Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Sarah Al Atassi | Mauvais genre (Not That Kind of Guy) / 2020

other kinds of beings

by Douglas Messerli

 

Sarah Al Atassi (screenwriter and director) Mauvais genre (Not That Kind of Guy) / 2020 [26 minutes]

 

Living in an industrial suburb of Tours, France, Léto (Sohan Pague) is trapped in a world in which he works at a local art house movie theater run by a beast of a manager who hates cinema. The entire neighborhood seems hostile and alien, as nearby apartment dwellers who pound his walls and leave notes on his door regarding his evening sexual activities (Léto makes little noise, but watches mostly gay porno clips on his computer without earphones). And as he goes out each morning he runs into an entire gang of nearby thugs, who director Sarah Al Atassi (she plays one of them) has presented as almost stereotypical human monsters whose major phobia apparently is homosexuality. His covered motorcycle has been graffitied in yellow, describing him as a PD or faggot.


     There seems no possible way out of this horrific world until one day, traveling back and forth to work, Léto encounters—not entirely by accident since he has found his billfold in the movie house—an attractive and mysterious seeming Syrian man, Hamza (Issa Al Issa), who works at the local ice-skating ring. Both are immediately attracted to one another, Léto to Hamza’s look of masculinity, and Hamza to Léto’s petite 20-some year-old body. Almost as if he were prophesying from a magical book of foretellings, Hamza tells his new acquaintance that the ice-skating rink is closed, but promises that Léto will return the next day.

      Leaving his house, Léto again runs across the gang of thugs, but this time when they call him a faggot, he challenges the speaker, successfully challenging his attack by grabbing and wringing his balls. But the others soon join in the vicious fray and Léto is severely beaten.


      We don’t know, in fact, if this is the following day, but he has returned to the rink, now open, joining up and renting a pair of ice skates. As he has relayed in a cellphone message to his best, perhaps only friend (Philippe Bilheur), that he has met someone, and the night before he has even dreamed of having sex with the hirsute beauty. On the ice is a practicing amateur hockey team and trained ice dancers, whereas the striking young man has clearly never before worn a pair of skates. Like his neighbors, the others all scorn Léto, but when, in the men’s room, he again comes across Hamza, the Syrian is overjoyed to see him, recognizing that there is “something different” about his new friend.

     The very next moment, however, Hamza is called to clear away a mess left by the skaters, reminding us of a previous scene between Léto and his monstrous manager, who describes cinema as shit.


   In this fable-like story, Al Atassi has, indeed, represented both Léto and Hamza as two strange beauties in a world of extreme ugliness.

    Having left the rink disappointed, Léto is now on the roof of his concrete building, peering below, the thugs having gathered below imagining that the “queer” is about to jump.

    Hamza, perhaps also frustrated for having to leave his new friend so suddenly or maybe just because he is gifted with a seventh sense, seems impatient to reconnect with Léto. When the manager calls him to clean up another mess, this time he jumps the wall and rushes off to the young gay man, having heard his address when he registered to skate.

     Having observed the thugs cruel insinuations below, he rushes to the roof, only to find Léto staring at a world in which he doesn’t feel part of, but not at all ready to jump. The two come together, but Léto warns him, he is not like other gay men, dropping his pants to reveal that his specialness arises from his being a transsexual.

     Hamza seems completely unfazed, as if he has known all along that this was the boy’s “difference.” This being a fabulous fairy tale of an entire culture, he kisses Léto, the two having found, as in the Arabian Nights, true love.


       The plot I just related, however, can’t compare with the quiet wonderment of the alien land in which Al Atassi has dropped her central characters. If the concrete apartments, deteriorating cinema house, and crowded skating rink seem a bit foreboding, the characters with which she has peopled them with what seem to be almost like the giants, dwarves, hags, and trolls right out of Wagner’s Der Ring des Nibelungen, with same-sex lovers Léto and Hamza standing in for Brünnhilde and Siegfried.

 

Los Angeles, July 15, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (July 2025).

Harry Victor | Lycanthrophobia / 1998

the monsters of a local bar

by Douglas Messerli

 

Matt Pelfrey (screenplay), Harry Victor (director) Lycanthrophobia / 1998

 

Ted (Mitchell Welch) enters a seedy bar just for a gin & tonic where is suddenly waylaid by a man, Jack (Kevin Hunt), half talking to himself and half to anyone who might listen about all sorts of things that point to clear paranoia.


      He begins by seeming disturbed by the fact that people keep secrets inside, that an old friend with whom he used to play “hoops” turned out to be “fag.” All this time, he argues, he it hid from me, and now he’s got one of them “new lifestyles.” Obviously, Jack is more than a little homophobic, as he also stares off in the near distance where two men playing pool appear in their movements and gestures with regard to one another suggest that they may be gay.

     After attempting to find out why Ted as a patch over his right eye, what was the “accident” that made him lose his sight, he’s frustrated by the fact that Ted has no interest in sharing and attempts to walk away from him.


     Yet Jack follows him to the new table Ted has selected as he quickly begins to reveal his true phobia, lycanthrophobia: the fear of becoming a werewolf.

     He tells the story that one night he had a dream that he was a predatory animal running on all fours in the dark, and then suddenly woke up—in a stranger’s house curled up on the floor completely nude. “I was so afraid I was going to find someone’s mutilated body, I just ran out of there.”

      Jack seems to think that werewolves, one which he may secretly be, hide their fur on the inside of their skin. And to rectify his fear of becoming such a beast, he now is on lookout for signs of werewolves who appear as normal men, ready to shoot them with silver bullets. He carries his gun with him.


      Moreover, the two men we have seen in the background, possibly homosexuals, Jack tells his new “friend” are absolutely werewolves, Jack determined to shoot them soon, perhaps this very night.

      Terrified by what his uninvited guest has just told him, Ted attempts to argue that perhaps he’s mistaken, he might be misreading the signs, and on all accounts the execution Jack has planned be delayed.

       Jack is not be convinced, but in a comic moment, declares he has to take a leak, asking Ted to keep an eye on the monsters while he visits the bathroom.

       The very moment Jack gets up and leaves, the two men previously playing pool, Frank and Bruce, move into Ted’s booth surrounding him on both sides, threatening him for his friendship with Jack. Jack, it appears, has been staring at them for some time, following them, checking them out, and they are certain that he is gay, something these two homies cannot abide.


        Evidently devoted homophobes, Frank (Jay Lacopo) and Bruce (Brian Fritzpatrick) now threaten Ted, who they insist must also be gay, worthy of a good old-fashioned bashing after they rid the world of his bathroom-going “friend.”

       Again, Ted tries to reason with these new monsters, insisting that Jack is not a friend, that he has just come into the bar to get a drink, and that, in fact, he is straight. All to avail. Frank rises and heads to the bathroom while the other keeps tabs on Ted. Bruce, speaking the usual hetero hate speech suggests that fags are good at giving head so that before he knocks Ted’s teeth in perhaps he should see what he’s got.


      In the bathroom, Jack challenges the new visitor to the john, who is ready to beat up Jack until his intended foe turns with a knife in hand, throwing Frank to the floor and plunging the knife into his chest while letting out a monstrous howl. Distressed by the sounds, Bruce lets go of his chokehold of Ted’s neck, and gets up to check out what’s going on, Ted rising to shout out in words reminiscent of Jack’s: “You think you know what’s inside. You have no idea what’s inside. ...Go back there. It’s all over the floor back there. It’s something we all in common. You believe in monsters?” Bruce wrestles him back to the booth to tell him he doesn’t care what he has inside, as he stands to face the other monster in the room.

      At that very moment Jack appears leaving the toilet facing off with Bruce. Ted rises, the room spinning with suddenly no one in the place and he moves toward the door to escape. We hear a single shot, surely one of Jack’s silver bullets put through the heart of Bruce.

      The film is, quite obviously, a statement about all our “phobias,” as the words appear on the screen: “...phobia is a learned behavior.”

       This is a cheaply made short, with hardly any cinematic production values except for its creepy, horror-tale like music by Nick Pierone. And its stated thematic, although laudable, is hardly subtly expressed or even fully established since all the bar’s patrons seem to have come in from some unproducible absurd episode from Rod Serling’s The Twilight Zone. What is interesting is its connection of homophobia, a curable disease, with the werewolf myth, which from its earliest roots in the 1941 film The Wolfman, according to film critic Harry M. Benshoff, writing in his Homosexuality and the Horror Film, saw the condition of man turned into a predatory beast—certainly a condition that might easily apply to womanizing heterosexual men, but which in the 1950s increasingly came increasingly to be applied to gay men who were even more dangerous given their seemingly predatory behavior because it was hidden away from the public—unlike the situation of the vampire or the human-created monster Frankenstein, “is a disease of the mind [that] can be cured.” And in this sense one must argue that Harry Victor’s Lycanthrophobia

is most definitely an “educational” gay film, one that even in its credits breaks down and repurposes even its title—

                                              Lycanthrophobia

                                             “phobia can b a ly”

—to relay its educative message.

      What also may be of interest is that the innocent-seeming Ted, who stumbles into the nest of sleeping monsters may be, in fact, the reason their sudden coming to life. The one-eyed man seems to attract all three, the dormant werewolf and the two homophobes. Somewhat like an unintentional Homeric Cyclopes, Ted, whose girlfriend has gone away at least for the weekend, lives apart and away from restrictions (at least momentarily), and like Homer’s one-eyed giants ends up, passively in this case, slaughtering and eating the strangers who have wondered into his private domain. By film’s end there is obviously no one left at the bar, filled when he entered. Surely when he staggers out the exit at film’s end, he is not the same polite listener he was at the beginning of the film, willing to hear out each man’s private tale without attempting to truly correct their phobic fears. After all, even we (or at least I, perceiving this film as a pretending guiding voice) have misread the signs, unintentionally misperceiving—with the director’s encouragement—the characters to be the exact opposite of what they are. But then homophobes are often deeply closeted gay men.

     In short, if you can ignore the raw quality of this homemade-like short film, it is well worth watching.

 

Los Angeles, November 21, 2021

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (November 2021).

 

John Huckert | Hard / 1998

force of hate

by Douglas Messerli

 

John Huckert and John Matkowsky (screenplay), John Huckert (director) Hard / 1998

 

Calling to mind such previous cop films such as William Friedkin’s 1980 film Cruising and David Fincher’s 1995 Seven, John Huckert’s Hard concerns a gay serial killer who specializes in young boy hitchhikers and hustlers. The killer, a handsome, rugged man who might attract most young gay boys searching for a kind of father figure, Jack (Malcolm Moorman), as Los Angeles Times reviewer Kevin Thomas describes him:

 

“…is a gay man’s nightmare. Rugged and handsome, he’s physically a fantasy figure come to life, but he’s also possessed of a psychopath’s fearlessness. When he comes on to a man in a bar in his insinuating yet forceful way, he has little reason to expect much resistance. Jack is an insatiable seducer but is in the grip of such intense internalized homophobia that he feels compelled to kill his lovers; in this way he has much in common with Jeffrey Dahmer as an attractive yet lethally self-hating gay man.”

 

    But gay self-hatred is not limited in this film simply to the villain. Young police detective Raymond Vates (Noel Palomaria), just awarded his badge, is also gay, but is terrified in revealing his sexuality to his fellow detectives, and with good reason. His fellow officers, Hendrickson (Steve Andrews), Jackson (K. D. Jones), Dhyun (Ken Narasaki), and Dominguez (Steve Gonzales) seem obsessed with homophobic slurs, checking out each other’s asses, playing out games of swish behavior, and in general describing to themselves how they believe a queer man thinks and behaves.

     Even worse are men like the morgue technician who when he substantiates that a male body had engaged in anal sex is only too happy to describe them as a “condition corrected,” the police as well arguing that the killer is only helping them clear the streets of their kind. Late in the film, even the murderer poses the question to Raymond, how do you think I’ve gotten away in killing and torturing all these boys? The police just look the other way.

     Moreover, Raymond has just only recently left his own wife and son, coming out after what can only have been his own deep personal doubts and suffering. He finds it almost as difficult to kiss another man as does Jack. And although he’s found a loyal, willing, and truly loving friend in the gay bartender Doug (Aaron Zaffron), Raymond prefers to go home with rugged construction workers such as the man he first picks up in the film who turns out to really be a San Diego cop, himself an expert at spotting others trying to hide their true avocations and inclinations. As Doug asks him, what’s harder for you, trying to keep the cops from knowing you’re gay or hiding the fact from the gays that you’re a cop? After the cop who’s just had good sex with him tries to kiss him, only to have Raymond turn away, he provides the rookie with some good advice. “I was afraid to when I first came out. Sex is a wonderful fantasy, but it’s the kiss that makes it real.”


     Sex is not such a wonderful fantasy, however, for those who encounter Jack. Even as Raymond and the oldest and most respected detective in their midst, Tom Ellis (Charles Lanyer) who’s been assigned as Raymond’s partner, check out Jack’s first Los Angeles victim—we’ve already seen him rape and probably kill a poor teen hitchhiker in the desert—already, as the Los Angeles Times critic puts it, “His gaze rests upon Palomaria’s character Raymond, a rookie homicide detective. Later on, at a gay bar, when Jack recognizes Raymond as one of the cops at the crime scene, he comes on to the policeman.”

     Raymond and Ellis are at this particular bar just to ask if anyone’s seen the boy in the picture, the most recent of Jack’s victims. Jack denies having seen him, but pretends that he might have some knowledge of the area, encouraging Raymond to leave his name and number. The detective gets a late-night call to meet him in the bar, only to be told that Jack has brought him out in the night under false pretensions. Arguing that he knows Raymond must be gay, he proclaims his sexual interest in him, Raymond trying out his best performance of denial. But with a sociopath like Jack, it doesn’t work. As critic Michael D. Klemm, writing in Outcome nicely summarizes the scene:

 

“Jack intuits that Ramon is secretly gay. Like two dogs trying to establish who is the alpha male, the two men enact an elaborate mating dance with Jack calling Ramon a ‘homophobic gay cop’ and Ramon trying, quite violently, to deny the mutual attraction. Inevitably, he takes Jack home. Their intense sex resembles a wrestling match as both demonstrate dominance. Then, to his horror, Ramon wakes to find himself handcuffed and tied to his bed.”


      Forced to call in sick and turning again to Doug for help, he demands, in what almost seems to be an insider’s camp film reference, “I need you to come over and bust my door in” (in To Kill a Mockingbird, if you recall, Mayella Ewell calls in the black man Tom Robinson to “bust up my chifforobe.”). Doug complies, but is almost arrested by Ellis, who has come to personally check on Raymond after his strange phone call.

     Even worse than discovering his partner is gay and has been subject to some S&M fiend, they discover that Jack is the murderer himself when they find Raymond’s detective badge in another young victim’s mouth. Jack has now totally involved Raymond in his crimes and intends to engage him personally in a battle of homosexual opposites, perhaps in an odd self-hating homophobic slur, an attempt to show others that Raymond is not so very different from him. In order to save himself from a murder charge, the rookie detective is forced to admit what really happened and come totally out of the closet.



       Certainly, the other cops are ready to believe the worst about their cohort, now all except Ellis and the Captain (Bob Hollander) turning against Raymond, not only verbally abusing him in the morning shower and shaving session, but physically beating him, the police Captain looking on without being able, so he justifies it to himself, to interfere. Once more Raymond has only his loyal friend Doug to help him salve his wounds.

       Jack has already completely involved another figure—a bisexual married man, Andy (Michael Waite)—picking him up in a bar for sex and bringing him home to stay on as a friend, exposing his own pre-pubescent son, his wife, and himself to the whims of the sociopath.


       Because of his open acceptance and strange love towards him, Jack basically spares Andy—if you can describe raping his son and arranging for his wife to return at the moment when Jack is fucking him, assuring that his marriage is destroyed, as representing a kind of lenience. But then compared with the chambers of horror Jack has created for street boys in an old theater basement under the Fletcher Street Bridge, his treatment of Andy and his family is absolutely beneficent.

      He finally takes Andy himself down into the dark chambers, attempting to get him involved in the slow stabbing and wounding of the victims that he inflicts; but when Andy refuses, he lets him go, as well, eventually, as the boy he was hoping Andy would help him further torture. By this time, we perceive, its Raymond he really wants to visit the chamber.

      Finding the released boy, and through him Jack’s hideout, Ellis refuses to let Raymond go after him, taking on the job himself. But when he doesn’t return, Raymond is forced to enter that hell. Jack has knocked out Raymond and dangles another boy before the detective, threatening to drop him to his death if Raymond doesn’t join him in his games. He drops the boy even before Raymond can try the gun he has given him, its cartridge empty. What follows is Jack’s long justification for his actions, his argument that he is saving these boys from the suffering and torture which has gone to make up the beast he has become. Unwanted at home, most often because of their sexuality, hated by most of society, their welfare ignored by the cops, these boys will only suffer, he proclaims, and in killing them early, he is saving them from that future.


      Frankly, in a film which up to this point has been filled with tough and believable language, Jack’s statements and Raymond’s almost meek-sounding arguments against his horrifyingly cynical view of life are almost trite and quite stagey. Only Jack’s belief that none of his police cronies, called to the site, will show up, seems plausible. When finally a single female police officer arrives, ironically, Jack’s bluff is over. He puts a rifle to his own head and releases the trigger, becoming the same kind visual horror into which he has turned so many others throughout the film.

    The most moving part of this otherwise excellent movie, are its final scenes, as Ellis returns Raymond his badge, the detective pondering leaving the police force forever. He asks: “Hey Lucky (Ellis’ nickname), where do you think all the hate comes from?” Lucky turns back as he is about to leave, answering, “I don’t ask myself that question anymore.” A few seconds later Raymond (real name Ramon) bursts in tears over all the hate he has witnessed in past few weeks. Raymond, it appears, has finally turned into a human who needs to ask that question and forgive even himself. And perhaps he can now express his true thanks to Doug for having helped him through the most outrageous events of his life. But we do hope he will remain a detective if only to help counter all that hate he perceives.


       One of the last scenes of the film, repeats the very first scene, as we observe a young soldier boy, who looks somewhat like the Ramon before he became a Raymond, heading out of the city, being picked up by a man who looks not so very different from Jack. I find that scene a little hokey, but perhaps we need reminding that those who destroy and hate are always there and never cease in their terrible actions against the civilized human race.

       Hard is not a great movie, but is most certainly a powerful and moving film worth far more attention than it has received. The movie is now hard to find (my viewing copy was a Netflix oldie, a mailer that will soon be put out of commission), with many of its sexual scenes having been sanitized and even a scene in which Raymond is seen removing a condom cut. Klemm asks the inevitable question: “So... full frontal male nudity during torture is okay, but not during a scene that promotes safe sex? Tell me what's wrong with this picture.”

 

Los Angeles, June 11, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (June 2023).

Jenni Olson | Blue Diary / 1998

that melancholic ache

by Douglas Messerli

 

Jenni Olson (screenwriter and director) Blue Diary / 1998

 

Jenni Olson’s poetic reflection on love past begins with a simple act of stroking her friend’s tattoo on her left arm. Without a visual analogue the action might be that of anyone, a man making his first move on a woman, a man attempting to engage another man, or, as we know in this instance, a woman having fallen in love with another woman.

     The voice we hear is suddenly interrupted by an intertitle, presumably describing, rather humorously, the actions that have led to the moments about to be described: “Fuck, talk, sleep, fuck, breakfast,” the kind of events which are usually are at the heart of normative narrative films which are generally less interested in the time after the events that lead up to and include the sexual act.


       But then Olson’s films—this her first full 16mm short in color, Blue Diary—are always “different,” queer in a way that underlies the director’s lesbian sexuality from new and different perspectives. The visual content of her films, for example, are simple shots of mostly empty San Francisco streets revealing everything from industrial sites to rows and rows of city bungalows, along with dead-ends, large open boulevards, gasoline stations, neon-lit parking garages, a view of the ocean, etc.—an entire world of various possibilities which—in the ruminative voice-over performed by Lynn Flipper, read actually, Olson later admitted in an interview, by filmmaker and director Silas Howard who at time was transitioning, if his voice is any clue, from woman to man—are apparently now closed off due to the woman at the center of the film as she pulls away the morning after the sexual act.

       And in that sense, one might describe Olson’s short work a study in contradictions: 

   

“I think I’m too tired and then I’m not. So much for my good boundaries and emotional health. She’s straight. But so cute. I think we’re on a date. It suddenly becomes clear that we’re not and last night was just a fluke. I become lost in her train of thought. I become tender about the way she talks. The way she laughs and the way she seems so far away from me. She doesn’t ask me questions beyond certain conventional enquiries. And then she’s not particularly intent upon listening to my answers. She tells me now she’s actually celibate. Ignoring this obvious rejection of  my advances, I maintain some hope, and buzzed on raging hormones I make more meaningful eye contact. Slowly approaching her for a kiss, I wish she would open her mouth. She gives me only a soft kiss, which I return in a gesture of earnest desire. With my heart pounding, smiling sadly at her disinterest, I lower my eyes in defeat and feel the heroic acceptance of this new fact of life. She is not interested in me.”

 

    This passage, which represents the majority of the film’s “essay,” (as Olson often describes the aural center of her works) is entirely based on oppositions: being tired and then not, having boundaries but breaking them, imagining one is on a date but realizing that the sex was just a fluke, being tender about someone who is actually far away. The loved one asks conventional questions but seems disinterested in the answers, while the teller of this tale, feeling rejected, advances nonetheless. Even disinterest seems to result in excitement, defeat becomes a kind of heroic act.


     Similarly, the “wallpaper,” as Olson describes the visual scene, in this case shot by noted filmmaker William E. Jones, primarily represents cityscapes lit by the hazy blue light that in California generally defines sunrise just before the golden light breaks through. The streets are mostly empty, the stores and businesses not yet fully opened, a kind of “stop” (just like the stop-signs we witness) before the actions of the day take over.

     In short, love in this “blue diary” is transformed almost moment by moment into a kind of longing for what the speaker has momentarily enjoyed at the very instant it is disappearing, the way morning steals away the joys of night in bed dreaming of those multiple possibilities. A full 17 years before the director’s “defense of nostalgia” in her feature film, The Royal Road, there is already in this work an intense remembrance of the pleasures that in that very moment are also being taken away, forever lost. And, yes, there is something heroic in the knowing abandonment of something which you had that was never yours in the first place.

      In a sense, Olson’s haunted lover represents a kind of tougher urban version of the role at the center of Richard Strauss’ Rosenkavalier, The Marschallin, who warns her young lover, Octavian (performed always as a “trouser” role, i.e. a woman singing the part of a male) that the passion they now feel will soon be over due to realities of daily life; the best that one can hope is to have the grace and wit to accept without rancor what the new day brings.

      Near the ending of her Blue Diary, Olson sits in the dark, swallowing the oppositions she has just faced now signified in her very choice of food: bland, slightly sour tasting Swiss cheese combined with the fruity bright flavor of strawberries, while nursing “that melancholic ache I have felt from childhood, always having crushes on girls and not being able to do anything about it.”

 

Los Angeles, October 26, 2020

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and World Cinema Review (October 2020).

Michael Burke | Fishbelly White / 1998

the geek

by Douglas Messerli

 

Michael Burke (screenwriter and director) Fishbelly White / 1998

 

Surely one of the oddest short gay films ever made, Michael Burke’s 1998 Fishbelly White might also be described as one of the post poetic and subtle of coming-of-age films. The young boy at the center of this work, Duncan (Mickey Smith) lives on a farm on which his father raises pigs and chickens. Duncan’s farmyard responsibilities seem mostly to consist of gathering eggs and keeping the chickens from fighting, particularly from hurting the young dirty-white hen (presumably the source of the film’s title) who the more colorfully feathered hens regularly torture through their pecks.

       Not only is Duncan a tender soul, who loves all animals and can hardly bear the squeals of a hog his father hauls to the kill, but he is especially attached to his white hen probably because he identifies with her situation in being regularly attacked by the others.

     Duncan, like the white bird, somewhat like his chicken has immature features and is shorter than other boys of his age with milky pale skin and red hair. It doesn’t help that he bicycles around the country carrying his white chicken in the front basket. As he moves back and forth down country roads older boys or simply his schoolmates who are more mature drive by in in a truck, honking and calling out names.


     Obviously this kid, beyond puberty but not yet fully aware of his sexuality, is terribly insecure, the fact of which we witness as he attempts to provide security to his chicken by putting its head into his own mouth to calm it down. It is a strange gesture which truly does make his relationship with the chicken, as the boys who pass him call it, “weird.” And surely Duncan feels like an outsider, trying desperately to be friends with those who taunt him, bravely giving a friendly wave as they speed past.

     Their taunts have also apparently affected him to the degree that he has come to hate himself, and when he steals away to a dilapidated old farm out-building, he pulls out a cigarette and his lighter and, like youths who cut their arms, applies burns to his stomach.

      The only boy in the area who seems willing to be his friend is the handsome neighbor Perry (Jason Hayes) whose family raises cows, animals Duncan also likes as we see him, when visiting the farm, gently petting the cow who greets him at the front gate.

       Perry, obviously a popular kid in this rural community, has also taken a shine to the awkward Perry and seems to have a kind of friendly brotherly attitude toward him. He not only kindly talks to him—although when the other boys pass in their truck, he quickly scrambles off the fence where he is sitting with Duncan telling him to do the same—but suggests, in a friendly manner, “You really shouldn’t carry that chicken around. It looks weird.”

       He invites Duncan to milk the cow, but living on a farm with only chickens and pigs, Duncan is as much a neophyte to the process as would be a “city slicker,” and to help show him how to manipulate the cow’s udders, Perry puts his hands around Duncan’s in order to manipulate them properly so that the cow releases her milk. The act flusters his friend, who immediately makes an excuse to leave.

       In the very next scene, we see Duncan fervently singing in the Sunday church service with his family, but as he looks over at the heavily bosomed woman next to him, stops mid-phrase, fascinated it appears with her tits which perhaps reminds him of Perry’s hand upon his together massaging the tits of the bovine. So caught up the memory is the innocent that when the congregation sits for prayer, he remains standing for a few moments. Coming to with the realization that everyone is watching him, he bolts out of the church in embarrassment.

     Retreating to Perry’s family farm, he and Perry have the conversation I outlined above, Perry bowing out of the passing boys’ invitation to join them at the swamp (where, we soon discover, they intend to kill frogs by lighting firecrackers under them, a brutal behavior which makes Duncan sick), choosing instead to go swimming with his awkward buddy. Much like the Dennis Quaid character in Peter Yates’ Breaking Away (1979), he quickly strips to his underwear and dives in the river, while Duncan still fully dressed and terrified of the long jump into the river below, remains seated on the railroad trestle above.

     When Perry returns he urges his friend to undress and swim, the boy taking off his pants but resisting the jump. The boys take out cigarettes, Duncan lighting Perry’s with his own lighter. When Perry spots the burns on Duncan’s chest, he asks about then, Duncan telling him simply that they’re burns. “You want to feel them?” he asks, almost like Christ permitting Thomas after the crucifixion to put his fingers in risen man’s wounds. Oddly enough Perry obliges, asking whether or not they hurt. “Not much,” Duncan responds. When Perry admires the lighter, Duncan makes him a gift of it. Perry, almost as a gentle reward, pushes the boy off the trestle into the water below. Obviously Duncan is terrified by the fall, but now feels brave in having actually survived the swim.


    As a train approaches they retreat to a spot under the train bridge, where, as Perry stands in his wet undershorts above him, Duncan gently reaches up and without explanation puts his hand gently on Perry’s well-developed abs, stroking his stomach for a moment before moving briefly to his legs and restoring his exploring hand to the abdomen.

      During this remarkably homoerotic moment, Perry says nothing, neither admitting to nor denying what is happening, but simply looking down in total acceptance that the innocent sitting below him has suddenly revealed his budding sexuality to both of them. There is something almost sacred in the moment as Perry without judgment allows the boy to explore what he is seeking, both through his nascent desires and his sudden recognition of why he has so long been put into the position of the outsider. His own hand has spoken what no words might ever have.

      Soon after, Duncan tells his chicken that he must leave him at home when he is about to begin his next bicycle outing, but at the last moment he cannot resist restoring his bird to its protective place in the bike basket. Once more the local yokels pass by him, mocking him and calling out “Chicken man,” this time their open flatbed filled with girls and other boys including Perry.

      They stop the truck, asking him if he wants to join them. This time he at first rejects their invitation, but they insist, telling him to throw his bike in the back. Perry once more attempts to protect him, arguing with the leader that “he doesn’t have to join us if he doesn’t want.”

       Yet Duncan insists he will finally join them, as they grab his bicycle and demand he break the neck of his chicken. The leader taunts him further with words that surely hurt beyond even the self-induced burns he’s suffered: “Perry here thinks you’re a faggot. Are you a fag?” I’m not a queer he insists, now ensconced next to Perry in the tuck bed. “Get rid of the chicken” they insist.

      Clearly terrified by their taunts but this time more determined and braver than we have previously seen him, he places the chicken’s head, as we saw in the first scene of the film, into his mouth, presumably to calm her fears from all the screaming. But this time his teeth come down upon her neck, breaking it, as he pulls away the body tossing it to the side of the road.

      All are shocked as he finally spits the head out of his mouth. One girl screams and pounds on the front cab for the those riding there to let her in. Blood has formed above and under the boy’s lips. Perry pulls out a cigarette and a pack of matches, instead of the lighter Duncan has given him, lighting the butt and passing it on to the person—now not just an awkward friend, but a true geek—who sits next to him. Without even knowing it, all recognize that something important has happened: not only has Duncan been willing to give up the life of his beloved pet to become their friend but he has irrevocably declared his outsiderness to these pitiful representatives of normalcy. He has dared to prove his queerness in return for love.

 

Los Angeles, February 11, 2021

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and World Cinema Review (February 2021).

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