by Douglas Messerli
Judhajit Bagchi and Ranadeep Bhattacharyya
(screenwriters and directors) Amen / 2010 [24 minutes]
Andy
seems to determined to ignore his protests and, in effect, to rape him, until
finally Harry pushes him off, Andy becoming furious for the fact, insisting
that he has wasted the entire time with him. “Fucking useless,” he screams as
he stands and begins to dress. Again Andy reminds him that he was clear on his
profile that he doesn’t participate in anal sex. When he was a child his grandfather
abused him, and he still recalls the endless bleeding.
But
Andy has utterly no empathy for him, and when Harry asks, somewhat naively, if
they might meet again, Harry almost violently turns on him declaring that there
is no more time for men. And in any event he will never meet up again with him,
he scoffs.
“Tomorrow is my engagement,” he angrily declares. “And this was my last
chance. You fucking wasted my time.”
Harry
responds in the most honest way possible: “And what about wasting a girl’s
life? I hate pretentious guys like you…”gays” like you.”
Calling
Andy gay results in a violent outburst as Andy begins to throw Harry’s
possessions to the floor, cutting himself in the process, as he moves forward
to pummel Harry as well. The fury is intense, while he shouts, “Who told you I
was gay. I’m not like you…faggot! You bloody
cocksucker. How dare you!”
So
begins the most intense portrayal of the “I’m not gay syndrome” perhaps ever
filmed, when, after partially beating Harry, Andy falls to the floor in a fit
of overacting so extreme that you might imagine that the actor had studied
“method” acting under the tutelage of a Bollywood queen.
One
nonetheless sympathizes for his frenzied breakdown. After all, anyone who can
even half-credibly howl out “My urge to sleep with men does not make me gay” ought
to receive some sort of consolation.
Nonetheless,
Andy seems to have had a great many male sex partners over the years—although
in another zinger, after Harry asks if he enjoys sex with girls equally, Andy nonchalantly
replies that he does not believe in premarital sex. “You mean with ‘girls,’”
Harry jabs back.
Would every man on the eve of his wedding
have someone like Harry around to let him know, if nothing else, just how
destructive is his inability to describe himself a gay—or queer or being homosexual,
or even full admitting to others that he enjoys sex with his own gender.
Andy
also challenges Harry to stop carrying around his childhood terror of his
grandfather’s abuse and his fears of anal bleeding, and to embrace his sexual
pleasures fully.
Yet
Harry leaves, hurrying off to his Tina, seemingly as if his intense
conversation with Harry has meant nothing.
This
is, one must remember a movie embracing gay life in an India where being gay was
still illegal. In 2009, the Delhi High Court found (in the case of the Naz
Foundation vs. the government of NCT of Delhi) that section 377 (which declared
carnal intercourse with any man, woman or animal, against the order of nature,
and punishable with life imprisonment) to be a direct violation of the
fundament rights provided by the Indian Constitution. But in 2012 the Ministry
of Home Affairs declared an open opposition to the decimalization of homosexual
activity, only to have that view gain reversed by the Central Indian
Government.
In fact,
July 2, the date of the 2009 decision, is generally celebrated throughout India
as “Indian Coming Out Day.” Yet as late as 2013, the Supreme Court set aside
the 2009 decision. And Section 377 was not repealed until 2015.
In
2010, accordingly, when this brave movie was released it was meg with a great
deal of controversy and was almost denied a certificate by the Film Review
Committee permitting its release.
Is it
any wonder, accordingly, that directors Judhajit Bagchi and Ranadeep
Bhattacharyya chose a happy ending for over what would have been a far more
realistic one. In the film, after a short period, Andy returns to Harry, presumably
after admitting to his fiancée and his family, his sexuality. He does say as
much, but it is clear that he is now committed to a relationship with Harry,
and will likely become the Mr. Right that Harry has told him that he hoped in
might find in all of his random sexual meetups.
This film, in short, like many other Indian gay films still today such as My Gay Cousin of 2023, which I watched
the other afternoon, serve still primarily a gay propaganda, devoted to the acceptance
of Indian culture of gays and their relationships. But there is a vast
difference in the narrative, cinematic skills, and intelligent, if rather
unbelievable, acting of a film such as Amen, which won several awards
upon its release, and a primitive, but well-meaning work such as My Gay Cousin—even if their goals are
similar. And despite its over-acting and simplicity of its issues, Amen is an important movie.
*For a fuller discussion of these events, see my essay on Sridhar Rangayan’s Breaking Free (2015).
Los Angeles, September 26, 2024
Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2024).
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