agnieszka’s breasts
by Douglas Messerli
Philip James McGoldrick
(screenwriter and director) Siemiany / 2009 [19 minutes]
Siemiany is a Polish summer resort
village in the countryside where each year two teenagers, Andrzej (Damian Ul)
and Michal (Michal Wlodarczyk), along with their families, have visited. The
two boys, like most pre-adolescent teens, wrestle, swim, fish, wrestle some
more, challenge each other with sexual knowledge about women—particularly of
their female friend Agnieszka (Aleksandra Radwanska) who years before has shown
them her budding breasts—wrestle again, and generally just hang out with one
another. Occasionally they show one another their hard-ons, the result, so they
claim of thinking of Agnieszka’s breasts.
This year begins very much like their years of the past. But something
is different. One of their brothers has joined a sort of gang of whom he is the
leader and with whom Agnieszka, now much taller and older hangs out. Her goal
when she grows up, she tells the camera, is to become a slut. The group mostly
bullies their own members and occasionally shows its clout to the younger boys,
particularly when the brother pulls out his newly-purchased gun—fortunately
unloaded, but later filled with bullets.
One day, Michal goes missing as he explores the room of another girl,
the beautiful Dorota (Joanna Opozda) who has already joked to the camera—in one
of the film’s misguided post-modern interpolations—“I don’t say much in this
film, I just lay here.” But when Michal goes exploring she does far more than
that, slowly engaging him as she shows off her body, little by little, flirting
and toying with the wide-eyed and astounded youth perhaps on the edge of his first
heterosexual adventure.
Having undergone the ordeal, and now with a bleached white crop of unwashed hair, the boy goes in search of his friend, surely confused and perhaps frightened. But as he seeks him out in the inside of the cottage, he quietly becomes a voyeur to the sexual “coming out” of Michal, watching for an instant as Dorota undresses for his friend.
In the next instant we see Andrzej once more outside on the run, racing
down a long empty path, escaping what he cannot comprehend but clearly senses,
that he has lost his friend forever to a world that perhaps he can never enter.
The difference the older boys simply joked about may in fact be real, and
Andrej is obviously terrified by its implications.
Andrej suffers the feelings of so very
many gay boys, that he has somehow missed out in the “normal” process of male
maturation, realizing that his pretend interest in Agnieszka was just that;
that in wanting to display his hard-on it was Michal who was his focus, the
erection the result of his friend’s touch, not some imaginary memory of
Agnieszka’s breasts.
Los Angeles, April 7, 2022
Reprinted from World Cinema
Review (April 2022).