a chance to fall in love
by Douglas Messerli
Sam McGowan (screenwriter and director) Heaven / 2019 [7 minutes]
This short film is a rather clumsy effort of a movie
about an equally clumsy and shy young guy at a co-ed party with two boys and 6
girls, one of them an ally. The boy Tom (Indiana Williams), that shy kid, is desperately in love with the other
boy at the party, Jake (Karl Richmond).
So too is the mean girl Rebecca (Gemma
Carfi), who is equally attracted to the cutey. The film begins with Tom so
wrapped up in his own thoughts of how he might possibly tell Jake he loves him
without even knowing if he’s gay—while Rebecca endlessly jabbers on, mostly
about passing the bowl of chisels (the Australian name for a crunchy treat in a
beveled shape)—that she wonders if he’s “freaking deaf.”
Tom is
terrified, asking Jen to momentarily join him as he rushes to the bathroom,
there desperately reminding her of his feelings for the other boy. He’s so
upset that his nose begins to bleed. Jen assures him that she will spin the
bottle, making certain that it spins in his direction, but Tom understandably remains
dubious of the result.
As he
leaves the bathroom to return to the others, he meets up with Jake on his way
to the loo, who, observing Tom’s bloody nose, very nicely suggests that he
raise arm hand in the air to help
stop the flow of blood, gently putting his hands on
Tom’s arm to position it, as Jake nearly faints at the touch.
Back in
the circle of hell, Jen spins, the bottle passing up nearly all the others
before it stops just between Rebecca and Tom, the girl immediately standing up
to claim it landed nearer to her. When Jake weakly takes issue, Rebecca, as she
puts on another layer of lipstick, insists that Jake is waiting for someone
like her, that he isn’t interested in boys.
In tears,
Tom rushes into a nearby bedroom, sitting on the floor in frustration and
shame.
Tom
kisses him back and that’s and that truly puts both boys in heaven—at least for
the rest of the night.
If
Australian director McGowan is clearly an amateur, he’s got enough heart to hand
his nerdy character a chance to beat out the privileged bitch in his search for
love.
Los Angeles, October 28, 2025
Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (October
2025).






