variations of gender, desire, and love
by Douglas
Messerli
Maryam
Karimi and Mark Cancelliere (screenplay, based on a story by Bernard Cooper),
Maryam Karimi (director) Burl's / 2003 [9 minutes]
The transvestites (as they were known in
the day, played by Danyon Davis, Christian Reeve, and Michael Gutierrez) ooo
and ahh about the young boy, one of them remarking “I think he’s just adorable.”
Soon Bernard is searching out his mother’s closet in search of lipstick, heels, a wig, and a proper frock he might wear. When she discovers him partially in drag, young Bernard and his father, perhaps to keep his mind off of such unmanly thoughts, speed off to the pet shop.
But while Mr. Cooper checks out the beagles, his son’s eyes are captivated by another kind of animal, the terribly handsome young worker in the store, Pete (Jarid Gibbs), stocking the shelves. Following the intense stare of his son’s eyes, the father immediately sees what’s captured his attention and demands the boy come hold the dog. But even then, Bernard cannot keep his eyes off of Pete.
Almost immediately, the boy is dragged off
by his now frightened father to a young boy’s wrestling practice at Bernard’s
school. Mr. Cooper introduces him to the school’s wrestling coach (Jack Riley).
One of the boy wrestlers looks over at the young newcomer with such a mean
intensity that Bernard immediately has the urge to go to the bathroom.
Soon
after, however, he is sent away on the bus to wrestling class. While waiting
for the bus, however, Bernard sees who he believes is Pete stop at the corner
and stare at him. It’s clear the boy would ride off with Pete anywhere if he
only asked, but he’s been wall trained as boys were in the late 1950s and early
1960s not to catch a ride with strangers, and he turns his glance in the other
direction. Indeed, he wonders whether it was his own imagination, thinking of
stopping by the pet again to check out to see if Pete is there.
The incident frees him from having to
explore wrestling, and he is rewarded a pet dog in reparation. So everything
turns out quite nicely. Except, his father is kept busy, just as he feared,
cleaning up after the dog.
Some of the Letterboxd commentators though
the movie was “cute,” if unconvincing. But I would hardly describe a film that
shows the late 1950s and early 1960s to be filled (at least in Los Angeles)
with adults who each seem to pull the young boy away from his innocence with
positive and negative sexual alternatives about which he is far too young to
perceive the repercussions as something I might describe as “cute.” If his
mother is afraid, as she tells him, that he is too young for a dog, I would argue
he is too young for the sexualized society surrounding him. As a young gay boy
in the making, he is attracted to and frightened of adults who all seem to be
pulling him in directions he hasn’t yet imagined and about whom he has no idea
what his contrary reactions might mean.
Like almost all young gay men, he will one
day awaken to suddenly realize what his desires and fears were all about, if he
can just steer clear of being channeled by his parents into a cul de sac of
normality from which there is no escape.
Los
Angeles, November 4, 2025
Reprinted
from My Queer Cinema blog (November 2025).
















