Sunday, December 14, 2025

James Doherty | Breathe / 2015

learning how to breathe

by Douglas Messerli

 

Theo James Krekis (screenplay), James Doherty (director) Breathe / 2015 [14 minutes]

 

This short Irish film directed by James Doherty presents yet another picture of a young effeminate boy growing up in a family that finds it difficult to accept anything but stereotypical societal notions of the male gender. Particularly, in this case, the family are members of the Irish Travellers, a traditionally peripatetic indigenous group of people who speak either English or Shelta, mostly living in Ireland. Like the Romani they travel about in carts and caravans, and basically isolate themselves when it comes to marriage from the general settled population. However, they are not related to the Romani people but are of Indo-Aryan origin, who perhaps broke off from the regular Irish populations during the Cromwell conquest of Ireland in the 1600s.

    They are known for their music, their intricate embroidery and beadwork of their clothing and pouches, and for their expertise in knuckle-boxing.


    Indeed, the film begins with the father Patrick (John Connors) attempting to teach his young son, Francie (Lee O’Donoghue) to fight, but the boy will not and cannot successfully box with his young peers, and is soon knocked over with a bloody nose, a great embarrassment for the battling Patrick.

     Francie, moreover, has difficulties breathing and regular uses an inhaler, which means that this particular family has probably visited a doctor, despite the fact the group, by and large, believe in faith healings.


    Patrick is terrified of his son becoming what he describes as a soft man, clearly suggesting his worries that he might be homosexual, although he never uses the world, nor alludes to queer or other such terms. While the other boys fight, Francie plays with his dog. And the other children do most particularly call him a queer, even though they are scolded by their fathers for using the word. And in the background, Patrick quietly fumes for what he has heard the boy’s peers say, knowing also that the fathers think his boy is soft.



   At some moments we watch him take out his frustrations on a punching bag while Francie stands quietly, looking on, clearly knowing that he is not meeting his father’s expectations.

    Even when Francie does a simple thing like crossing his legs, his father corrects him, suggesting he will do himself harm, even though the boy counters with a simple statement, “Well, it’s comfy.”

    Francie’s mother Bridie (Lynn Rafferty) begs her husband to let the boy be who is. But when, at one point, Francie rouges his lips with his mother’s lipstick canister, even she is taken aback,

immediately scolding him for his experimentation and quickly wiping away the lipstick before her husband sees it. But she cannot finish the task before Patrick returns and seeing what has transpired and despite her pleas to leave her son alone, the father severely beats his son for "trying to be a girl."


    Soon after, he encounters his friends discussing their son’s boxing skills in a pub, but growing silent the moment Patrick joins them. He realizes, obviously, that they have been also gossiping about Francie, and several scolds them for their braggart ways.

    The troubled father awakens his son in the middle of the night and, gun in hand, takes the boy deep into the woods. We are terrified by what might happen. But his intention is not to punish Francie, but to teach him how to shoot wild deer. But the boy is exhausted by the time they reach their destination.


    Patrick lectures the boy about his own father having taken him to the very spot when he was even younger, teaching him how to respect the land, his own people, their way of life. He forces the gun into the boy’s hands, but Francie can hardly stand by this point. Patrick takes up the gun and shoots, missing the buck. But by this time his son cannot even stand and soon after collapses.

    He tries to find the boy’s inhaler, but he has left it behind, and he is forced to pick up the child in his arms and rush back toward the long distance home. But as he himself falls from the weight and running, the boy appears to be dead. He shouts for the boy to breathe, crying out in pain and despair, begging the boy to “wake up so, please.” But there is no response, and it appears that the boy is dead.


    In horror he continues to attempt to resuscitate the child without success; but finally the boy’s hand jerks, his eyes flicker, and he comes back to life, once again taking in the air around him.

    In the last scene the boy sits, alive, on the couch. And it is clear that Patrick would rather have a live effeminate son as opposed to a dead one. Yet, it is also clear that this future gay child will have enormous difficulties in the years ahead given the culture into which he was born.

 

Los Angeles, December 14, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (December 2025).

Andrea Bosshard | The Intruder / 1999

when the milkman visits at night

by Douglas Messerli

 

Andrea Bosshard (screenwriter and director) The Intruder / 1999

 

New Zealand filmmaker Andrea Bosshard’s 1999 16-minute film is a kind of fairy tale involving an entire family. Like many a fairy tale, it is told in the third-person, primarily by a narrator (Rangimoana Taylor) who takes his own story-telling methods into psychological realms, telling the audience what exactly is inside each of these figures’ heads.

    The major characters are a standard, almost stereotypical kind of family, an unhappy mother (Catherine Downes), an equally unhappy and potentially pedophilic father (Alan Brunton), their coming of age daughter (Kezia Hinchey), and their slightly older son (Peter Rutherford) who for ages has been rehearsing a coming out speech.


    So dissatisfied with one another are these parents that, as I suggested, the father keeps eyeing his post-pubescent daughter and the mother has fallen in love with the handsome milkman (Jeremy Scrivener) going as far as even writing love notes to him.

     Over the breakfast table, seeming the only time that these family members meet up with one another, the mother and father angrily squabble, each abusing the other. At night, even the husband’s attempts to hold and touch his wife are met with complete indifference. They communicate only through the son.


     The young girl dreams of a handsome young man who might come to take her away, and the young son keeps practicing his coming-out speech, “Mom, Dad, I have something to tell you…, the 8 words that begin almost all gay boys’ most important confession of their lives.

     One night, after the wife has clearly invited the milkman into the house and her private life, he enters. But instead of going to the bedroom, he checks out the desk cadenza, pulling out a picture of the son and winding a musical clock that the husband has given to his wife upon the birth of their daughter.

    For the sleeping young girl, the sound of the music weaves through her dreams of being swept away in the arms of the milkman. The husband awakens to check out the music, only to see what he believes is his daughter in the arms of the milkman. He turns back and climbs into bed.


     In the morning, the mother opens the door to the boy’s bedroom only to observe the milkman in bed with her son, feeling some sorrow that he had to be the sacrifice instead of herself, never imagining the boy might have invited the milkman into his bed.


     At breakfast, for the first time, the quarreling couple actually ask to share the newspaper, the father refusing any milk for his coffee. When the daughter appears and begins to drink from the bottle of milk, her mother removes it from her hands. The son and his now lover (the intruder of the title) enter and also sit together at the table, the daughter in recognition of the milkman tells him that she dreamt of him in the night.

    The son finally recites his speech in front the entire family, finishing the sentence: “Mom, Dad, I have something to tell you: I’m queer.”

    When the milkman arrives at the door the very next morning, the wife opens it only to find her husband there, handing her an egg, symbol of course, of fertility, of a future of love. They kiss, and everyone is finally happy again.

      Seldom has a coming out story been perceived as a solution for familial discontent. But by bringing in new love into their lives which displaces their perverted fantasies, this family is healed by the news, not at all troubled, confused, or broken. Just has the boy has chosen his new self over his old, so are they freed to become new versions of themselves, to live their lives as they were meant to be. If this is normalcy, I’ll take it.

 

Los Angeles, December 14, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (December 2025).

 

 

Lionel Soukaz and Guy Hocquenghem | Tino / 1985

cruising for eternal love

by Douglas Messerli

 

Lionel Soukaz and Guy Hocquenghem (screenwriters and directors) Tino / 1985

 

The French queer intellects, Lionel Soukaz and Guy Hocquenghem’s, campy film Tino—released six years after their significant essayistic work Race d’Ep (1979)—is certainly not one of their most important endeavors, but it’s still fun to watch, and at moments quite chilling, as a wealthy American tourist couple played by journalist and gay activist Douglas Ireland and noted French actress and singer Myriam Mézières buy the services of a young Tunisian boy, Tino (Khaled Mahmoud).


     After a brief salute to all things Mediterranean, including the cultures, the architect, the religions, the shipping, even the water itself—as well as prostitution— Myriam is seen in a chauffeured automobile rumbling across the beach sands where it stops a feet away from several young men playing beach soccer. Once they spot the car they rush towards it, each of them hoping to be invited in for whatever pleasure, perhaps even a role as a gigolo for the beautiful American woman. But a particularly beautiful young man, Tino, finally pulls his friends away, Myriam taking a careful look at his “qualifications.”

      Taking off her sunglasses, she salutes him as her “Gabriel,” her “angel,” and quickly asks him to get in. When, soon after, she attempts to take him into her Tunis hotel, she is met by the hotel security guard who attempts to eject the young man from entering—“we have our reputation to think  of”—Myriam screaming and shouting at him in defiance, the way some wealthy Americans behave everywhere they go. The scene reminds of the earlier 1975 film by Rainer Werner Fassbinder, Fox and His Friends, where Eugen and Fox pick up a local Arab boy in Morocco, also refused entry, this time into hotel restaurant, the hotel management assuring them that have their own male escorts for such occasions.



      In this case, the insistently loud American wins, she and her husband, Henry, soon pulling the half-naked boy onto the terrace to have drinks, hilariously served up by the waiter with Tino’s soccer ball. And before long the two have literally moved him to a vertical position of the beach where Myriam is busy rubbing suntan lotion across his abs before slipping her hand below in to his swimming trunks.


       The couple soon after take in an evening film, evidently a production about the Roman emperor Hadrian’s infamous lover, Antinous the boy Hadrian who as Myriam reminds her new pickup died young—interestingly, given the role water plays throughout this short film, he inexplicably drowned in the Nile, Hadrian himself, like the couple, also being an inveterate traveler—and who Hadrian, still desperately in love with the boy turned into a god in both the Egyptian world, associating him with the cult Osiris, the god of the dead (also associated with the mud of the Nile) and in the Greek world with its Dionysian cult of fertility, madness, and hedonistic sexual activity, the last two of which, at least, are roles Tino does indeed perform with the couple, who equally claim his sexual favors.


      After attending the film starring David Bowie, it is Tino himself who begins to imagine himself in the Roman epic that winds its way through this sordid tale, he seemingly finding as much pleasure in being desired by Henry as he does by his more mundane sexual encounters with the wife.

      To my knowledge, Bowie never made such a film, but it is great fun, and almost a natural jibe given that at the time of Soukaz and Hocquenghem’s film the singer was rumored to have had many a bedroom fling with Mick Jagger and recently performed with him in Dancing in the Street (1985). The Italian title, The Living God is, of course, another comment on Bowie—about the adulation of one of his fans as much as the singer’s own ego—but is obviously what Tino would like to be, particularly given his self-perceived good fortune.

      Other than constantly stroking the boy, Henry seems mostly a man of coarse words, and in Tino’s imaginative world shouts out his demands that the boy become a sacred god, while his wife mostly sits and sulks, particularly when Henry is around.


       Early on in the silly “swords and sandals” episodes, the co-director Guy Hocquenghem, performing as a Roman associate of Hadrian’s takes Tino  into the coronation room where he is declared his true beloved, with the boy even willing to dance like a woman in front of his emperor, a role quickly taken over by Henry’s wife to re-establish her reality as a true woman in a world of mostly young men fawning on Hadrian’s/Henry’s every move.

      The couple, with Tino in their party, are soon on they are on their way to Greece.

    It is in Greece where he explains to the boy, probably without his comprehension, that the two, husband and wife, have agreed early in their marriage to share everything. Besides he’s pretty sure, he brags to his wife, Tino prefers boys, “after all he’s an Arab.” “I tell you what,” he shouts out, “you take the front I’ll take the rear...the butt!”

     Confused by their bickering about him, Tino again imagines his role in Hadrian’s Rome, the man who apparently had sexual relationships only with boys and never with his wife. Once again, he does not seem to mind the ugly Hadrian, any more than the unpleasant Henry pawing him. After all, he has been exalted in his performative roles!


    Only when Henry refuses to join them in their exploration of a ruin, does Tino join her in full heterosexual behavior, fucking her as she stands against the ruined pillars as, with the cornball sexual pun, fireworks light up the sky.

      But the sexual interlude ends badly, with Henry slapping his wife to the ground and verbally abusing her, as somehow she has performed it purposely to embarrass him in front of a crowd.

    Again Tino imagines himself in Hadrian’s court, this time undergoing what appears to be a ceremonial marriage to Hadrian, a veil over his face, perhaps suggesting their being initiated together into the Eleusinian Mysteries. Furious, with the ceremony, his wife after belittling the activities, stalks out. And soon after Hocquenghem playing the same role in which he earlier brought Tino into the court, appears with a dagger in his hand in an attempt to kill Antinous, again perhaps a reference to the jealousy of Hadrian’s other possible lover Lucius Ceionius Commodus. Without Tino moving a muscle, the competitor for Hadrian’s love falls dead, Antinous/Tino being celebrated for the deed. 


     The next scene in the contemporary world of the trio places them in positions that seem to indicate a closure to their affair, as if the party were over, the celebration having left them in a kind of drunken limbo.

     It is New Year’s Eve we soon discover, and the location is a subway, maybe in New York, since Myriam discusses with Harry the absurdity of walking down 5th Avenue with the apparently sleeping boy. They pour champagne over him and he awakens, as they finally turn to catch the next arrival. But before they can do so, three men, obviously also from Tino’s country, seeing him with the couple, go to him and berate him and plead with him to give up his shocking behavior. The drunken trio dismiss them, Tino blowing a party puffer into their faces; the other three turn and enter the subway car stopped before them.

     Suddenly we see Tino running for the same subway, the doors having just closed, and him attempting to get inside. He follows the car as it pulls away, moving blindly with it until he hits a pole in his path and falls to the floor, his forehead bloody from the crash, forcing us to wonder if he is now dead.


     Most definitely La commedia e finita!

     Obviously, the filmmakers suggest, things do not go well for those who take up with such horrifying consumers, who eat up people the way they might swallow up the food and customs of different cultures merely for the thrill of the momentary difference. In a sense Henry and his wife are merely sexual cruisers, out for the thrill not for the eternal love Hadrian felt for Antinous.

      It may be useful to recall what Guy Hocquenghem wrote in his 1973 essay, “The Screwball Asses” in Recherches, a selection posted in this context by Dorothée Perret on the blog PARISLA:

     

“The cruising machine has established an impenetrable border between what turns us on and what makes us think. This border is perhaps a defense mechanism against the intrusion of relations of power…

     Constructed like capitalism against death, the cruising machine… instead of being madly in love with what is present, it desires what is absent, it always desires the next object, it constructs itself on the establishment and sacred assumption of lack, according to the absolute criteria of consumption…

      If I leave my house to enjoy the weather, to buy bread or go see a friend, and if I come upon a boy that I like, gay or not, I am blissfully enjoying the present. But if I leave my house every night to find another queer by cruising the places where other queers hang around, I am nothing but a proletarian of my desire who no longer enjoys the air or the earth, and whose masochism is reduced to an assembly line.

     In my entire life, I have only ever really met what I was not trying to seduce.”

 

Los Angeles, February 28, 2022

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (February 2022).

 

 

Stewart Main | My First Suit / 1985

tall dark strangers

by Douglas Messerli

 

Peter Wells (screenplay), Stewart Main (director) My First Suit / 1985

 

Poor Stevie (Conrad Crawte), a young 14-year-old schoolboy growing up in a more than unattractive suburb in New Zealand at his Aunt Irene’s (Heather Pit) home, his parents having recently separated. Steve is of the age when pimples pop up every day along with a certain appendage aroused, quite expectedly, by the attractive TV studs, underwear models, and local truck drivers Stevie seemingly encounters from moment to moment in the otherwise bleakly ugly landscape he has come to call home.

  


     Even worse, the school dance is coming up and he still doesn’t own a suit. His wayward mother (Heather Lindsay)—decked out in plastic white go-go boots, matching purse, short dress, and  a semi-beehive hairdo to appeal to the unappealing men who might be interested in a woman of her age attired so to hide it—wants to rent him a suit, pushing and pulling the kid during her lunch hour into the local Slaters men’s store, where she holds up a pair of jockey shorts to him to make sure they fit, tries to flirt with a heavy-set clerk who’s clearly more interested in her seeing son in his undies than in hearing her blather, and talks her son out of the paisley-patterned suit in which he imagines he might be able to woo a handsome super spy, deciding for him, instead, upon the more standard mouse-gray tux with a front-button pleated white shirt, topped with a red velvet bowtie so ugly it even angers the normally complacent boy. Mum is so furious by his complaint that he never gets what he wants that she declares she’ll take back the suit.

      With his aunt out of the house for the day shopping, Steve plays hooky for the afternoon, masturbating to the male TV soap opera heroes and pondering what his strange desires are all about. Peeking out of the blinds to reassess the horrific landscape which surrounds him, even the man across the street mowing his lawn is transformed through his eager eyes into a porn-magazine god who whips off his shirt and gives Steve a knowing wink. What does it all mean?

      That night Stevie’s drunken father (Martyn Sanderson) calls up telling him he wants to rent him a suit. The boy is too embarrassed to tell him of his mother’s actions since, as he puts it, “it might hurt his feelings.”

      And he too takes him to Slater’s despite Steve’s pleading insistence to go somewhere else. It is to Slater’s they go: “Now look, we’ve always gone to Slater’s. I was in the war with him!”

       The father introduces his son directly to the owner himself, while the boy begs the other clerk to remain silent through his facial expressions. This time it’s a dark blue plaid suit, no better looking but at least a bit less ostentatious, the difference, in fact, between his dad and his mum. Steve’s father is what you might describe as a brutally no-nonsense guy.

      But now, of course, his old man wants to see him in that suit just before the dance, a near impossible request since Steve has to stop by his mother’s to put on her rental suit before the same event. As Steve himself describes the impossible logistics, he’d have to be a long distance runner to be able to get to both places, a half-hour distance apart, in order to please both of them.

      Singing as he brushes his hair for the event, the slightly giddy boy mutters “Girls will be boys and boys will be girls, it’s a mixed-up muddle of shit in the world....” Having chosen a cave-like interior near a train trestle as the mid-spot from which to sprint between his father’s house and his mother’s motel, Steve arrives at his father’s in the midst of him laundering. The scrawny kid puts on the loose-fitting suit with the father’s rather grudging approval. But it’s clear that they have nothing in common, the father watching his TV playing violent scenes from the Viet Nam War while he probes his son whether or not he’s got a “nice little Sheila lined up.” 

     To salve his conscience, his father hands him a couple of bills and insists upon giving him a “lift to the dance,” where he realizes there’s no one there yet, his son lying by responding that “they’ve asked me to come early and help set up the tables.”

      On the run again Steve arrives at his mother’s motel room. His mother dressed in a white negligee as she prepares to go out with her current male friend, greets Steve warmly with a “sweety-pie” hug, he suffering her intense embracement of recompense for her neglect. When she finally turns on the lights he discovers her in hair-curlers having apparently just dyed her doo.

      She finds his suit “gorgeous,” gushing over her suddenly grown-up son. When he asks when he might come and live with her; her answer is “I don’t know. It’s difficult,” meaning clearly never, things being so indeterminate. It’s apparent, moreover, that she likes being single and available again. She too hands him her last fiver. The phone rings, obviously her current boyfriend calling, as she signals goodbye to her son before he uncomfortably makes a dash for it.

      We know that at this final school dance, the US equivalent of the Prom, Steve can never discover what he’s looking for. Boys didn’t meet boys at, nor girls take girls to such dances in 1985. “That night, I decided not to go to the school dance,” Steve reports through a voice over. “Instead I caught a bus into town and went to the pictures. And in the warm black, under the shimmering projected light, I met a tall dark stranger and there my real romantic life began.”

       It’s a fairly long ways from this gentle satiric half-hour film to his 1995 classic erotic fable of love between a Māori and a Pākehā warrior, Twilight of the Gods (1995), and in between he took amazingly different routes through his and Peter Wells’ AIDS drama A Death in the Family (1987), their feature-length melodrama Desperate Remedies (1993), and their “coming out tale” of boys in the 1960s, One of Them! (1996). Together what these works reveal is that Stewart Main and writer Peter Wells represent some of the most talented of LGBTQ filmmakers, of the stature of Canada’s John Greyson, Spain’s Pedro Almodóvar, France’s François Ozon, the US’ Todd Haynes, and others.

 

Los Angeles, April 23, 2021

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and World Cinema Review (April 2021).

 

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