Monday, August 31, 2026

Chris Coats | Stay Lost / 2023

the twilight zone

by Douglas Messerli

 

Chris Coats (screenwriter and director) Stay Lost / 2023 [12 minutes]

 

There is something about Chris Coats Stay Lost that simply rubbed me in the wrong way. The story of a young boy (Keiynan Lonsdale) just getting off work at a small-town drive-up grocery who gets a call from his father insisting that he must also take over his shift at the store, suddenly falls into the twilight zone as a 1960s curly-haired hippie (Lukas Gage, a little too old to be playing this role) is seen playing his guitar under a nearby tree. Within minutes the hippie has seduced the hard-working boy—suggesting that the boy’s father has drug problems despite the fact that we have utterly no evidence for this—into running off into an endless road trip just to get away from the difficulties of his ordinary life.


     A few minutes later, the boy has come back, having stolen his father’s truck, to pick up his new friend as they speed off to a hippie commune where the musician is evidently the most beloved of this community of endless “love and peace” living in a shanty-town world more colorful, of course, but less organized than the Hoovervilles of the Great Depression. Inevitably, the truck breaks down, making a return home impossible for the boy and giving the musician an opportunity to continue his seduction of the young man.

      They begin kissing in a manner of a Hallmark card if that company had ever imagined depicting the love-children of the 1960s babbling out words suggesting their love was fate. A few minutes later they’re back on the road for a thousand and one nights of grungy sleepovers wherever they can find a spot to drop. How the couple will eat, dress, and clean themselves seems beside the point of this idyll whose goal appears to be broadcast in the film’s title.

      I too loved the musical Hair and all it stood for, but even though I lived through that period as a young boy of the perfect age to become a hippie, the idea of going for weeks without a bath and a good bed and being surrounded by all that raucous noise, uninvited company, and psychedelic color—which soon after found a perfect fit in movie musicals and ad campaigns—never attracted me in the least; nor did the dirty-haired boy fresh out of that past in Coats’ film.

      Although the hard working-boy clearly needed a break, and it was he who picked up the hippie in his dad’s truck, we might make a case that he had been seduced by an older man and kidnapped, never to be heard from again.

      The invocation to “stay lost,” almost send chills up my spine. We truly hope this young boy will eventually find someone who isn’t as lost as his hippie friend.

 

Los Angeles, July 27, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (July 2023).

Marc Heustis | Miracle on Sunset Boulevard / 1977

let it be

by Douglas Messerli

 

Marc Heustis (director) Miracle on Sunset Boulevard / 1977

 

Marc Heustis’s seven minute film Miracle on Sunset Boulevard advertises itself as a sped-up version of Sunset Boulevard, but in fact has almost nothing to do with Billy Wilder’s film except that it features an aging actress shopping in Beverly Hills on Wilshire Blvd. where unexpectedly she is greeted by a fan wanting her autograph. So horrified is she in being reminded of her long ago career that she lets the wind whip the piece of paper which she attempting to sign out of her hand as she goes on the run.


     Late at night, a bit like Norma Desmond, she watches her old movies, but once again grows terrified by the process of re-living passionate love scenes from decades earlier and cries out several times (silently of course) “STOP!”


     Utterly devastated to be so continually reminded of her age, she is suddenly visited by the vision of a lovely woman who, a bit like a cartoon vision of a figure just escaped from a Maxfield Parrish painting shows up and evidently serves as a sort of mother-confident, campily reintroducing our troubled movie star to the four elements of earth, air, wind, and fire. And suddenly she materializes a young female child which the actress takes into her arms. Either the mysterious seer is pimping as a provider to agèd pedophiles or reintroducing our elderly wunderkind to her younger self, but the result is a true miracle as the actress seems suddenly entirely content as she walks off into the woods with her new child.

      Starring Gregory Cruickshank, Viva DeLuxe and Marzipan with a background mix of music by Mahler and Prokofiev, Heustis’ film is simply silly, its redeeming quality providing seconds of bearable camp. We are told it captures the spirit of the early films, of which Heustis was a founder, of the San Francisco Frameline Festival.

 

Los Angeles, August 28, 2021

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2021).


Sunday, August 30, 2026

Olivier Peyon | Arrête avec tes mensonges (Lie with Me) / 2022

father and son

by Douglas Messerli

 

Olivier Peyon, Vincent Poymiro, Arthur Cahn, and Cécilia Rouaud (screenplay, based on the fiction by Philippe Besson), Olivier Peyon (director) Arrête avec tes mensonges (Lie with Me) / 2022

 

While the English-language title of Olivier Peyon’s Lie with Me sounds a bit like it’s asking its central characters to cuddle up, the original Arrête avec tes mensonges, “Stop with your Lies” gets more fully to the heart of the matter. One could hardly blame the elderly Stéphane Belcourt (Guillaume de Tonquédec), however, having returned reluctantly to his renowned hometown of Cognac after 35 years, if he might wish to cuddle up with the young Lucas Andrieu (Victor Belmondo) who looks disconcertingly, at moments, like his father, Thomas (Julien de Saint-Jean), Stéphane’s childhood lover, the actor at certain angles reminding one of his grandfather, Jean-Paul.


     Stéphane can’t quite comprehend why he was invited as the celebrity guest to the annual gathering of cognac lovers, particularly since he hated visiting the facility as a child and does not drink; but he has dutifully written a short story and is almost willing to bear with the overwhelming memories, good and bad, of growing up in the beautifully landscaped but deadly conservative world he knew as a boy of 17. He’s even committed to presenting the closing speech to the event, if he can ever find the time to write it and if the overwhelming memories that threaten to devour him can stop long enough so that he can print out some drivel about the beautiful countryside and its people.

      What he hasn’t wanted to reckon with is just how much his own life has been influenced by the place and how, despite having a family that encouraged him to leave that world and make his way as a noted author in Paris, he still owes nearly everything to the region and his young lover Thomas, a farmer’s son whose family were not about to let him leave the grape producing estate and create a new life.


       Stéphane is attracted to or, at least, intrigued by the young Lucas, who serves the cognac company as their San Francisco liaison and spends much of his time in the film acting as tour guide for a group of Americans who have evidently paid plenty to be drowned in cognac and other mixed cocktails before toured taken into the dank cellars to be lectured on the ancient casks.

      Almost immediately after arriving, Stéphane discovers that the young Lucas is his dead lover’s son, and from that moment on he attempts to spend every free moment in the company of the handsome young man, who seems just as interested in Stéphane for possibly providing more insights into a father who having recently died, had refused to discuss his private life, remaining aloof from his own family, ending in his wife leaving for Spain and his son feeling that he had never come to really know his father.


      Although Lucas shows up to Stéphane’s reading at the village bookstore, he claims to never have actually read the books and merely seems to want several autographs for his tourist friends.  Meanwhile Stéphane is guided through his other duties as the celebrity guest by chaperone Gaëlle Flamand (Guilaine Londez), but given the writer’s sudden interest in the company tour guide and his increasing outpouring of childhood memories the story suggests that her best efforts may simply fall apart.

      Much of the first half of the film, indeed, shifts back and forth in scenes between Lucas’ father at 17 with Stéphane as a young man (performed by Jérémy Gillet)—as the older Belcourt relives the absolute joy of being suddenly chosen by Thomas to have sex and the frustration that he encounters when they are not alone together and the popular Thomas pretends a heterosexual life to all others—and the older man’s attempts to get closer to Thomas’ son.

   We witness crucial scenes in Stéphane and Thomas’ childhood relationship. When the young Stéphane attempts to visit him on his farm, for example, Thomas demands he leave immediately for fear of their being seen together. The boy tries to explain to his friend that he will someday be taking over the farm and it will not do at all to be known throughout the community as a homosexual. Yet soon after, he publicly picks him up on his motorbike.


      Thomas realizes, unlike his young lover, the socio-economic, religious, and political reasons why their deep love cannot be shared with others in the Cognac region, leaving Stéphane desperately in love with someone with whom could never be convinced to join him in his new life. For much of the rest of Stéphane’s adult life he has rewritten his childhood love story, sometimes changing the characters to heterosexuals, and other times transforming his childhood self to an unsatisfied woman; but more recently he has found himself unable to move forward, all of his other adult gay relationships also having failed.

      But even more problematic is the older Belcourt’s fascination with Lucas. Things grow even more complex for organizer Gaëlle—herself, it is hinted, being a lesbian who having grown up in Cognac has left only to return home, forcing the community to accept her on her own terms. When Stéphane overhears the information that Lucas has in fact long been a huge fan of his fiction and was the one who recommended him to the head of the company to invite him back as a celebrity guest, things grow even more complex.


    Suddenly growing angry for Lucas’ lies, and now realizing that there is a great deal more to understand about the boy’s interest in the older man—particularly after Lucas takes him off to his local swimming hole, where his father had long ago also taken the young Stéphane for some of their sexual rendezvouses. The two begin to openly fight, forcing Gaëlle to step in and literally bring about a temporary truce.

      Eventually, Lucas reveals that his father’s death was suicide, an event that occurred after a visit to his secret adult lover, a farmer in a nearby region; moreover, he learns that his father Thomas, had spoken reverently of Stéphane and his writing all throughout his life, but never permitted Lucas him to read the books, while carefully displaying them in his library, contending they were adult material.

      While attending university, Lucas finally read the books, making the connections, and verifying his suspicious about his father through his private belongings uncovered after his death, which included a good-bye letter from the young Stéphane.

      Taking him back to the family farm, Lucas reveals to Stéphane the world from which his childhood lover believed he could never escape, and realizes that Thomas’ love, nonetheless, had flourished even in his absence, just as had for Thomas. The lies they both maintained created “closed off” words of suffering and nostalgia for them and, in Thomas’ case, even for his family.


     Realizing how both men have lived through their lies and mistaken notions of reality, Stéphane turns his Testimonial speech from yet another rambling lie about the beauties of the region into an extemporaneous speech about how his friend, although not leaving a suicide note, had invited his own intelligent son to figure out the riddle of his life, knowing that he would read Belcourt’s books and eventually come upon the saved artifacts revealing their childhood lives. Truth has finally prevailed after all, and the reasons, given Thomas’ generational viewpoint, are made evident. His love for Stéphane had been maintained in secret just as Stéphane’s love for Thomas had been kept mysteriously alive only through his coded fictions.

       I am, however, not truly convinced by his, once more vaguely concealed references. Are the attendees aware of how personal his comments truly are, and if so, can they be fully moved by something they know truly nothing about. The speech seems, if nothing else, a kind a drunken embarrassment for a writer finally admitting the reasons for his sudden inability to go on writing.

       All the viewer of this film can say of their behavior, alas, is “what a waste!.” All those empty years lived out with the ridiculous notions of what the community believed and might say, even after things had changed, when someone like Gaëlle could return and stubbornly retain her identity.

      The reviewer for L'Indépendant, Oisin McGilloway, however, had a far more positive reaction to the film’s ending:

      “By the end, however, all is resolved: Stéphane and Lucas get over their grief together, culminating in a speech that the former gives at a dinner, revealing all to his friends and adoring fans. What is a complicated, emotional affair, brought to life by Peyon’s weaving of the past and the present with intimate moments that connect Stéphane to his past, is brought to a satisfying finale, where the pair are able to accept their loss.”

      As fucked up as his life has been, nothing has been hinted in this movie about Lucas being gay. We simply don’t know anything about his sexuality. He lives, however, in San Francisco and has become obsessed with Belcourt’s fictions and his father’s private life. Nowhere in this work does he demonstrate any interest in a woman. Perhaps he needed the truth simply so that he might better understand the way life was in a world which believed in a love that could be openly spoken. But then, we have to wonder, why was the director Olivier Peyon been terribly discreet about Lucas’ love-life? Let’s hope that he has someone with whom to toast cognac glasses and to cuddle up to in his pricey North Beach studio apartment.

 

Los Angeles, October 26, 2023

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (October 2023).

Whammy Alcazaren | Bold Eagle / 2022

no one there

by Douglas Messerli

 

Whammy Alcazaren (screenwriter and director) Bold Eagle / 2022 [16 minutes]

 

Bold (who uses the internet name luckymaybe1923) is highly depressed, trapped in his own apartment, fearing or disinterested in going out or answering the continued knocks and cries at the door. Instead, he dreams of Hawaii, where he imagines he might be happy, and spends his days in his Navotas City apartment crammed with family memories, posters of all kinds, stamp albums, and an ever-patient cat, while spending his time mostly while on hallucinogenic drugs and seeking love from strange men on the internet as they masturbate and fuck their way to “happiness.”

 

  At moments, Bold Eagle is truly beautiful and imaginative—although its tripped-out images are somewhat predictable and I could certainly do without the smiley emblems and the pussy heads—filled with pornographic sexual acts of all sorts, on film and in photographs.  


    

     Yet this is also one of the most depressing films I have ever seen, with, it appears, no way out for Bold who can only vary his world by dressing up in different costumes and playing out the behavior of various animals and other figures. He cannot find his way back, evidently into life, and despite all the cheer-up songs sung in English by Hawaiian choir boys, he still finds it difficult to get out of bed or even rise from his usual position on the floor.

     He wishes he were the cat. According to the Internet, he seems to have won a free trip to Hawaii. Perhaps he should answer the knocks at the door, the calls for him to come out. But Bold, is not an Eagle and cannot leave his protective nest.

     This Philippines short movie by Whammy Alcazaren is definitely not for everyone.

 

Los Angeles, August 6, 2024

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (August 2024).

Lewis Martin Soucy | The Blue Dress / 2013

the outsider

by Douglas Messerli

 

Philip Hurd-Wood (original story) and Lewis Martin Soucy (screenplay), Lewis Martin Soucy (director) The Blue Dress / 2013 [10 minutes]

 

You might almost describe the short film by French Quebecois director Lewis Martin Soucy of the French and Spanish supported film The Blue Dress as a kind of mystery.


    The film begins with an absolutely ordinary event. A grocery cashier, Rita (Loles León) observing a truly loving relationship between a mother (Laura More) and her young son (André Boserman) as they check out at her stand.

     Simply observing their love and rapport almost hypnotizes her as she sits almost in a stupor for some time after she has checked them out, her boss having to intrude to bring her back to her senses.

     Suddenly, in her time off, Rita goes on a shopping tour, taking a train into the inner city, and pausing at a window of a shop whose name, quite clearly, she has written down, just to peer in. But the drag figure who runs the shop (Sunflower Fregoli Onnagata), who looks out fiercely at the seeming intruder, scares her off.


    Rita retreats to a nearby pub, drinking a pint simply to fortify her courage. She finally does enter the shop, much to the disdain of the clothes shops regular customers, particularly to twins (Los Jeme Los), dressed in boas, who fondle a blue dress she has just spotted before rejecting it. Another transvestite also picks up the dress to consider buying it, but finally, knowing that it might be perfect for her, the heavy-set cashier moves forward, quickly scooping it up. She holds it up in front of a mirror, checking it against her own body, but it is immediately clear that this overweight straight woman will simply be unable to fit into this dress, the other customers and the always disdainful owner openly mocking her for her delusion.


   Suddenly, the shop door opens and in steps a beautiful young man (Javier Lerma), who seeing the elderly cashier contemplating the dress in the mirror, immediately leaves the establishment. Rita, realizing perhaps her delusion, leaves immediately after.

      Yet suddenly everything in this so-far rather absurd little comedy shifts the next morning, when we see her at breakfast, across from her the boy she has encountered at the store. We now recognize that he is her son, and the dress she has been eyeing was not for herself, but a gift for her transgender son.


      The son tosses a bag with the dress within upon the table, but taking offense, Rita throws it back to him. Yet he takes it out, smells it as if it were a potent drug, making it clear that it is the perfect gift for him. Both smile in recognition of their own sort of love.

       The light, tinkly music by composer Dmitry Senko keeps this surprising delight moving along, so that we know from the beginning that despite the mother’s clear outsiderness, it is a world of love which she is proffering.

       The mystery being solved, ends also in love, even if it is not the resplendent vision of heterosexual love she has witnessed in her first encounter with mother and son. She has been challenged in a way the other mother will perhaps never be. Yet Rita has made clear he love and commitment to him.

 

Los Angeles, August 30, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (August 2026).

 

 

Stéphane Giusti | L'Homme que j'aime (The Man I Love) / 1997, released as a film in 2001

the lifeguard

by Douglas Messerli

 

Stéphane Giusti (screenwriter and director) L'Homme que j'aime (The Man I Love) / 1997, released as a film in 2001

 

Despite some of the groundbreaking TV fare of the 1980s on AIDS—the British television film on a simultaneous son and father outing in The Language of Cranes (1991) and the exploration of various viewpoints of LGBTQ sex on the Canadian TV program gathered by Nik Sheehan in Symposium: The Ladder of Love (1996)—it is utterly unimaginable that any English-language TV broadcasting company of the day might have produced the French TV comedy-drama L'Homme que j'aime (The Man I  Love) (1997), directed by Stéphane Giusti.

       Unlike most public entertainment and news services which cautiously dip their toes in a narrow and focused aspect of life when it comes to anything even faintly concerning LGBTQ issues, this film fully dives in with its embracement of the subject of AIDS at a time when the medical community was pretending that all had been resolved, as well as telling a coming out story—one of the first of what I have describe as the B variant that rose to prominence the following year--along with various other aspects of gay life including, surprisingly, even the seldom-explored territory of hearing-and speaking-impaired gay individuals who are further closeted and segregated within an already outsider community. It even takes us inside a mixed gay bar, introducing us to several gay obsessions, including a drag artist who sings by signing.



       All of these themes are intertwined, moreover, around the central character, Lucas (Jean-Michel Portal) who is a totally brash, outspoken, selfish, and to a certain degree, even unlikeable fellow, who a less generous reviewer might also describe as being engaged throughout much of this movie with stalking a handsome heterosexual man in order to convert him into his gay lover. On top of this, Lucas is HIV positive and is near death from AIDS.

       Even if a US writer had been nervy and crazy enough to have written such a script and by a strange quirk of fate had found a producer willing to undertake the project, and the TV executives had inexplicably been convinced that such a work were worthy of public attention, US audiences would surely have been so severely puzzled and, having suffered thoroughly over the moral implications of the work, that their shrieks of outrage would still be ringing in our ears.

        I have no idea how this work was received in France, but nearly all the characters in this cinematic narrative appear to accept the sexuality and the behavior of its central gay and questioning heterosexual couple that it appears to be hardly worth talking about. Although France did not permit same-sex marriage until 2013 (the same year that it became possible for gay and lesbians to marry in the US and Britain), and even then allowed such marriages only to be celebrated as civil ceremonies, Lucas and his eventually-convinced lover Martin (Marcial Di Fonzo Bo) are married in a church by a priest sixteen years earlier. Perhaps we should simply describe this work as a kind of cultural fantasy, which evidently the French public felt ready to embrace as opposed to the reality.

      In fact, one might describe the work, although it is not at all framed within such a narrative structure, as a dream of a dying man.

       Lucas has just been hired as a pool monitor of an Olympic-sized indoor pool, and even as he dresses for the job, irritates the resident swimming teacher/lifesaver, the hunky, good-looking Martin by endlessly whistling a version of the song of the calvary of the Republic Guard. Immediately upon being introduced to one another by the pool’s owner, Martin begins a series of stunningly perfect high dives, Lucas reporting they will close in fifteen minutes, with Martin reacting by insisting the new pool monitor will simply have to wait until he finishes his weekly dive practice.              

      Angry over the surly lifeguard’s sense of privilege, Lucas insists he will not wait another hour, dumping Martin’s street clothes into the pool. Outraged over the act, Martin is now also without clothes to even get home. The new man quickly attempts to resolve the situation, however, by offering him one of his own shirts and a pair of pants which he insists he’s outgrown and should fit Martin perfectly. 

      Even more unexpectedly, Lucas follows Martin home—again to the total irritation of the lifeguard—attempting to make friends with him. If nothing else, we realize that Martin apparently has no sense of humor and is uncomfortable with speaking, while Lucas appears to be somewhat insanely intrusive. If, as Lucas proclaims, he has taken a liking to Martin and sees him as the perfect boyfriend, he has clearly chosen the wrong person, so it appears, for Martin appears to be a sulky hermit.



      Arriving home, Martin discovers that in all the shifts of his wardrobe he has forgotten his keys. But even though he eventually gets into his apartment, Lucas shows up with the forgotten keys, demanding just a glass ov water, but in the process inspecting the other’s entire apartment, including his library which includes a book on learning how to sign, which intrigues Lucas since, he explains, he has learned the language of the deaf himself simply because his first lover was deaf.

      Before Martin can even get rid of the unwanted intruder, the lifeguard’s girlfriend enters, delighted with Lucas’ appearance since she has never before met one of Martin's fellow workers—it is she who apparently works with deaf children—and going so far as to invite him to join them for a restaurant dinner they have planned, even though Martin reminds her that he has made the reservation for only two.

       So begins the series of Lucas’ direct assaults on the man of his dreams, showing up again and again in his nemesis’ life so often that finally he begins to wear down Martin’s well-studied resistance.

     Unfortunately, Giusti, having written a truly witty script for Lucas, has not fully developed the obviously sexually and somewhat bitter young beauty Martin. And we have no real evidence of what might be the long-fought doubts about his own sexuality. We have merely hints, and the recognition that in his relationship with Lise (Mathilde Seigner) she is clearly the more dominant and assured, and that perhaps she has manipulated him into their current living situation.

      The only other thing we discover that helps to explain matters is that Martin's father is doctor, in fact, Lucas’ doctor, who has had little time throughout his life for his son. And accordingly, in seeking a replacement for a father, perhaps Martin has sought out relationships in which the other is in control.

     If nothing else, Lucas, released by any of the conventions of ordinary behavior by his recognition that he is near death, and given his seemingly long experience with relationships and his need for one last lover before he dies, quickly comes to control Martin’s life. Manipulating him through Martin's own alterations of pure adoration and outrage over his friend’s growing interest in him, particularly when he discovers through his father about Lucas’ medical condition, the clever Lucas, now noticing the increasing interest and fascination that Martin has gradually developed about him, is able to even predict when his "prey" will finally spend the first night in bed with him, even though neither can imagine themselves having sex.

       Understandably, the situation between Lise and Martin decays as, in his attempt to figure out what his growing feelings for Martin are all about, the lifeguard's silences grow longer and longer. He goes missing for long periods of time, voyeuristically observing Lucas just as Lucas had previously almost stalked him. He takes two-hour baths, and you can immediately see in Lise’s face that their sex life is no longer fulfilling.


     Accordingly, the film—although gloriously rich in its visual images during this “silent” part of the work—suffers for its descent into Martin's long silent funks, which would be disastrous were it not for Jacques Bouquin’s visually striking cinematography and composer Lazare Boghossian’s music. The visual elements alone help to tell the story. In the first photograph above we witness the sense of extreme danger Martin is feeling through the image of the beautifully lit and decorated bridge upon which he wanders dangerously close to the edge. And in the second photo, shortly after one of his long baths, we observe the double being that Martin has become, now torn between the internalized imagine of himself along with the so-called “other” person he presents to Lise. As in so many LGBTQ films, we are forced to reckon with the doubling of reality that homosexual men and women feel in presenting themselves to society in one way and emotionally responding differently within. Revealingly, in this instance, Martin faces Lise only in the mirror, while the “real” self faces the audience, revealing an entirely different being to us.


          It finally takes Lucas’ mother, Rose (Vittoria Scognamiglio) to bring Martin literally “out” of his funk, simply through her imperial arrival in a lavender car and later dressed in the same color, as she simply presumes, having witnessed the two in bed on the morning after Lucas has called Martin to his side for comfort, that two are lovers and already are involved in a serious relationship. Indeed, she even takes Martin aside in an attempt to discover whether or not he’s truly serious about his relationship with her son (“because if you hurt him, I’ll kill you. I have to take it out on someone.”). Given the situation, he not only assures her that he is serious about Matin, but obviously convinces himself.   


     Lucas, insisting that he will give the two, his mother and still-reluctant lover, a wonderful tour, takes them on a visit to various cemeteries, "shopping" as he describes it. When Rose insists he stop, he admits that he has, after all, already found the perfect place in which to be buried, touching both the temple of Martin’s and his mother's head. 

      When they return home, Lise is there waiting to claim Martin as her own. But she has arrived too late, and her rude insistence of her ownership of Martin’s love is met with further resistance, Martin moving out of their apartment and moving in with Lucas; soon after, Lucas asking for his first kiss, which if awkwardly rewarded at first, is soon followed with a series of serious mouth-to-mouth expressions of Martin's growing love for Lucas, even as Lucas insists—now that he has finally gotten what was seeking—that he is now furious for his selfishness of wanting Martin there to watch over him as he dies.


        Lucas attempts to send Martin away as his condition worsens, and succeeds for a day in which he goes missing, Lise finally tracking him down when Martin returns to her in despair for his being unable to locate his lover in a hospital bed in which he sought him. Lucas, like a constantly resurrected Phoenix, has in fact pulled off his intravenous drip connections, telling the nurse that he is checking out for a better hotel.

       Now looking after his dying lover, Martin—having become a true “life-guard”—is told the story of Lucas’ lover with whom he contracted AIDS, and for whom he also served as nurse. In those scenes the ex-lover himself appears to help tell the tale, which leads us to believe that just possibly the other half of the seemingly realist tale with which he have been engaged might also have been a kind of fantasy, a magical wish-fulfillment of dying queer.               


   Rose's sudden search of small rural church for a priest willing to perform an illegal marriage ceremony between Martin and her son also seems like something almost out of a fevered dream of a Pedro Almodóvar film. That they find one, the priest actually going through with the celebration, a shower of confetti floating down the vaults of the small country church after the two say their “I Dos,” further creates a sense of fantasy, sealed with their illegal church kiss and a smooch on the cheek of the priest by the appreciative mother.

         At this point it hardly matters whether we believe in what is happening before our eyes. The dream has become real, just as the real must again return to the dream as, after saying his final goodbyes and demanding a gentle stroke of his check by Martin, Lucas himself goes diving off the high board of the pool into the waters below--apparently to drown.

         In the last scene, the normally serious and sour-faced Martin is seen recklessly driving a bicycle down the middle of a city street whistling Lucas’ calvary song of the Republican Guard. Martin has been transformed into the joyful believer in life that Lucas was.

         We must forever be appreciative of such wildly whimsical presentations of LGBTQ life. For if the French indeed could accept this TV movie as fantasy, presumably some day they and others might be able to invoke such a tale as truth. Even in their deaths, gay men can be saved through love.

 

Los Angeles, February 5, 2022

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (February 2022).


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