love is a present act
by
Douglas Messerli
Abe
Diaz and Arya Patel (screenplay), Arya Patel and May Suri (directors) Timeless
/ 2025 [24 minutes]
Silas
(Rowan McIntosh), a handsome young gay man has lost his lover Alejandro (Paulo
Infante) to some disease (although it is never designated, we almost automatically
connect it with AIDS). He is lost, wallowing in silence, alcohol, and the
refusal to meet up with old friends.
Mostly they are moments of inconsequential acts, Alejandro’s potting of
plants and his perhaps first admission to his absolute love of Silas; a memory
in bed where their lovemaking ends in Alejandro coughing; in other moments of
simple encounters; and finally, a dreadful moment wherein Silas can no longer
quite reach through the vague curtain of time to comfort his dying lover. It is
also at that moment when the time visits expire.
He must now move on with only vagueness of
the memories he has left. It is as if he has been given only a selected number
of intense reencounters with the past, like that given to the dead character
Emily in Our Town, which are finally so painful that they may not be
worth reexperiencing.
In some respects, this is quite simply a
sentimental presentation of a love between to beautiful men cut too short. But
both McIntosh and Infante are so charming and lovely to look at that we long
for their next past encounter. If only we knew just a little bit more of their
relationship, how they met perhaps, or why, at the end, they finally seemed to
have moved into separate apartments, or perhaps what was the real nature of Alejandro’s
illness. As it is, it stands simply as a testament to a love lost, from which
Silas is not easily healing and which others can no longer share.
Life is not timeless, but meted out
always in brief and discrete moments which are difficult to put back together
in the continuum of the ever-present flow of Bergsonian reality. There is no
real past, not real future, just a constant present that slips through minds as
we experience it. The beauty, desire, love, care, respect and all the other
emotions we share with others disappear each day in that flow of life. We know
we cannot really return. Not rise from grave like Our Town’s Emily even
for a day. We have no magic device, except the vague shadows we hold without or
brain, to take us back as Silas and sometimes even Alejandro are offered. Love
is a present act only, something that can never really last.
I found this work, finally, almost too sad
to watch both times I saw it. This film is truly a dream play that leaves any
living being in seeming status. If you cannot release yourself from that dream,
living can never progress and death will creep over you without any new
experiences in life.
Los
Angeles, May 3, 2026
Reprinted
from My Queer Cinema blog (May 2026).




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