will you still love
me?
by Douglas Messerli
Andrew Haigh (screenplay, based on the book by
Willy Vlautin) and director Lean on Pete / 2017, USA 2018
Like all previous Andrew Haigh movies, his
newest Lean on Pete (from 2017, 2018) is a quiet study about
characters. There is something so honest and straight-forward about Haigh’s
films that you almost don’t want to intrude upon them; they seem to be
documents, without the apparatus of “documentation,” of real people so deeply
felt that it’s hard, at moments, to watch—despite the fact that they are never
for a moment sentimental. The folks he portrays are tough survivors, a young
British gay man living a relatively straight life, but dipping each night as he
escapes his straight friends into local gay bars; a couple who suddenly are
faced with an event before their marriage wherein they must face a love beside
their own; and in this work, a gentle hometown boy—living basically in a
neglected relationship with his philandering father—who falls in love with a
now-old and not-so-glorious race horse.

Charlie (the wonderfully underacting Charlie Plummer) lives with a
father who, without the director saying it, is truly abusive. He does not
sexually or physically abuse his son, but basically ignores him. Leaving the
15-year-old alone for most of his days in a small rented apartment where there
are so many roaches that Charlie keeps his breakfast cereal in the refrigerator
to protect it; when the father Ray (Travis Fimmel) does return home, it is
usually with a woman with whom he retires with into his bedroom.
Haigh
never once calls it abuse, and Charlie doesn’t even perceive it as such, but we
recognize it for what it is. And in the morning, when one of Ray’s take-homes,
a secretary (Amy Seimetz) in the company for which he works, actually cooks the
two breakfast—a sad version of airport food of scrambled eggs and packaged
sausages—the young boy is so appreciative we immediately recognize the parental
figure he is missing in his life. You can see from Charlie’s rail-thin frame
that he simply is not getting a proper diet, which Haigh subtly reconfirms
when, after Ray’s one-time girl-fried leaves the table, and before his father
can claim it, he spears the small sausage on her plate she has left behind. He
is starving—although the director does not overdramatize this—for food and
love.
Yet, Charlie seems almost unable to complain. He was, apparently, a
football and perhaps racing hero in his brief education at a local school, and
he stills runs long distances every morning, putting
him in touch with a nearby Portland racing track. Looking for a job (his father
gives him only a few dollars on which he might survive the day), Charlie
encounters a horse-trainer, the more than slightly sleazy Del Montgomery (Steve
Buscemi), who has a stable of horses which he
literally runs to their deaths, winning
sometimes in small tracks from Oregon to Mexico, but quickly selling his
race-horses when they have lost their abilities to run into their deaths for
conversion to horse-meat or glue.

Del loves the young man for his eagerness to work, mucking out the horse
shit, and willingly leading the horses to their trailer for the voyages south
and north. The fact that Charlie is willing to sleep in the car or on the straw
of the horse bin gives us another insight into how difficult his life has been;
besides Del pays him 50-60 dollars for each event, a huge amount surely for a
boy who has never previously had any money to even buy himself a lunch.
And even if Del, when it comes to horses, is more than detestable, when
it comes to Charlie he does, in some respects, serve as a kind of father,
scolding Charlie for his table manners as the kid chows down what he is served
in a local restaurant the moment the plate is put before him. Again, we
comprehend, without the director telling us, just how starved this boy is. But
Dell’s upbraiding him as having no manners is also one of the first times, we
recognize, that Charlie has ever received any parental advice. The scene is so
painful and uplifting, that we want to cry and applaud at the very same moment.
Haigh is able to achieve these contradictions by simply presenting his
characters in a way that we recognize their flaws and their failures
simultaneously. Judgment is not really in Haigh’s vocabulary.
Soon after Charlie meets a woman, jockey
Bonnie (Chloë Sevigny), riding Del’s horses, who might have served as a strange
kind of maternal figure in his life, except that working over the years as a
small-time jockey has made her so cynical that she cannot help the boy with
anything more than the advice to not become too attached to his favorite horse,
Lean on Pete, (“he’s just a horse,” she reminds him), a gentle being—unlike
some other horses owned by Del—who also has clearly taken a liking to his new
caretaker. Her advice is not heeded.
After winning a couple of races, Lean on Pete, who comes in last in a
race in which Charlie has begged Bonnie to ride instead of the final winner, on
whom she had previously sat.
If things weren’t bad enough for young Charlie, his father is brutally
beaten by the husband of the secretary who he has brought home, and the boy,
demanding a neighbor call 911, visits the hospital to discover his father in
serious condition. Forced to work now just so the two of them might survive,
Charlie returns to the hospital to find his dad has died.
When he hears that Del has just sold Lean on Pete to Mexico his heart,
driven now by pain and loss, forces him to escape with the horse with Del’s van
in an attempt to reunite with his aunt, obviously kept out of his life by his
father, fearing her attempts to claim that she should care for his son.
The movie thus transforms into kind of “on the road” film, in the tragic
manner of Thelma and Louise. Fortunately, they do not leap off the Grand
Canyon, but in their long trek from Oregon to Wyoming to a destination of which
Charlie is not very sure off, they suffer the problems that might make anyone
leap off a cliff. When the car breaks down, the boy is forced to abandon it,
walking his horse through a territory with often little water and food. The boy
is starved, but so is the horse, and at one unpredictable moment, leaps away
from his caring human to be hit by an automobile which kills him.

In a kind a classic Haigh scene, Charlie attempts to revive the horse
who is quite clearly now dead, while having to just as quickly remove himself
from the scene before he is discovered. Once again, the director, retreats from
what might have been bathos, through the inevitable instincts of the young boy,
who has thoroughly learned to evade the dangers in which he has so long been
embraced. Is it a crime to love? the film seems to ask.
After a great deal of difficulty, he does finally discover his aunt
Margy (Alison Elliott), who greets him with open arms, truly willing to care
for him. But the now disillusioned child can only ask, if he needs to go to
jail will she still care for him. Charlie, we perceive, is a child destroyed by
the world around him. We can believe in his salvation or not. Haigh doesn’t
provide us with an easy answer, thank heaven. It is up to us, with our personal
doubts and empathy to provide the answer.
I
suggest that if you see this movie (and you should), you also read Jaimy
Gordon’s important book Lord of Misrule, a fictionalized version of a
young woman who lived apparently a life in racetracks not unlike that of
Charlie Thompson.
It’s interesting to note that Gordon is
bisexual and the director of this film, Andrew Haigh is gay. Yet nothing it the
film itself speaks directly to the LGBTQ+ community. Charlie is perhaps simply
too young to even imagine himself as having a “sexuality.” Yet even more than
Haigh’s last film, 45 Years, which also veered widely from his previous
and later gay offerings, this film does not even wink at homosexuality.
Yet any gay individual can immediately
see that the young abused boy, an outsider to society, taking a voyage back to
his Auntie Em, and psychological involved with a horse that cannot but call up
memories of Peter Shafer’s Equus—which presented it’s young hero’s love
of horses as being symbolic of his homosexual desires—that we have entered
queer territory despite Haigh’s refusal to send his character down any version
of the yellow brick road. It is not that we suspect that Charlie may grow up to
be queer, he already is in the sense that he has been from birth doomed to be ostracized
from the kind of normative love his aunt Margy might represent. Pete the horse
is doomed to death not because it has stood witness to any sexual failure the
boy undergoes, but simply because he is so loved by a societal outsider who has
no right to love him so deeply.
If it might be a mistake to describe Lean
on Pete as a gay cinema, it would be a major omission to not make note of
its kinship to queer film.
Los Angeles, August 4, 2019
Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2019).