Saturday, August 9, 2025

Jordan Rennick | Cold Feet / 2016

readiness is all

by Douglas Messerli

 

Tim Blane (screenplay), Jordan Rennick (director) Cold Feet / 2016 [6 minutes]

 

In Jordan Rennick’s Cold Feet, everything and everyone is waiting in the backyard, the table settings all laid out, the guests in their chairs. But Richie (Rob Silverman), the groom, is missing, and his best friend Mike (Tim Blane) is on the search for him. He finds him sitting in the kitchen.

     “I don’t deserve to get married,” Richie insists.

      Richie feels like a “fucking child,” admitting that he always commits to things before he truly feels he’s ready.

       Mike asks him, however, to look at himself now: he has a steady job, he has an apartment with a parking space. “You helped me get sober, that’s fucking grown up.”


       The conversation continues, Richie tossing out more and more doubts, Mike attempting to answer them, one by one. Unfortunately, the dialogue isn’t that clever.

        But eventually Mike gets around to insisting that Richie trust him. He’s ready for marriage. “When did I ever ask you to do something that turned out badly?”

        “In 2010 I spent a weekend in jail in a rooster costume—in Tijuana!”

        Eventually Mike convinces him that it was he who was the asshole, before he got sober. And that even back then Richie allowed himself to make an adult decision, and if he hadn’t he’d have never found the love of his life. “You’ve learned more about yourself and who you are in the last two years than most people do in their entire lives.”

        And besides, he’s lucky, he gets to marry his best friend—that friend obviously being Mike himself.  

        Richie admits his love of his “best friend,” soon to be husband.

        Mike: “What do you say we go get hitched.”

 

Los Angeles, August 8, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2023).

Michael Saul | The Best Man / 2013

tandem trampoline dancing

by Douglas Messerli

 

Heath Daniels (screenplay), Michael Saul (director) The Best Man / 2013 [14 minutes]

 

Johnny (Heath Daniels) and Scott (Ethan Le Phong) have moved in together and are getting married momentarily, leading to a conversation of Johnny’s parent’s relationship, their own early sex experiences in a Dayton, Ohio high school which they attended together, their wisdom about having moved apart while attending college, and their pleasure in having once again found one another, now together as a couple of four years. They even recall their first date after band practice, Johnny’s backyard trampoline, and how Johnny wanted to invite Scott to the homecoming dance, etc. When Scott suggests, he should have invited him, Johnny reminds him that they lived in Dayton, Ohio in the 1990s.   


     Scott’s mother has bought boutonnieres, pink and blue presumably as a way of determining, after a conversation about gay sex with her son, which of them is “top” or “bottom.” Moreover, his father wants to walk Scott down the aisle since he has no daughters!

     Johnny’s sister, meanwhile, calls to insist that everyone of at least 4 hors d'oeuvres of every kind; with 20 hors d’oevres at a hundred people coming to the reception, bringing the quantity needed to 2,000 hors d’oeuvres as Johnny suddenly realizes.

     Meanwhile, Johnny has turned on the record player and is practicing dancing. We are homosexuals, he declares. There has to be good dancing at the party. Scott turns it off.

      And suddenly Johnny undergoes a slight panic, realizing that what his family is particularly good at is divorce. Perhaps that’s why gay people didn’t get married before this, he argues, they were smart enough to know it doesn’t work. Here we are doing the most traditional heterosexual think we could possibly do: “we’re getting married.”

      Does that mean you don’t want to be monogamous, asks Scott?

      No, I’m just saying that I’ve had enough divorce in my life….and if getting married means we begin to act like straight people….I don’t want that.

      Scott asks twice: “Do you want to marry me?” Johnny responding yes. Yet, there remains now all the questions in the air.

      Scott: “I can be your boyfriend. I can be your life partner. I can be your lover. I can be whatever you want to call me. I just want to be with you.”

      Their marriage is not about others, he reminds Johnny, “but just the two of us.” We can do all the bullshit in a few hours, insists Scott, but let’s just be us right now. Scott reads out what he’s written: “I love you.” That’s all.

       Johnny admits that he’s written and rewritten to try to come up with the perfect words, but he can’t. His statement is a simple litany of appreciation: “Thank you for being for being you. Thank you for being my husband. And I’ve loved you since that first day on that trampoline.”

       They kiss, exchange rings, and kiss again.

       They no longer have to worry about the wedding ceremony. They are married in their own minds, have already shared their vows without speaking them.

       Michael Saul’s work is not a truly profound piece, not even that brilliantly clever, but it’s a beautifully quiet love letter about marriage nonetheless.


Los Angeles, August 8, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2023).



Douglas Messerli | Gay Marriage [Introduction]

gay marriage

by Douglas Messerli

 

As homosexual marriage increasing becomes the subject of gay films, it seems inevitable that the topic will gradually shift from being simply a delightful desire or the end-all of any gay relationship, but will be more and more critically evaluated. Are the patterns of centuries embedded through church and state into the contract of most heterosexual relationship the best for gay people? Is monogamy the best paradigm for gay men and women whose lives are been far more historically involved with multiple sex partners and within whose lives sex as seemed to be a central component, in part because their very same-sex activities were at the heart of their ostracization from the so-called normalized world? Is marriage even a necessary ritual for gay couples who, as in my and my husband’s own case, have lived together many years before marriage?

     And, of course, all couples, straight and gay, have fears of suddenly locking themselves into a kind of institutionalized decree that changes their social, financial, political, and often religious interrelationships. What is marriage and is it the best solution for all couples. If it is, as we often argue, simply a sign of commitment to others, why does it often made to feel like such a significant event that it will utterly change the couple’s lives and behavior?


     The two films I discuss in this cinema gathering, Michael Saul’s The Best Man (2013) and Jordan Rennick’s Cold Feet (2016) represent two of the earliest LGBTQ US films to begin to actually question the issue of gay marriage and reveal second thoughts about entering into such a ritual.

        If both of these films feel to be somewhat slight, certainly not up the complexity of these issues as discussed in Brazilian director Felipe Cabrals’ Aceito (I Do) of 2014, for example, perhaps we can forgive them in light of all the hundreds of such comic films we’ve had to sit through in which heterosexual characters get nervous about their wedding days, as when Kay calls the complex and increasingly expensive wedding off in Father of the Bride (1950), or the long scene in the musical Company (1970, brought to film in 2008) in which Amy breaks down before her marriage to Paul singing the nearly impossible tongue twister, “Getting Married Today,” or the acclaimed playwright Neil Simon’s third act of Plaza Suite (1971) when Missy locks herself in the bathroom and refuses to come out, and, finally, the utter disaster of Robert Altman’s The Wedding (1978). None of these primarily straight films truly bothers to thoroughly explore the validity of marriage as an institution, which both Saul’s and Rennick’s films at least point toward.

       Indeed, given that marriage or at least long-term relationships since 2000 have now come to dominate the concerns of gay couples in LGBTQ+ cinema, it seems strange that more queer films haven’t specifically discussed marriage itself. Perhaps I have simply not come across such films yet among my vast list of works I still have to see.

       I should admit that I have written a full pamphlet about the very subject, On Marriage: The Imagination of Being (Los Angeles, Magra Books, 2018).

 

Los Angeles, August 9, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (August 2025).

 

Abdellah Taïa | L’armée du salut (Salvation Army) / 2013, USA 2015

what doesn’t get said

by Douglas Messerli

 

Abdellah Taïa (screenwriter and director, based on his fiction) L’armée du salut (Salvation Army) / 2013, USA 2015

 

Most critics appear to have perceived Abdellah Taïa’s Salvation Army, based on his own autobiographical fiction, as a kind of “coming of age” movie, an expression of youth similar except in its sexual orientation and religious and cultural perspectives, as the Out magzine critic suggested, to Richard Linklater’s Boyhood. In fact, Taia’s Moroccan-set film could not be more different. Yes, both films do relate their tales in terms of quietude, forcing the viewer to observe and draw his own conclusions rather than engage in a verbal dialogue with the characters; and, yes, both works have a kind of laconic looseness in their narrative structures. Indeed, for precisely these qualities The New York Times reviewer, Ben Kenigsberg, found Salvation Army to be “remote,” and “vague.”


    But the young Abdellah (Said Mirni) of Taïa’s work, unlike Linklater’s is quite aware of his sexuality in a country that outlaws gay sexuality while at the same time closing an eye to the virtual “rape” of young boys by local shopkeepers, construction workers, and numerous others within the community. To Americans it may appear as unusual that Abdellah’s father (Ahdelhak Swilah) seems vaguely aware and accepting of his son’s sexual encounters, going so far as to invite the child into his own bed, but it is just this sexual hypocrisy—where at one moment the elder leaves his child alone with a market grocer so that the two can quickly engage in sex, and the very next moment he beats Abdellah’s mother (Malika El Hamaoui) after engaging with her in sex—that tortures the young boy. Indeed, the two are very much interrelated in this macho-misogynistic society. Nearly everywhere he goes, the fragile boy is invited by workers to be fucked or to perform fellatio on them, while at the same time his very life is endangered by a mysterious rock-throwing citizen, obviously aware of his sexual activities in a community where everyone knows everyone else.


     Abdellah, in fact, can find no privacy in this world. Forced to sleep with numerous other brothers and sisters, yet scolded by his mother for even entering his beloved brother Slimane’s (Arnine Ennajji) room—where he fetishizes the handsome masculinity of his sibling—the young gay man is confused less by his being taken advantage of (he is, after all, beautiful and weak) than the pleasure he derives from the acts. Only once, when he approaches a hirsute construction worker himself and the two actually engage in sensuous love-making rather than a savage sex act, does he allow himself to smile.


     Is it any wonder, accordingly that Abdellah retreats to an inner, unspoken life, a life in which hardly anything is said and can only be interpreted by its visual signs: his travels back and forth to the baker who will bake his mother’s bread, his retreats to his brother’s bed when the brother is absent, and his intense moments of brooding wherein, at one point he is even caught by his father counting the petals of a lover’s flower: “he loves me, he loves me not.” The details are not as important as the outlines; we never discover who his would-be lover is.

     If you want to call Taïa’s approach, accordingly, remote, so be it. The very point of his tale is how different the young Abdellah’s world is from the open (yet in some ways more closed) Western countries. Linklater’s Mason, despite the difficulties of his youth, lives in a world somewhat removed, but also innocent, free from the deep complexities of sexuality and violence; he is given the time and space to sort things out, to become himself. Taïa’s Abdellah, on the other hand, has been plunged in a confusing and often cruel world where it is expected that a child might engage in homosexual activity but where he will be punished if he finds some pleasure in the act or continues to be sexually homosexual—except in the furtive world of boy-men relationships—as an adult. In Mason’s world youth is a time in which one needn’t speak; in Abdellah’s childhood, the important things cannot be said. And the movie has no choice but to show things often without openly saying and explaining them.

      Of central importance in Abdellah’s eventual “freedom” is his relationship with his brother. When Slimane, still living at home, determines to take a short vacation to a sea-resort, he is forced to take along the two younger brothers, Abdellah and the child Mustapha. Even that time with his much-admired sibling is still a mixed event for Abdellah. First of all, he must share the time with his little brother; more importantly, he is sent along on the voyage by the mother to spy on him, and to keep his brother from spending his money on prostitutes. Giving Abdellah a talisman to protect Slimane, she hisses, he must remain “ours.”

      Mustapha shares Slimane’s bed, while Abdellah is forced to sleep so very near his would-be lover-protector without a touch. And Abdellah is confused, as well, by his brother’s disdain for Moroccan and the Arabic language when he discovers that Slimane is reading a book by the Greek author Kazantzakis in French. Slimane attempts to explain that the only way to escape the world in which he clearly feels trapped is to turn to French and European culture, a realization which Abdellah will eventually come to as well, but with obvious regrets.



     Despite Abdellah’s attempts to keep his brother close, Slimane slips away with a local waitress and, as Abdellah reports in a phone call home to his mother, “abandons” his brothers.

      What doesn’t get said is that, during the same day, Abdellah also temporarily abandons Mustapha when he meets up a young man on the beach who is obviously interested in a sexual encounter.

      A few scenes later and 10 years later, moreover, we discover that it is the grown Abdellah who has escaped his family’s clutches, while Slimane has remained at home. As we might have expected, Abdellah has become a sexual partner to a sophisticated Swiss professor, Jean (Frédéric Landenberg). But although we might be tempted to see this relationship as a movement forward in the young man’s life, we recognize, through Abdellah’s continued lack of expression and, particularly, in a discussion with a would-be tour guide in Arabic instead of French, that there are severe tensions in his relationship. And although Jean seems to be kind and thoughtful to Abdellah there is, in his cultural presumptions, something irritating and paternalistic in his behavior with the young Moroccan.

     In the very next scene, we discern that Abdellah has left Jean, but, nonetheless, has been admitted into the university in Geneva where Jean teaches. But now that Abdellah has broken away from his dependency on sex, he has nowhere left to go. The university classes will not begin for another month, and the young man is forced to sleep on park benches.

     By accident, he encounters Jean in the halls of the university. Jean, obviously hurt by Abdellah’s abandonment, tries to get a fuller explanation, but once again Abdellah retreats into silence, claiming he has explained everything in an earlier letter.

      Jean argues that he always wanted for Abdellah to go to school and would have financially made it possible; he feels that he, in fact, has been “used” as way for Abdellah to escape to Europe. But Abdellah refuses to discuss the matter, and Taïa’s script refrains from trying to explain the young man’s decisions.

     Anyone who has followed carefully to the boy’s actions, however, might recognize his position. When Jean accuses him of having been a prostitute, the young man shouts out that indeed he has been just that, that he has used Jean as a way to escape to Europe. But what we know is that, for the first time in his life, by leaving Jean, Abdellah is coming into a new life through his own will alone. No longer is he willing to simply enjoy privilege on the basis of his sexuality. Quite the opposite of most “coming out” fictions, Taïa’s tale demonstrates how a gay man must temporarily give up his old behavior, abandoning his passive sexuality in order to truly make his own choice.

      Refusing to give in to Jean’s easier offer, Abdellah seeks out asylum in the local Salvation Army, where, in meeting another young Arab, he expresses—even in his determination to make a new life for himself—a homesickness for the world he has left, asking the young man, evidently a singer, to perform one of his favorite songs from his troubled youth. We recognize that he finally come to terms with who he is.

 

Los Angeles, June 7, 2015

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (June 2015).

Christopher Bradley | The Violation / 2013

male fetishes

by Douglas Messerli

 

Christopher Bradley (screenwriter and director) The Violation / 2013 [10 minutes]

 

For a film about teenagers, Christopher Bradley’s The Violation begins with as a strange of scene as one might wish, wherein we watch the neighborhood 17-year-old boy Oscar Heim (Shayne Topp) laying in his bed as he fetishizes a bikini bathing suit strapped to his pillow. To rachet up the oddness of the scene significantly, director Bradley’s camera pulls back to reveal that we are watching this scene through a telescope belonging to 15-year-old Mickey Dougherty (Slade Pearce), who is spying from the house next door on his crush, Oscar. Meanwhile, Mickey’s sister Tina (Chelsea Ricketts) finds that her swimming suit is missing and wonders whether her mother has forgotten it on the clothes line.


     The next morning, as Mickey empties his compost bag at the border of the Heim’s lawn, he notices Oscar burning the bikini pieces on his barbecue. As critic Hal C. F. Astell comments in his review of the film, “This is the sort of thing that's joked about in every frat house movie ever made, but watching it feels a little more freaky.”


     Bradley’s film is a bit odder in other ways as well. Despite Mickey’s hopeless love of Oscar, it is clear that the older boy wants nothing to do with him, not only because of the age difference, but as we quickly discover, the class difference between the two neighboring families. The Heims, with a swimming pool in their backyard, are obviously rather wealthy. Whereas, the Dougherty home inside looks more like a cheap boarding house.

     And we soon discover that the reason Mickey is even in their yard is that he works as a lawnboy for the Heim family. As he announces the completion of his tasks, Mrs. Heim (Beth Grant) wonders if in a few days when she and her family will be attending her daughter’s wedding, whether he, Tina, and his mother might not wish to watch the house for them, since, as she puts it, burglars often read wedding notices in the paper and know who won’t be home. He and his family could use their pool and watch their satellite-dish TV which plays on a largest screen available.

      Who could turn such an offer down? Well, Tina for one, who’s offended that they couldn’t ask them to the wedding but find them suitable only to care for their house. As for Oscar, she corrects her mother, he didn’t ask her out on a date, but is a party drunk and asked her if she wanted to make out. But Mrs. Dougherty (Elaine Hendrix) has no intention of missing out on the special broadcasts from the satellite-dish and Mickey is obviously fascinated by the opportunity to see the house from the inside where the object of his desire lives.

      The condescension continues when they arrive as Mrs. Heim describes the guest bathroom, the television and the pool, suggesting that everything they might want exists “right here in this little section of the house,” making it quite clear that the private living room and bedrooms of her home are to be unoccupied territory.

       Before they even leave, Janice Dougherty is busy watching a football game on their television, while soon after Mickey tries out their pool and, when coming upon Oscar’s sandals sitting at pool’s edge, caresses them as carefully as Oscar had his sister’s bikini. By the time he reenters the house with the sandals on his feet, his mother is fast asleep, and he cannot resist creeping up to Oscar’s bedroom, opening up his closet, and pulling out a pair of his pants and a pair of boots.


       In Oscar’s bathroom, he stuffs the pants with tissues, sits it on the closed bathroom stool and rubs his hands slowly up and down the pant legs in a far more graphic representation of his loved one than Oscar could have imagined from Tina’s pillow-bound bikini.

       A loud noise comes from downstairs, and when he rushes down, he discovers his mother, who has evidently had far too much to eat and drink from the friendly fridge, has thrown up. He hurriedly cleans it up, fixes the lamp she broke, and gives her a hug. But it is too late to retrieve his waist-down shrine to the male form from the upstairs bathroom before the Heims return. Mrs. Heim enters, inspecting the place, as Mickey apologizes for the broken lamp. His mother has obviously gone back home. Before he leaves, however, he rushes upstairs to take care of the pants only to discover Oscar already standing in the bathroom stunned by what sits before him.

       The next day, Mickey observes Oscar burning the boots into which the pants were stuffed. “Just because I touched them?” he asks in utter disbelief. “You did it to her.”

       Oscar’s only line in the movie says everything about him and the society in which we live, “It’s not the same thing.”

        But the 15-year-old Mickey has the most profound line of the film, “Why not?”


        All Oscar can do is turn in his direction, stare dreadfully into his face, and stalk off.

      Both boys have violated another person and both are equally culpable for their acts. But society seems to suggest that one is an innocent teenage prank of sexual desire, while the other is a horrible perversion against the human race.

       This film would be perfect on a short bill with the somewhat lighter films I review above in this volume, Evan Roberts’ 33 Teeth (2011) and Mathilde Bayle’s Le maillot de bain (The Swimming Trunks) (2013).

 

Los Angeles, February 28, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (February 2023).

 

Mathilde Bayle | Le maillot de bain (The Swimming Trunks) / 2013

the earliest revelation of sex

by Douglas Messerli

 

Mathilde Bayle (screenwriter and director) Le maillot de bain (The Swimming Trunks) / 2013 [21 minutes]

 

It is commonly believed that very young children do not have sexual or even erotic thoughts or feelings. Indeed, school teachers have been taught that one of the first signs of sexual abuse among their pupils is evidence of just such thoughts as evidenced in a child’s behavior. But like so many seemingly “home approved” sexual conceptions it is simply not true. Many gay men will tell you, including this writer, that childhood sexual attraction for older males comes often quite early. My own father was a handsome man, and I wanted to be by his side almost constantly—so my mother’s letters tell her father and step-mother when she wrote home. And I can well remember that when my father’s brother visited, which was seldom, I was thoroughly overwhelmed by his presence. This masculine, dark-haired, hirsute male, an Air Force pilot, would pick me out and toss me about in the air to my absolute delight. When he spoke to me, unlike my parents he talked directly to me as an adult might to other adults, teasing me, hugging and tousling with me in a manner that utterly excited me in a way that I could then not explain to myself, but realized later was pure erotic pleasure. His appearance and friendly, assured manner represented things to which I am still most attracted to in adult males.


     So too does French writer / director present us in the compelling short film The Swimming Trunks the ten-year-old (as one source claims him to be, although I might have described him as much younger) Rémi (Roger Manning) who begins the film as a nearly undistinguishable child at a pool that services a tourist stop surrounded by caravans and tents where the families enjoy their summer visits near the ocean. He swims, attempts to dig out a hole into which he has seen a cricket escape, and basically plays alone as boys often do. That is until he meets a girl even younger than he, La (Inès Giardino) who clearly is bored and wants a friend. She and her parents, she tells him, are staying in nearby trailer and will soon be moving on to Italy. She impresses him, somewhat, with that fact that she claims to also know Italian, repeating one word to prove it.


      Rémi is really not interested at all in becoming friends—that is until her father comes along, a truly handsome, hairy stud of a man who almost immediately takes the boy’s breath away as he lifts up his daughter into the air and pulls her down into a fatherly kiss. It is as if the child has seen the man of his dreams, except that he has clearly never experienced any erotic dreams and doesn’t himself understand his intense attraction. For Rémi, the girl’s father Stéphane (Stanley Weber) is simply a father he desperately wishes were his own.

      When we do get a glimpse of Rémi’s parents and their overweight friends, we comprehend why the simple difference of appearance between Stéphane and his own father might be something of fascination for a boy just beginning to sort out the differences between human beings. But there is something deeper stirring here, as Rémi suddenly finds himself hanging around Stéphane and his wife’s trailer and pretending to play with La as if she had suddenly become a close childhood friend.



     Before embarking on my précis of the film, however, I want to assure the potential viewer that  while it might appear that the narrative is filled with inappropriate scenes, perhaps exaggerated for sensation and controversies’ sake, Bayle’s movie remains quite innocent and views the events only from the eyes of the young boy himself, never from the eyes of the unaware adults.

      In a particularly poignant scene, Rémi plays the role almost of voyeur as he watches the man, his wife, and daughter near the ocean, Stéphane, in his blue-striped trunks deciding to brave the ocean waves. The boy watches almost the way an older man might a beautiful young woman or, if gay, a stunningly fit young man. But as a child he doesn’t know what even to make of his enchantment bordering on an obsession. 



      Soon after, observing Stéphane entering a shower stall that opens into nature, the boy spying the man’s swimming trunks and towel over the shower door sneaks up and steals away the swimming apparel, running off and hiding it in the bed of his tent. So begins his fantasies of being held up in the air just as La had been by the strong arms of the man, Stéphane wrestling with him as father and his son might engage.

     Rather than quelling his desire, Rémi is pulled further each day to the man, watching him closely without Stéphane even noticing or when he does spot the wide-eyed kid, presuming that he has come to play with his daughter.



    Finally, in one intense bedtime fantasy, Stéphane comes to Rémi explaining that he has been observing him despite the boy’s openly expressed doubts. And finally, to prove his love, the man bends over his bed about to plant a kiss on his lips, a bedtime story the boy tells to himself interrupted.

     The next day La reports that they are leaving. It appears, at the end of summer, the tourists are beginning to thin out. We see Rémi, the trunks in hand, running across the long strand towards the ocean. He stops at a small gathering of changing rooms and puts on the man’s trunks, amazingly almost fitting, when the string is pulled tight, around Rémi’s tiny body, although they fall lower on his thighs that the boy’s previous currant-colored tighties. He walks to the ocean and stops just at the edge of where the water laps ashore, standing there, the boy having become his would-be father.


     As one commentator named Daminio, expressing his views of this film on the internet Letterboxd site observes: “Everything is there: the beach, carefree nature of childplay though for those quick enough showing the signs of an exit to innocent childhood. The attention seeking behavior, not once questioning one's feeling of being so drawn to that ‘brawn’ and masculinity or simply put feeling of safety and reassurance that is embodied in that dad's image.”

     The film does not at all argue that Rémi is a gay boy in the making, but simply recognizes that children also perceive the world in sexual contexts, and that young gay boys often fantasize, without them even knowing what their feelings mean, about their peers and the adults who surround them. Looking back as adults, it is often those early same-sex attractions—that earliest revelation of sex—that a homosexual might point to as evidence of his or her first awareness of the difference of sexual desire. Bayle reveals those innocent first feelings quite brilliantly in her 21-minute cinematic narrative.

 

Los Angeles, December 17, 2022

Reprinted in World Cinema Review (December 2022).

 

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