Saturday, June 28, 2025

Stuart Armstrong | Lay-by / 2024

wrong hook-up

by Douglas Messerli

 

Stuart Armstrong (screenwriter and director) Lay-by / 2024 [6 minutes]

 

Everything goes wrong for the closeted gay man Barry (David Kirkbride), who for the first time other than an occasional sauna meet-up, arranges to have auto sex with a young man in a car.


      With a wife at home and trembling desire, Barry enters the hatchback car to find the rather cute man sitting on the other seat, Rizla (George Usher). But before he can even adjust he eyes, Rizla demands money.

      Completely unprepared for a rent-boy pickup, Barry is ready to leave but as he prepares to leave decides to “go for it,” coughing up what cash he has on hand. It’s not much but enough apparently for Rizla to dig into his pants, appearing to ready his cock for a blow-job.


     But Barry isn’t at all ready for the sudden pleasure, evidently having never before given a blow-job, and wondering if Rizla also takes it, the young man, rather puzzled by his comments, stating that, no, he “dishes it out.”

      Barry claims he’s versatile—and this he thinks he is. Rizla interrupts his nervous plaints to simply ask, “Look mate, you want it or not?”

      The married man admits that he’s never done it in a car before, Rizla wondering where he usually goes.

    Our friend admits he’s been to the sauna a few times, which truly surprises Rizla, who claims: “Well I’ve got the best goods in town. No need to go to anyone else when you want the white stuff from now on, yah?”


      Barry is ready to go along with the situation, but this time when the boy reaches into his pants, he brings out a small bag of what looks to be cocaine, truly startling Barry, who responds: “I’m guessing you’re not twinkfucker04?”

      The minute Barry exists the auto, Rizla races off.”

      But suddenly at close range is another car with a young twink (Mac Benson) sitting at the wheel. The new desperate Barry begins to move toward it, recognizing that, in fact, this was the young man with who he was scheduled to meet with. At that very moment, however, Rizla’s customer (Mike Roper) appears out of nowhere and enters the car—clearly to be just as surprised and perhaps puzzled by the sexual encounter he is expected to provide.

      Barry hurries off, clearly disappointed in the experience of trying to allay his hidden gay needs. 

      While British director Stuart Armstrong’s black-and-white short clearly is not very innovative in its cinematic style or content, it is fairly witty with the twist of its plot.

  

Los Angeles, June 28, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (June 28, 2025).

Gavin Vitale | A Pair / 2025

betrayal

by Douglas Messerli

 

Gavin Vitale (screenwriter and director) A Pair / 2025 [5.21 minutes]

 

This slight short film of only a little more than five minutes packs a great deal of emotional weight despite its lack of character and plot.

     All we know is that for the first time in a long while, perhaps over a year, Finn (Djanne Martinez) encounters an old friend, Lucas (Bran Sullivan) on his college campus, and is amazed by the encounter.

     Almost immediately, Lucas puts up a wall of words, describing his impossible voyage by bus to get there, but is soon interrupted by Finn, who demands to know to where he had disappeared. Clearly the two were fast friends, in fact, we soon discover, gay friends when Lucas suddenly went missing.

     He now explains that his parents, long threatening, sent him off to a Catholic school. We can only suppose that they got a whiff of his relationship with Finn or a least sensed their boy was possibly gay.

     Yet, every time Lucas begins to seriously explain the situation, he purposely creates a wall of words to hide behind, afraid perhaps of restating his feelings for Finn. He finally explains that a necklace he has been compulsively touching throughout is the other of a set of earrings that Finn had brought to school one day, and when he dropped it, Lucas stole it away as a token of their friendship or relationship.


     This would be more meaningful if we knew how deeply in love the two were; but even though they now kiss, we can’t be sure whether it was actually Lucas’ leaving that ended their relationship or Finn’s reluctance, since he has been carrying a flower from the first frame on, obviously as a token to another lover who may be of either gender.

      All we know is that he no longer is interested in Lucas, and demands that he no longer try to “reach out to him again,” moving off on his way to see his new lover. From the tone of the call to the person he’s about to meet, we suspect it is a female, but that’s only a guess through the flower and warning, sounding somewhat homophobic, he delivers to his former friend or lover. The flower, meanwhile, has been crushed in their kiss.

      The pair remains broken, like the earring which Lucas has attempted to return to Finn, Lucas, now alone, also crushed as he breaks into muffled tears. Poor Lucas has been betrayed by both his parents and his would-be lover.

      It appears that this film has simply been posted to YouTube without any distribution since it’s not listed in IMDb or Letterboxd, so if it disappears from YouTube it will perhaps be forgotten. I also cannot be sure of the release date, since I only can find the date when it was posted to YouTube.

 

Los Angeles, June 28, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (June 2025).

Per Blom | Is-slottet (The Ice Palace) / 1987

gleams and radiance

by Douglas Messerli

 

Per Blom (screenplay, based on the novel by Tarjei Vesass, and director) Is-slottet (The Ice Palace) / 1987

 

Norwegian novelist Tarjei Vesass’ masterwork The Ice Palace (1963) is a fiction in which the central two figures, the 11-year-old girls Siss and Unn and those around living them in a small rural community say extraordinarily little and act even less, resulting in nothing of great significance except the passage of about one year, from winter to the next spring. The book is written in the secondary language of Norway, a language created by linguist Ivar Aasen in the 1850s based on rural, spoken Norwegian, currently used by only 7.4% of the Norwegian population. In my estimation, however, it is one of the most poetically powerful novels written in the 20th century, and its author is perceived in his homeland, along with Knut Hamsun and Sigrid Undset, as one of their most gifted writers of fiction.

      In saying all this, I must issue a disclaimer of sorts regarding my enthusiasm. My press published this work in English, translated by Elizabeth Rokkan, in 1991, adding in a later reprint a short essay that Doris Lessing had written about the pleasures of the text she had originally written as a kind of review. Lessing gave permission to publish her essay as the introduction of my Sun & Moon Press version only.


      In 1987 Per Blom made a film version of Vesaas’ fiction, which, although focusing more fully on the character of Siss, received general acclaim, winning the Grand Prix at the Flanders International Film Festival. However, only a VHS (PAL version) was released, in the same year as Sun & Moon printed the book in the United States. Evidently there has never been a DVD version and the VHS has long been out of stock. I saw it on YouTube in an obviously bootlegged edition with English and Hungarian subtitles and, accordingly, cannot attest for the quality, although it appeared to accurately represent the beauty of the film, shot mostly in hues of blue, white, some yellow, and a few occasional swatches of red as it had been described to me years earlier.

     That this film might possibly show up on a list of LGBTQ films surprised me, yet I immediately comprehended why it might be described in that context.

      Since there is so little plot it might be best to get that out of the way immediately before I turn my attention to what is represented in the silences of both the book and movie.

     The story begins with Siss (Line Storesund) making her way to the house where Unn (Hilde Nyeggen) lives with her aunt (Metete Moen) one evening after school, clearly after having been invited by the shy and quiet girl who, new to the school, stands apart each day in recess, refusing to participate in the games of the other girls. All her peers seem to know is that her mother has just recently died.

      Siss arrives, eager it seems to get better acquainted with her school mate, who sits next to her each day in the classroom. Unn’s aunt greets her and the two girls, smiling with delight in the event, soon after retreat to Unn’s bedroom, she locking the door so that the aunt will not intrude upon them. The girls, like pre-teens around the world don’t quite know what to say to one another as they sit side by side. Yet we can sense there is some inexplicable feeling between them, as Unn slowly attempts to move her fingers closer to her friend as if to touch her. She asks if Siss knows that her mother has recently died and that she has no father, or least they cannot find him. She has no brothers and sisters she tells Siss. Apparently she has been born out of wedlock. And at one point dramatically reveals to Siss that she probably will never go to heaven.

      The girls both still seem slightly uncomfortable and shy until Unn, suddenly standing, suggests they undress, assuring the somewhat reticent Siss that it will be fun. They do so, apparently, as we watch them putting back on their clothes. We do not witness their nakedness nor do we observe anything that might have transpired during those few moments except that they book look at themselves, standing aside one other, in a mirror. When they have finished and Siss is about to leave, Unn asks her to keep it as a secret, Siss promising she will.

       But suddenly Siss is frightened, disturbed by something and, after saying good night to Unn’s Aunt, runs all the way home, arriving, as her parent’s note, quite out of breath.

      The next morning Siss discovers her new friend is missing from the usual place against the side of the school where she stands.


       Unn, we soon are shown, has gone to explore the ice palace. Within the freezing cold waterfalls are huge cave-like structures in which the formerly flowing water ices over into large stalactites that spread out over the former river-bed creating large and smaller cave-like rooms that often interconnect. While exploring the “palace” from above Unn accidently slips down into the center of this ice cave, slowly wandering through the various rooms, one by one, some with standing pools of water. In the distance we can hear occasional cracks of what sounds like thunder, places where the ice is cracking in the sun or where the water is still flowing unfrozen over the falls.

       Bending, almost crawling through narrow spots Unn finally makes her way into the largest of the palace “rooms,” where exhausted and almost frozen she lays down to die of hypothermia.

        For a long part of this movie we see the community spread out in rows, each holding a small lamp, in search of the missing Unn, calling out her name almost like a chorus of winter crickets. When they cannot find her in the forest or outbuildings they visit the waterfall where the school students were to have visited the next day. They cut and dig into the ice, attempting to bore down into the inner core of the ice palace but cannot find any sign of Unn.

       At one point, Siss observes them looking down through a hole to a large chamber below but we cannot see anything and evidently neither can they. Several ask Siss, at different times, whether  Unn spoke of visiting the falls and whether Siss knows anything about where Unn may have gone. Her answer each time is “No.”

      Over the next few days Siss falls into a fever, only gradually recovering. When she returns to school she now takes Unn’s place, refusing to play with her schoolmates. When she joins them on a ski trip to the waterfall, she asks to be left alone, looking into the hole below in the daylight, but again she can see no sign of Unn below.

     When a new student appears in their room, asking whether he might sit at the desk that one belonged to Unn, Siss tells him that it’s taken, the teacher slightly reprimanding her by telling the boy to take the seat. “But if he sits there,” Siss mutters, “Unn will not come back.”

     The winter passes and Siss visits Unn’s home, speaking to her Aunt for a few moments, while the elder packs, obviously intending to now move away from the town. When she asks Siss again whether Unn has told her anything, Siss says she has promised to never reveal it. The Aunt suggests that she has expected something like that and encourages the now 12-year-old Siss that since Unn has died she can now feel free to share her secret.

       As I said, this is a work of secrets and silence, a world created, somewhat as in Peter Wier’s Picnic at Hanging Rock (1976), out of the fevered imaginations of young girls unable to even express what it is they have discovered or are keeping within.



       What Unn and Siss have experienced apparently is something close to a childhood lesbian experience, a love that flashes its truth between them without their truly being able to understand it, let alone explain what it means. In Blom’s cinematic version, the young innocent Unn has covered her walls with posters of glamorous women of the Jayne Mansfield and Brigette Bardot type, women that in her frail frame topped by a small oval face surrounded by braids represent the sexuality she does not yet possess. And what she has shared or at least wanted to share with Siss is obviously related to that adult sexual world, the sensuous appeal of a woman’s touch and response.

     At their age do they do not even know what to call this kind of love between women, this highly physical attraction to female flesh. But their exploratory nakedness has clearly revealed to one another something approaching the fulfillment of their pre-pubescent desires. And even if they do not know how to speak of these feelings and have no idea how to act regarding them, they have been taught guilt, and it is that, I would argue, instead of the situation of Unn’s birth, that convinces her that she will never experience eternity.

      In the novel, as they are about to get dressed again the two girls look into a mirror and see something there that frightens them: something like the first embers of passion or lust. Vesaas describes it this way:

 

          Siss did not know what this was about, but she sat beside Unn on the

       edge of the bed. They each held a corner of the mirror, held it up in front

       of them, and sat without moving, side by side, almost cheek to cheek.

           What did they see?

           Before they were even aware of it they were completely engrossed.

 

           Four eyes full of gleams and radiance beneath their lashes, filling the

       looking-glass. Questions shooting out and then hiding again. I don’t know:

       Gleams and radiance, gleaming from you to me, from me to you, and from

       me to you alone—into the mirror and out again, and never an answer

       what this is never an explanation. Those pouting red lips of yours, no

       they’re mine, how alike! Hair done in the same way, and gleams and

       radiance. It’s ourselves! We can do nothing about it, it’s as if it comes

       from another world. The picture begins to waver flows out to the edges,

       collects itself, no it doesn’t. It’s a mouth, smiling. A mouth from

       another world. No, it isn’t a mouth, it isn’t a smile, nobody knows what

       it is—it’s only eyelashes open wide above gleams and radiance.

 

    If this isn’t love, a love these young girls cannot even name, then how to explain it? Gleams and radiance. It is the vision of themselves in recognizing the pleasure of their own bodies.



     So too is Blom’s long exploration with Unn of the ice palace all gleams and radiance, an almost hypnotic vision of sun against crystal. But in this case the gleams and radiance are also her undoing as she becomes so transfixed that she cannot escape the palace. The scene contains many elements of Hans Christian Andersen’s tale of the Snow Queen about evil and devil-like trolls who convert the magic mirror of appearance from the good and beautiful aspects of people into the bad and ugly which they attempt to carry to heaven in order to corrupt the angels and God himself. God tosses the trolls out, the magic mirror splintering and crashing to earth.

      Meanwhile on earth Kai and Gerda are neighbors, children very much in love with one another. But one day fragments of the mirror fall upon Kai and the love he feels for Gerda becomes cruel and aggressive. When he is stolen by the Snow Queen, Gerda must go on a long voyage to Lapland to find and help him recover. After a series of adventures involving the Snow Queen, a Finn woman, a Lapp woman, a robber girl, and a reindeer they return home to discover that only people with the innocence of children can enter heaven or spell out, as the Snow Queen demands, ETERNITY. And in this sense we can deduce that Unn sacrifices her own life and secret knowledge so that Siss can remain innocent.

     By entering the underworld of the ice palace Unn becomes a kind of redeemer, an Orpheus undertaking to save her Eurydice from being bitten by the snake of cultural guilt.

      The penultimate scene in the novel is the ski trip with other students to the waterfall, where, seeking for a few minutes to be alone, Siss finally determines to break her promise to Unn and tell whatever she imagines she knows to others. Vesaas ends her private revelation with Siss’ return to the world of normal male and female friendship, as she has now become a young pubescent adult. The group she is with has promised to return soon to retrieve her, but instead “two fine lines passed through her: it was the girl and that boy. Both of them coming.” “The burden fell away. She got to her feet, her face a little flushed. There they were, both of them.”

        In short we see Siss facing a future with the possibilities of bonding with and loving either sex, male or female.

        Yet the very last vignette in the original returns us to the childhood story of The Snow Queen, the world in which Unn is still entrapped:

 

         “No one can witness the fall of the ice palace. It takes place at night, after all

          the children are in bed.

             No one is involved deeply enough to be present. A blast of noiseless

          chaos may cause the air to vibrate in distant bedrooms, but no one wakes

          up to ask: What is it?

             No one knows.

             Now the palace, with all its secrets, goes into the waterfall. There is a

          violent struggle, and then it has gone.

 

     In Blom’s film as well, we realize in its last scene that the Siss we first witnessed is finally a different being, that if she has not yet told Auntie by the end of the movie, she will surely write her to tell her secret that she and Unn had fallen innocently in love.

     Scandinavian cinema has long been fascinated by juvenile LGBTQ encounters, including directors Lasse Nielsen, Guðmundur Arnar Guðmundsson, Lukas Moodysson, David Fardman, Håkon Liu, Anna Nolskog, Svend Wam, and others. Per Blom’s Is-slottet represents one of the best of the works in this cinematic genre.

 

Los Angeles, February 5, 2021

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and World Cinema Review (February 2021).

 

Mike Hoolboom | A Boy's Life / 1996-2018

childish things

                            When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

by Douglas Messerli


Mike Hoolboom (director) A Boy’s Life / 1996-2018

 

Although it appears as part of Panic Bodies (1998), A Boy’s Life is generally listed as a 2018 film, while others date it 1996-2018. Hoolboom himself explains:

 

“Originally cast as the second part of a six-part feature Panic Bodies (1998), the original 16mm negatives were rescued courtesy of the Cinematheque Quebecoise, then rescanned, recut, and reimagined. They were shot in 1996, the year the AIDS cocktail arrived. It’s not uncommon during illness to experience one’s body grow as large as the world, here the body is figure and ground, friend and enemy, projection surface fragments, memory machine. I asked the excellent performance artist Ed Johnson if he could come by and perform in this psychodrama of loss and longing.”

 

    Whereas I perceived Positiv to be a struggle between body and mind, A Boy’s Mind is nearly all about the body. And Hoolboom’s own site on Panic Bodies describes it as “a masturbatory revel,” going on to explain: “this first person monodrama shows a man in flight from the sins of his childhood, his attempted escape through a masturbatory revel that is so shattering he loses his prick, and his ensuing search for his missing organ.”


     Bright Lights Film Journal critic Gary Morris, expounds on the work, describing it as representing “a more whimsical sensibility.”

 

“Toronto performance artist Ed Johnson appears as a naked man haunted by his childhood (seen in fractured home-movie inserts) and, even more, on his prick, which he plays with so much that it falls off. While Ed is busy searching for his lost appendage, Hoolboom is playful, reminding us of Ed’s quest with a cut-out penis shape through which we see the action. Of course, this is not

exactly standard light fare. A scene where Ed eats a baby doll that’s been halfway up his ass recalls Goya, while scenes of multiple Eds masturbating (seen through a kaleidoscope) are as unsettling as they are amusing.”

 

     This work reminds me, in some respects, of the late version A (the original version of the gay filmmakers who did work from the 1940s through the 1960s) “coming out” film of 1965 by A. J. Rose, Jr., Penis in which the central figure also loses his penis.


      In that film, his supposed female lover has stolen it, but here it has become nearly superfluous, despite the flurry of masturbatory activity, since, as the narrator makes clear at the very beginning of the 8-minute film, it belongs to what the narrator describes as “childish things.”

     The magic cocktail pill for AIDS is finally available, but it is too late for the narrator, who’d already been sick for 8 years at age 35. “I should have thrown a party, but I felt the only thing I knew for sure had been taken away. I’d rehearsed by death so often like all the others. My body was both playground and graveyard. …The pictures that follow are childish and trivial. They don’t know how to present themselves, but I like to keep them around me. Like an idiot uncle who doesn’t know how to grow up. As a reminder of what everyone else called the best moments of my life.”


    What follows, accordingly are things no longer available to the narrator from the naked baby wandering out in the world to be covered with mud to the endless masturbating gay man who finally does it so much that he loses his penis, a metaphor for what his previous sexual actions has done for our narrator.

     If the narrator of Positiv discovers that his mind still controls his body, the narrator here focuses on the childish actions of the body, the selfish body seeking to control and dominate his life. It is a “boy’s life” to which the narrator is still nostalgic as well as regretful.

    In an interview with Larissa Fan, Hoolboom quickly reveals that the film also concerns the artist not “filling” a void, but selecting aspects of his or others’ lives to reveal a world—in this case combined with a great deal of regret.

   

“LF: In the second short sequence from Panic Bodies called A Boy’s Life, a man is searching for his lost penis. The lost member seems to be a metaphor for a void in the man’s life. In regard to your work in film, have you filled the void? Have you accomplished the things you’ve wanted or are you still searching for your member?

MH: Why did Freud think that penis envy is exclusive to women? So far as the void goes, painting and writing bring their makers to face emptiness. When they begin work their canvas, their pages, are empty. Movies are just the opposite. As a filmmaker I begin with everything, every image, and from there I make a choice. Filmmaking is like shopping. It’s a question of choosing.”


    This film, accordingly, represents some of the choices, childish ones perhaps, that the artist made during his life, revealing a kind of satyr-like life, a glorious youth of sexual delight, which his illness has taken away from him.

   The film, in fact, begins with the realities of the current day, a now nearly bald-headed man facing the ACT-UP crowds shouting on the streets for the governmental refusal to take AIDS seriously. We see the man eating his own childhood, the “baby-doll” of which Morris wrote.

     Following this reminder of reality, Hoolboom takes us back into the narrator’s childhood and sexual life, a kaleidoscope-vision of masturbation and fucking that results in the loss of the penis itself.



     The major question for the narrator becomes now, “How to survive a second life,” the one the disease has now “awarded” him. He quotes a dying friend, “Any man who expresses his true feelings is a drag queen.” How might the “drag queen” he now feels himself to be remain honest to who he once was and may yet truly be, a man of the body.


      The lost penis becomes a recovered dildo, a replacement of the full bodily being he once was, as the musical accompaniment of the song “Bye, bye, bye, bye. I’ve something more to say,” takes over, the lonely figure on the boardwalk turning to leave.

 

Los Angeles, June 27-28, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (June 2025). 

 

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