize that she is lonely and lost. Throughout this first episode, we watch
Elle finally develop a friend in Tara Jones (Corinna Brown) and her girlfriend
Darcy Olsson (Kizzy Edgell), allowing her find her own matching “trio” the outsider
boys at Truham.
But it
quickly gets worse for Tao, when, after observing Charlie to be a fast runner
in track, Nick invites his new friend to join the rugby team, and after some
thought and Tao’s protests, Charlie agrees. Nick has explained that they have
enough players for the team, but they’re not allowed to play with a reserve.
But joining up with the team, requires Nick to show the basics of rugby to
Charlie, and they now spend a great many hours together after school and even
in their breaks.
Tao and Isaac attempt to talk him out of
it, but with no success. And Charlie continues, even when he overhears Nick’s
fellow rugby players question the wisdom of including a gay boy on the team. “Does
he even like sports?”
Meanwhile, as Charlie discusses his sexual situation with the unnamed
Ben with the gay sympathetic art teacher Mr. Ajayi (Fisayo Akinade), it becomes
increasingly apparent to him that he needs to breakup with his clandestine
boyfriend. Indeed, his decision is made even clearer when he sees Ben with a
girl, the two of them holding hands and kissing. That night in bed, he texts
Ben, telling him that he wants to break up.
Now for the first time he and Nick have
actual physical contact, as his friend demands he try to tackle him, etc. And
gradually Charlie is brought into the rugby huddle, becoming one of the team
even if his job remains to stand watching the others play the game. And at the
same time, through tosses and tackles, we see Nick warming up in ways he can’t
quite explain to Charlie’s presence.
Ben
insists, however, that he and Charlie need to talk after school in the music
room, a meeting to which Charlie hesitantly agrees to. Nick happens to watch
him enter the music room after classes, and follows out of curiosity.
When Charlie refuses to let him kiss him, Ben
insists that he’s obviously scared of getting caught, which is how he also how
explains Charlie’s insistence that they break up. Charlie points out, however, that
everyone in school knows he’s gay, and that it’s obviously Ben who’s afraid of
being found out. Charlie explains how hurt he was about the hallway incident
and that Ben has not even told him about his girlfriend.
Ben
insists that he’s just not yet ready to “come out,” that he’s “figuring out his
sexuality.” But Charlie vehemently insists that it’s not that. If it were just matter
of figuring things out, he would have been there for him, of all people he’s
someone who knows how it feels. What’s hurt Charlie is that Ben has never cared
about his feelings. They meet up when Ben wants to, where he wants, when Ben
feels like kissing a boy.
Ben’s
answer is the final bullet to the heart: “Well, it’s not like anyone else will
want to go out with you, is it?” And despite Charlie’s refusals to be kissed,
Ben pushes him against the wall to pour kisses upon him. Suddenly Nick’s hand
pulls Ben off of his friend. “He told you to stop. Go on, piss off.”
When
Nick asks Charlie if he’s okay, his friend asks “Did you hear all that?” Yes,
Nick admits, most of it. Charlie apologizes, but Nick reassures him that he has
nothing to be sorry for. One can see Charlie’s total appreciation, even his
admiration registering on his face. But Nick interrupts by telling him “Don’t
say it.”
The
two move off in their different directions to their homes. But something has
clearly happened between them, a new level in their friendship attained. As
they each move off in their own direction, Charlie turns back to look, his now
famous smile coming over his face again.
We
see Nick being driven home by his mother, barely responding to her questions
about his practice, with obviously something much more serious on his mind.
At
the bus stop, Charlie tries to text Nick to thank him, but can’t quite find the
right words.
Finally, Nick’s phone rings, we reading Charlie’s message over his
shoulder: “Thank you x.”
And there is now a slight grin on Nick’s face as
well.
Los Angeles, September 28, 2024
Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2024).