by Douglas Messerli
Blake Pruitt (screenwriter and director) I Feel
Love / 2012 [6 minutes]
This short black-and-white film begins with two
young men (Evan Powell and Max Sheldon) in bed together, one of them speaking
as a narrative voice evoking the importance of the smell of someone else with
whom you’re in love. He returns to the bed and wishes he might stay there
forever.
Soon
after, as they make coffee together in the kitchen, however, their relationship
seems far more tangential: “I stare into his eyes sometimes to see if there is
anything there.” The other’s attention to his cell-phone during their morning
coffee certainly doesn’t seem encouraging.
“I’m the
crazy one in this relationship,” continues the narrative voice, as the coffee
cup spills out its overpoured contents unto the floor. He describes himself as
a pessimist, accepting only the bad news as truth. “Am I setting myself up for
failure?” he rhetorically asks.
Meanwhile, as the film’s soundtrack plays Otis Reading’s “That’s How
Strong My Love Is” in the background, the narrator moves to kiss the other, who
gets up and walks off. “These guys always fall for me. And I fall too. But they
get right back up and walk all over me.”
“I feel
empty when he touches me now. As if he’s taking something away from me.” Our narrator
even speaks of the sweet sadness of knowing that you can’t have what you want
overwhelms him.
The other finally, frustrated by the mass
of romantic feelings that other is trying to impose upon him, leaves. Our
narrator clearly so wants to fall totally in love that he conjures it up with
everyone he meets, assuring his constant disappointment. In the gay hook-up
culture in which he is involved, he will clearly never find what he wants.
Pruitt’s
film, with a sometimes hard-to-hear soundtrack and weak acting, is
unfortunately not very profound either. It wants to tackle the difficult issues
of the one-night sexual stands or short-lived involvements rampant in the gay
community, but doesn’t present characters that have the depth to embrace such
issues, the result of which simply makes our troubled narrator sound utterly
self-centered and shallow.
Los Angeles, August 30, 2024
Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (August 2024).
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