Thursday, September 4, 2025

Sarah McCliment | Spark / 2017

axel and nancy drew

by Douglas Messerli

 

Caitlyn Murray (screenplay), Sarah McCliment (director) Spark / 2017 [8 minutes]

 

Jane (Micah Untiedt) sits in the dark on a concrete stair case to somewhere on or near her campus reading Kate Chopin’s The Awakening. A young man passes by, checking her out, but it’s clear from her body movements that Jane is not in the least interested.


    But soon after she is joined by a young woman in leather with glossy red lipstick—named Tess (Molly McIntyre), we later discover—almost the complete opposite from our plain Jane; Tess is attempting the escape two frat guys (James Zogran-Werness and Grayson Wimbish), upon one of whom she has intentionally poured and spilled a cranberry vodka drink, presumably when he attempted to come-on to her.

    Tess flashes a lighter near Jane’s face describing her as a kind of Nancy Drew, probably from the looks of the book she’s reading, surmising that she's a feminist vegan. But no, argues, Jane/Nancy, she’s actually drinking a hot chocolate, and the stranger is in luck, since she doesn’t like leather.


     At that moment the two frat boys show up across the street in search of their tormentor, Tess trying to hide herself turning away toward Jane, accidentally placing her hand upon the other girl’s hand; and we just know that if there is any truth to the old cliché that opposites attract, we just been shown that spark that will soon set the heart afire.

     Jane, almost out breath, tells Tess that the boys have left, and soon after the girl in leather goes off, leaving the speechless Nancy Drew almost breathless.


     For the rest of the night, she goes in search of Tess, not yet even knowing her name. And finally she discovers her hiding out in an alley. This time it’s Jane’s turn to imagine the stereotypes, suggesting that her newfound friend must be named “something hip or edgy like Ruby or Pandora, no wait, Axel.” Tess is somewhat struck by idea of being named Axel, but when she spots to the two frats again, is about once more to disappear from Jane’s life.

     Jane suddenly walks out into the light, confronting the two boys who ask if she’s seen a girl in leather. Our Nancy Drew lies outright, saying the girl they're look for, Axel, is well known, having caused a fight in another place, and sends them off to yet another location, Cha-chas.

     Even Tess/Axel is impressed. “So you’ve never had a vodka cranberry?”

     Jane shakes her head in the negative.

     “In that case I’ll have to order you a double.”

     “Just as long as you promise not to throw it on me.”

    This looks like the beginning of a long relationship.

 

Los Angeles, September 4, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2025).

 

 

Sudhanshu Saria | Loev / 2015, USA 2017

a candle that can’t be re-lit

by Douglas Messerli

 

Sudhanshu Saria (screenwriter and director) Loev / 2015, USA 2017

 

After the recommendation of Facebook friend, Will Northerner, I determined yesterday to view Netflix’s Loev, an Indian-based movie by Sudhanshu Saria, and was pleasantly pleased. Unlike so many gay-themed films, Saria’s work presented the whole issue of his character’s being gay as a perfectly everyday thing; the important issue here focuses on the central character, Sahil’s (Dhruv Ganesh) ambivalence about who he truly loves, his former Mumbai friend, Jai (Shiv Pandit), now working in New York, or his current lover with whom he lives in Mumbai, Alex (Siddhart Menon).



     The movie begins with Sahil and Alex arguing, something they do, evidently, quite regularly. Although he is a quite charming actor, Alex is also utterly irresponsible, having failed to pay the electric bill—the film’s first scene consists of Sahil attempting to find a candle so that we might be able to see in the dark—and accidentally leaving the gas running on the stove, which Sahil later describes might have ended his life if he had lit a cigarette. Sahil, we soon realize, is made all the more tense because he is about to spend the weekend hiking with his New York friend, who has returned to Mumbai on a business trip.

     Sahil has planned for a hiking trip in India’s Mahabaleshwar, the stunning rock formations of the Western Ghats, determining to have what he describes as a weekend “all to himself,” although, clearly, with the hope that he might rekindle the love he apparently once shared with Jai.

     Although Jai has rented an expensive car for the trip, he seems diffident about the trek and constantly interrupts Sahil’s communication with phone conversations with business associates back in the US. The romantic weekend he has planned is increasingly thwarted, as they finally end up in a hotel room with two single beds.

     There are several beautiful moments early in their road journey, including the musical interludes when Sahil, working as a musical agent, reveals a song by a new singer he is about to sign, and when, stopping at a small shop in Mahabeleshwar, he picks up a guitar and plays one of his own compositions, which highly impresses Jai, secretly buying the guitar as a gift to his friend.

       Both men, however, are distracted by problems at home, Sahil with his relationship with Alex, and Jai with the unhappiness of his mother, who has not been able to re-assimilate in New York, missing her life in Mumbai.


      And, for the most part, the spark between the two now seems to be missing; when Jai finally does attempt sex with Sahil, he is rejected. Even their hiking adventures are infected with Jai’s reluctance to follow Sahil as he makes his way up the mountainside for the amazing panoramic views of the UNESCO World Heritage Site. Only later, after these events, do we discover that at the edge of a cliff the two had actually kissed for a few intense moments.

       In fact, the writer / director intentionally casts their outing in rather sexually vague terms. At the time of the filming, India’s Supreme Court was hearing a case about the legal code criminalizing homosexual behavior, and in order to not draw attention to the fact that he was making a homosexual-themed movie, Sari, who wrote the script in the US, told most of his Indian crew that this was a “road movie,” allowing only a select, trusted few on the shoots that it involved sexual behavior. And, in that sense, this movie is far more politically concerned than most American viewers might realize. Discretion also determined that the film’s tone is so matter-of-fact, helping the film to be a more realistic and idiosyncratic than so many US films about the same subject. There is no self-loathing or trauma in this film—that is until the film’s final scenes when, after returning to Mumbai to spend on more night together, Jai, utterly frustrated with Sahil’s standoffishness, rapes his friend, a terribly painful scene, even for its director.

       Jai immediately regrets it, apologizing profusely, but Sahil—although shocked by the act—quickly forgives it, sharing, obviously, some of Jai’s frustration. But things only get worse when they join Alex in the hotel restaurant, who, in part to get back at Sahil’s weekend with Jai, has dragged along a young, pot-smoking boy, Junior, whom he insists also join them in Jai’s hotel room, where, while Sahil once again plays his new guitar, he and Jai dance. The tensions between all are now utterly apparent.

       It is only as Sahil accompanies Jai to the airport for his friend’s return home, that they publicly display their affection with a final kiss, a scene which shocked the unknowing cameramen and crew.

       The film ends, positively, with Jai texting Sahil that he loves him and is “sorry,” before deleting the second sentence, simply expressing his “loev,” a purposeful misspelling since so much of the film is in what the director describes as Hinglish, a mix of Hindi and English, the characters quickly switching between the two.

        Frugally filmed, the movie, however, has several beautifully conceived images, some of them stunningly abstract; and, although Saria did not even imagine it might be saleable, the film was well-received in the 2015 Tallinn (Estonia) Black Nights Film Festive, the 2016 South By Southwest Film Festival in Austin, Texas, and the Mumbai International Film Festive of that same year. In 2017 Netflix bought the rights. Certainly, it’s one of the favorites of the several gay films I’ve seen lately and bodes well for shifts in Indian cinema. Sadly, Ganesh, who performed so brilliantly as Sahil, died of tuberculosis as this film went into final production.  

 

Los Angeles, November 13, 2017

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (November 2017).

Niels Bourgonje | Buddy / 2015

the friend with tears in his eyes

by Douglas Messerli

 

Niels Bourgonje and Edwin Goldman (screenplay), Niels Bourgonje (director) Buddy / 2015 [11 minutes]

 

This short film by Dutch filmmaker Niels Bourgonje appears to center upon Chris (Tobias Nierop), who has asked his ex-lover Jeroen (Daniel Cornelissen) to accompany him to an STD (Sexually Transmitted Disease) center since apparently a one-night stand has reported to him that he is HIV-positive.



     There is hardly any plot here. The two meet up at the assigned time. Chris takes a quick smoke, Jeroen having evidently quit since the breakup. And the two enter, taking a number and waiting as around them other couples, lesbian, gay, and straight, black and white, wait to be called or, worse yet, sit in anticipation for the results which usually take about 20 minutes after the collection of blood.     

     Clearly there is still feeling between the two as they ask little things about one another, Jeroen asking after Chris’ mother, both inquiring about their jobs, and Chris wondering about the cat. But there are obviously deeper issues withheld. For example, Chris determines to go in alone on the pretense that the doctor may ask Jeroen embarrassing questions.

       And when they are in the waiting stage, Jeroen’s question about whether or not the sexual partner who occasioned this was a “one night stand,” results in Chris angrily responding, clearly touchy about even discussing his sexual life post-Jeroen.

       Yet a moment later, he apologizes and hugs him, for a moment the love that was once between them inching toward the surface. The acting in this short work is especially notable.

       Soon he is called and told that he’s negative. Good results obviously, although given his life style he is asked to return in six months.

       Outside, Jeroen congratulates him and Chris thanks him again for being there, but then turns to go, the two hugging for a moment. But as Jeroen stands there, alone, we recognize just how much he is still in love with Chris, the beginning of a tear glistening in his left eye. He has, after all, taken off the day from work to be there with someone he once very much loved.


       The publicity for this film wonders whether there is “still hope for reconciliation,” but it seems clear to me, given Chris’ shortness regarding his current life, and the relative curtness of his leaving, that the two, although they will always have feelings for one another, are not meant to resume something that is now in the past. And Jeroen seems almost more concerned for Chris’ welfare.  Both must now face a world of “carefulness” in their sexual partners, a world in which surety and the daily mutual support Jeroen has revealed again in this instance will be missing. A buddy generally finds it difficult to become a lover.

       Finally, this film reveals that no matter how much the general populace and the gay community, in specific, like to pretend AIDS is a thing of history, it will be with us perhaps forever unless a true cure is miraculously discovered; and people around the world still die from this epidemic every day.

 

Los Angeles, September 12, 2022

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (September 2022).

Kristine Stolakis | The Typist / 2015

this could be me

by Douglas Messerli

 

Kristine Stolakis (screenwriter and director) The Typist / 2015 [8 minutes]

 

Based on a 1994 interview for “queer Smithsonian,” archived apparently by San Francisco’s GLBT Historical Society, The Typist, apparently reshot as a film by Kristine Stolakis in 2015 seems to promise a great deal. Afterall, the man being interviewed, Otto Bremerman (played in the film by Monterey Morrissey as an older man) was a gay Korean War veteran who worked as  a typist in the official headquarters of The Pearl Harbor Naval Base in 1952, charged with the tasks of writing up discharges for sailors accused of homosexuality.


     One might imagine a juicy piece of war history, particularly given the fact that Bremerman himself was gay. What might his feelings have been now and, more interestingly, at the time he was charged with such a terrible task. He begins by saying to the interviewer (Dana Edwards) that he knew if he were to let his guard down in any respect to his sexual preferences he too would be kicked out. And he reports that generally the files included a confession and that the offices required of those charged to name names, those individuals also being sought and discharged.

      If you were discharged, there no pensions, no loans for school, no GI Bill, no military benefits, perhaps no jobs when the soldiers returned back to the US. They could not serve in any other branch of the military, although after such an event one wonders they might have sought to.

      It’s fascinating that their approach was similar to those of Joseph McCarthy and the House Un-American Activities Committee seeing out Communists as well as gay men and women, but if you’re seeking deeper insights this is not the movie. Stolakis’ work quickly meanders into a clip from Boys Beware, presumably to represent the US attitude to homosexuality at the time. The camera moves down the halls of what is presumably the Naval Base offices, but quickly focuses in on a clacking Royal typewriter with an actor portraying the supposedly “younger Otto.”


       It seems that the homosexual actions that were most dangerous was on the base itself. And later, in describing his own sexuality—which actually takes up most of the film’s short 8-minutes—we learn that there were active gay bars off base where you could regularly meet young ensigns and share rooms with them in the local YMCA (a wonderfully zany notion of an early manifestation of The Village People’s song).

       Growing up in the Midwest, Bremerman describes his own childhood confusion where no one spoke of sex, heterosexual and particularly homosexual. He presumed he would find a woman and marry, and on his first leave from base sought out places “all along the piers” where he might meet women. But by chance he wandered in a gay bar, was picked up by and ensign and shared his room for the night, realizing almost immediately that he liked boys better than girls. And from then on, he admits, he had many a wild night “on the town,” so to speak. As Bremerman puts it: “I got very active, very aggressive in having sexual liaisons most any night you could see the light in front of my door. I took a lot of chances.”



      While reporting what the piers were like, Stolakis relies on old movie reels of soldiers disembarking from ships and truly embarrassingly cutesy cartoon-like images of the soldier’s insignia with guns going off. 

     Only in the last moments of the film does the interviewer actually pose what might have been the major question to be asked from the start. “Were you worried about getting caught?”  His answer is vague of coy, “Yeah, I just couldn’t get dishonorably discharged.” But even here, the interviewer fails to ask him the most important moral questions, shifting instead into the sadly regressive questions of the 80s and 90s, “Are you glad you’re gay?” our WWII veteran answering wisely that he’s not sure since he’s never been any other way. But even here, the regrets pour out, the wishes that he might have left a child on the planet, and his observation that if he had it all to do over again he might have adopted an older gay boy to help protect him as he grows up, a somewhat questionable shift into slightly pedophilic complications.

       It is not until 7 minutes into this film that the narrator asks the important question of whether Bremerman ever asked, in typing up these reports, that “This could be me.” Bremerman’s answer, “Yeah, yeah, and this could be me.”

       The film ends, reporting: “Bremerman completed his term of service in 1954 without being discovered.” Even more devastating with regard to what appears to be the man’s empty conscience is the last of the film’s reportage: “That same year, the Navy discharged 1,353 sailors.”

       There have been many excellent films made about the military and homosexuality, but this surely is not one of them.

 

Los Angeles, December 8, 2023

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (December 2023).

 

Sridhar Rangayan | Breaking Free / 2015

out of the twilight zone

by Douglas Messerli

 

Sridhar Rangayan and Saagar Gupta (screenplay), Sridhar Rangayan (director) Breaking Free / 2015

 

In one of my reviews of Indian gay films in early 2000—and there have now been a number—I rather fatuously commented that it was amazing that such a film might be allowed to be made in India. I won’t exactly take back that statement, but after watching the documentary Breaking Free, which was seven years in the making, I’d suggest that I might simply have restated my comment, noting how important films like the one about which I was writing were for a strong yet still somewhat nascent LGBTQ movement in that country.

     Indeed, about a fourth of the way into this important recounting of the development of a Rainbow coalition in India, I paused in watching the film, convinced that what I was observing was so similar to such conscious-raising shifts in many other countries, including the US, that I might not need to continue.


     Yet as the director/writer Sridhar Rangayan makes clear, India is a very special case. First of all, Indian culture had never truly rejected same-sex love until the British Raj of 1858-1947 which enacted a great deal of laws hitherto unheard of in the sub-continent. Even throughout British rule and including today, the Hijra (or Kinnar), a broad gathering of eunuchs, intersex, and transgender people, continued to be recognized as a third gender.

      With regard to gay, lesbian, and bisexual, individuals, the British-created Section 377, however, made it near to impossible for an open LGBTQ community to exist. The law reads: “Whoever voluntarily has carnal intercourse against the order of nature with any man, woman or animal shall be punished with imprisonment for life, or with imprisonment of either description for a term which may extend to ten years, and shall also be liable to fine.”

       Even if one were suspected, as were many kothis (effeminate gay men), of same-sex relationships, they could be arrested, imprisoned; or, just as often, they might be sexually attacked by the police or military and bribed, with threats of reporting such activities to their families, which in that patriarchal society might lead to their expulsion from their homes, jobs, and social interactions, ending in perhaps even death. In many other cases, young women and men secretly involved in same-sex relationships, were married-off by their parents in the long tradition of Indian matchmaking, about which Netflix recently posted a new comedic series.

      As the director and early narrator of this film declares, gay and lesbian love, in their world, was without a name. They hovered in the shadows, lived for years “in the twilight zone,” sharing the reality of their sexuality with only a few close friends.

      Was it any wonder that so very few films about LGBTQ life were made before the gradual and somewhat startling changes which this film documents?

      Kothis are, in fact, at the heart of this film, relating particularly to cases in Lucknow, Delhi, and elsewhere, in one case of which a young transgender woman, Kokila, simply waiting for a bus in Delhi at 10:30 at night, was picked up by police and taken to the station where she was raped by 11 officers. Pandian, a 21-year-old street sweeper in Chennai was also gang-raped one night at a police station, where they used Section 377 as permission to orally attack him, tearing away the lining of his mouth with their penises; when he protested in pain they rammed their batons into the soft tissue, returning the next few nights to repeat the attacks. Suffering and in fear of further abuse, Pandian committed suicide.

     Finally, the Lucknow-based Bharosa Trust, a National Government Organization that was conducting an HIV prevention drive (the movie makes clear just how difficult it was to distribute condoms and teach the LGBTQ community safe-sex practices when most of those involved were nearly invisible), was raided in 2001 by police and taken to an open courtyard where its officials were repeatedly kicked in their asses and forced to drink filthy open-sewer water.

     The previous cases, described above, were taken to court, but since the lawyers and others had filed for the society at large rather than for the individuals involved, they were dismissed.



     Heeding the court findings, the same individuals—many of whom we encounter in Breaking Free—determined to hold, along with Mumbai LGBTQ activists, their very first public rally, which suddenly offered, in a manner similar to the US Stonewall police raids, new possibilities for gays, lesbians, and others. The young Kokila, who was attacked in Delhi, filed and won her case in the Karnataka High Court in 2004.

      When the Bengaluru police determined to evict hijras from their city, along with the previous attack against the Bharosa Trust group the national case against Section 377 became stronger. In 2009 the Delhi High Court finally decriminalized consensual sex between gay persons in private, the now-growing LGBTQ community, many of their members breaking into tears, finally feeling the burden of the British law had been forever removed from their shoulders.

      As journalist Hemal Shringla writes in The Leaflet (a newsletter dedicated to issues of Indian justice):

 

The best part of Breaking Free, however, are the testimonies of the generation which came out after the 2009 Delhi High Court judgment. You wonder at how much the movement managed to achieve in just eight years. Balu is a handsome young gay man and he recounts how amused he was at his parents’ perplexity when he came out to them. Sonu is a young and bright-eyed transsexual who is waiting to have SRS (Sex Reassignment Surgery) after which he will marry his girlfriend. The movement also encouraged parents to come out. One of the most inspiring images in the film is that of Chitra Palekar, film and theatre personality, in a pride parade wearing a placard that says “Mother With Pride.”

 

     So, it might seem, ends the story of the rise of the Indian LGBTQ community. Yet in 2013, the Indian Supreme Court surprisingly reversed that decision, with justices declaring “The Court held that there is very little evidence to show that the provision is being misused by the police.” Section 377 had come back to haunt them, and although they declared that from their experiences of mobilizing their community, things would never be the same, you can easily recognize through their display of tears and facial expressions of horror, that all their hopes had been quite suddenly dashed. And this mix of frustration and hope is, in fact, how Rangayan’s important film ends.

     In that highly wrought reversal of justice I suddenly could perceive a possibility that I had hardly considered in my own life, that with the highly conservative court we have in the US today, let alone the possibility of an addition of one or two further conservatives—which could well happen if Trump were to be elected for another term—that such a thing could even happen here, in my own country. The reaction to such a decision would surely cause a far more militant outcry in the US, but the effects it might bring about would be absolutely devastating for our young Balu’s and Sonu’s of the younger generation.

     Since the 2015 release of this film, however, the same Indian Supreme Court reversed their opinion once more on September 6, 2018, permitting consensual sex between adults of all sexual orientations. As Justice Chandrachud argued: “Sexuality is the fundamental experience through which individuals define the meaning of their lives.” As the renowned Telugu actor, Siddharth, tweeted: “When judges speak with such beauty you want to fall at their feet and say thanks. Why is it raining in my eyes dammit?”

 

Los Angeles, August 1, 2020

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2020).

 

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