Sunday, September 6, 2026

Alexis Diop | Adieu Émile (Farewell Emile) / 2024

a return to the present and the future

by Douglas Messerli

 

Alexis Diop (screenwriter and director) Adieu Émile (Farewell Emile) / 2024 [26 minutes]

 

This short film by French director Aleix Diop begins as a kind of mystery. Why has the beautiful young Tim (Benjamin Sulpice) suddenly lost he equally lovely lover, Émile (Arthur Beaudoire), who even Tim’s open-minded mother also seems to adore?


     Throughout this film, through endless imagines that Tim has filmed on his cellphone camera, we get glimpses of their wonderful times together, they joyful young lives, and their engagement with one another.

   In the background, however, we also note that Tim’s father has suddenly died of cancer, and throughout, his mother calls him, pleading that he return home just to claim whatever is left of his father’s possessions. Tim simply ignores her, having also lost his lover, and desperate again to make contact.

 

   The only connection that he has is his mostly cellphone friend Céline (Camille Léon-Fucien). In fact, most of this film uses cellphone images and messages to express it’s plot. As one Letterboxd commentator notes: “Finally accurate phone use in a film.” But frankly I find it rather boring, truly unrevealing, and utterly distracting, not the way I like to “read” my narrative, although I am sure most younger people prefer that experience. The speed through scroll of images may give us a sense of their experiences and love, there is nothing but surface issues presented here. Why has Émile left so suddenly, and why is Tim so desperately seeking Émile? We can imagine the latter, but can’t explain the first part of the question.   

     Through internet connections, he tracks down Émile, suspecting that he has returned to his former lover, a rather sleazy individual, Zahir, living on Île de France. And Céline finally provides against her better judgment, the full address his lover’s current address.


     Needing desperately to talk to Émile, Tim takes a taxi to Rue Myrha. But en route his mother calls pleading with him, one last time, to visit her and help her sort out his father’s possessions, suggesting that he has not all been there for her in her grief, and, mostly important, revealing that for the past year he has retreated from the world in his own inability to deal with his beloved father’s death.

     Obviously, this also explains, in part, his lover’s departure. Tim has not been the same loving companion with whom Émile once lived. The devastation of his father’s death has clearly taken a toll on Tim’s ability to love and think. As the taxi arrives to Rue Myrha, we see him, now with tears rolling down his eyes from his mother’s comments, remaining in the taxi and not carrying out his intended last encounter with his former lover. Among the various images we are given a view of the Garde de Nord train station, perhaps an indication that Tim might finally return back home to lay to rest his tortured past and return to being an individual capable to a new relationship. It is as if perhaps Tim has realized that he cannot return to the past.

     The film, however, stuck in the phone images of a past, does not give us clue whether Tim might be ever able to return to the present and future.

 

Los Angeles, September 6, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whammy Alcazaren | Bold Eagle / 2022

 no one there

by Douglas Messerli

 

Whammy Alcazaren (screenwriter and director) Bold Eagle / 2022 [16 minutes]

 

Bold (who uses the internet name luckymaybe1923) is highly depressed, trapped in his own apartment, fearing or disinterested in going out or answering the continued knocks and cries at the door. Instead, he dreams of Hawaii, where he imagines he might be happy, and spends his days in his Navotas City apartment crammed with family memories, posters of all kinds, stamp albums, and an ever-patient cat, while spending his time mostly while on hallucinogenic drugs and seeking love from strange men on the internet as they masturbate and fuck their way to “happiness.”

 

  At moments, Bold Eagle is truly beautiful and imaginative—although its tripped-out images are somewhat predictable and I could certainly do without the smiley emblems and the pussy heads—filled with pornographic sexual acts of all sorts, on film and in photographs.  


    

     Yet this is also one of the most depressing films I have ever seen, with, it appears, no way out for Bold who can only vary his world by dressing up in different costumes and playing out the behavior of various animals and other figures. He cannot find his way back, evidently into life, and despite all the cheer-up songs sung in English by Hawaiian choir boys, he still finds it difficult to get out of bed or even rise from his usual position on the floor.

     He wishes he were the cat. According to the Internet, he seems to have won a free trip to Hawaii. Perhaps he should answer the knocks at the door, the calls for him to come out. But Bold, is not an Eagle and cannot leave his protective nest.

     This Philippines short movie by Whammy Alcazaren is definitely not for everyone.

 

Los Angeles, August 6, 2024

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (August 2024).

Derek Jarman | War Requiem / 1989

killing the piano player

by Douglas Messerli

 

Derek Jarman (screenwriter and director, based on Benjamin Britten’s War Requiem) War Requiem / 1989

 

I love British composer Benjamin Britten’s operas and many of his orchestral works, but I have to admit that his 1963 War Requiem, composed for the opening the new Coventry Cathedral, is not among my favorites—despite the fact that Dmitri Shostakovich told conductor and cellist Mstislav Rostropovich the he believed it to be the greatest work of the 20th Century.


     The work includes a Latin mass along with chorale renditions of six poems of the poet Wilfred Owen, who fought and died the World War I, during which he became perhaps the most outspoken anti-war poet of England. The choice was a significant since Britten himself along with his lover Peter Pears had left England in 1939, among other reasons, for the difficult position of pacifists, which he and Pears attested to being, leaving behind a Europe when everyone believed it their patriotic duty to join the war efforts.

      Along with the recent exodus of his friends W. H. Auden, and Christopher Isherwood, the current attacks in the British press of Britten’s music, as well as he and Pears having finally consummated their relationship as a gay couple in a time when it against British law, Britten saw fit to remain in the US as a government-identified “artistic ambassador” throughout much of the war.

     Owen was also most likely gay or certainly moving in that direction. He had enlisted in the Artist’s Rifles in 1916, and for the seven months trained at Hare Hall Camp in Essex. In June of 1916 he was commissioned as a second lieutenant in the Manchester Regiment. A number of terrible incidents followed, beginning with his falling into a shell hole where he suffered a concussion, and soon after being caught in the blast of a mortar shell which left him for several days unconscious, lying on an embankment among the bodies of dead soldiers. After, Owen was diagnosed with neurasthenia (shell shock) and sent to the Craighlockhart War Hospital in Edinburgh.

     It was while he was there that he met and became good friends with the poet Siegfried Sassoon, not yet openly gay, who maintained close friendships with other significant figures, several of them being gay. Sassoon introduced Owen to Robbie Ross, Robert Graves, H. G. Wells, Arnold Bennet, Osbert Sitwell, and C. K. Scott Moncrieff. Ross had been a close friend to Oscar Wilde and Moncrieff was the British translator of Marcel Proust. Certainly, Robert Graves and Sacheverell Sitwell were convinced that Owen was gay; and he may have had a brief affair in 1918 with Moncrieff. There are a great many homoerotic elements in his poetry, one of the poems, “Shadwell Stair,” for many years seen as a mysterious work, being later identified as a quite straightforward elegy to the homosexual soliciting in the area of the London docks once famous for such behavior.*

      Sassoon, who obviously had grown quite close to Owen, forbade him to return to the front, and even threatened to shoot him in the leg if he attempted to. But upon their parting in 1917, Owen having been discharged from the hospital, secretly returned to duty without telling his influential friend. Owen was killed in action on November 4, 1918, exactly one week before the signing of the Armistice which ended the war.

   The confluence of two British homosexual pacificists, in turn, almost inevitably became an immediate attraction for yet another anti-war gay man who himself had been traumatized as a child when he was forced to spend a few days alongside recovering victims of World War II in a military hospital.

    All of these experiences and images were brought together, accordingly, in Jarman’s 1989 film containing no dialogue except the score of Britten’s work. The entire War Requiem is performed with the accompaniment of Jarman’s images almost as if it were a music video akin to those Jarman made for The Smiths and Marianne Faithfull.


       Like such works as The Angelic Conversation of the year before and The Garden (1990), although there are many hints of story, there is no general narrative coherence.

      Several characters are also employed: an old soldier (Laurence Olivier in his last screen role), a mother (Patricia Hayes), Wilfred Owen (Nathaniel Parker), a nurse (Tilda Swinton, who also plays a grieving woman and other roles), the unknown soldier (Owen Teale, who plays as well Owen’s best friend and perhaps lover in the film), a German soldier (Sean Bean), and figures such the Biblical Abraham (Nigel Terry), as well as business men, numerous other soldiers, and a young boy playing a tin drum (representing perhaps Jarman himself as a child).

       Except for Owen and the nurse, these figures float in an out of the landscape of the World War I trenches where Owen is stationed and writing his poems, reread by his close friend. Moreover, time is not presented chronologically since we begin with the nurse/griever painfully attending to Owen’s coffin and ends with his death was well.

       In between, we see the injury and death of countless soldiers, at first simply those of World War I, but later from the documentary footage of soldiers of World War II, the Vietnam War, the war in Angola, and in the Congo as well as other world locations.


       As death becomes an everyday occurrence, the soldiers grow closer together, Owen, in particular, coming to depend on his friend’s sharing of his life; but in other tableaux vivants, Jarman shows the love between the regular soldiers as well. At one point the camp engages in a rollicking performance of three drag queens singing and dancing around the physical symbol of Brittania, while outside the boy with the drum looks in (hinting at Günter Grass’ The Tin Drum), and eventually brought inside by soldiers, the boy drummer becomes part of the onstage comic celebrations.


      At one point, in a horrific playing out of God’s demand that Abraham sacrifice the life of his son Isaac, Abraham, bankers, and other cynical citizens looking on, are dressed like cabaret figures. In this version, Abraham does not relent, despite the attempted interference of an angelic puti, as Abraham slits his son’s throat, clearly symbolic of what the parents of the millions of young soldiers who had been bullied into battle had done to their children, a myth relevant as well to Erich Maria Remarque’s All Quiet on the Western Front.**


       One of the most shocking moments takes place in an interim space surrounded by barbed wire, where Owen’s friend, soon to be the unknown soldier, sits playing a piano that appears ridiculously out of nowhere. A German soldier also enters the space, the piano player not even noticing him. The intruder bends down and picks up some snow, rolling it into a snowball and throwing it at the British soldier. Becoming aware of the other, he too makes a snowball and lobs it back to the German, the two almost innocently playing until suddenly the German takes out a knife and attacks the British man, killing him as he falls back upon the barbed fence.

      It is at that moment that Owen enters and, seeing what has happened, takes up his bayonet and stabs the German again and again until he dies. Owen turns back to his best friend only to find him dead. Slowly bursting into tears, the poet falls to the ground, coming to only a day later when officers discover the bodies, bringing Owen back to life.


      Throughout much of the end of the work, we see the ghost of the German soldier carrying the body of the friend, now the unknown soldier, across the fields, by the end of the work, the unknown  soldier himself appearing with a barbed-wire crown, appearing as a Christ, held in the position of the pietà of Piero della Francesca, the homoerotic symbol that we first encountered in this context in Kenneth Anger’s 1947 film Fireworks, and which would appear regularly as a symbol in the “A” version of gay ”coming out” movies into the 1960s.

      Oddly, Britten did not use one of Owen’s most beloved poems, but features certainly one that contains a great many homoerotic images and even the color blue which would become the title of Jarman’s final feature film before his death. I include here as a sort of summary of Owen’s work in relationship to both Britten’s War Requiem and Jarman’s music video, with images of the “bayonet-blade,” so crucial of Jarman’s film, as well as the teeth and curls of Owen’s young lover.

 

Arms and the Boy

 

Let the boy try along this bayonet-blade

How cold steel is, and keen with hunger of blood;

Blue with all malice, like a madman's flash;

And thinly drawn with famishing for flesh.

 

Lend him to stroke these blind, blunt bullet-leads,

Which long to nuzzle in the hearts of lads,

Or give him cartridges of fine zinc teeth

Sharp with the sharpness of grief and death.

 

For his teeth seem for laughing round an apple.

There lurk no claws behind his fingers supple;

And God will grow no talons at his heels,

Nor antlers through the thickness of his curls.

 

*That poem, with his statements of “firm and cool flesh,” the purple street-arc,” and the blare of sirens and ghost with whom he lays, certainly sounds very gay to me as well. Here’s the poem:

 

Shadwell Stair

 

I am the ghost of Shadwell Stair.

       Along the wharves by the water-house,

       And through the cavernous slaughter-house,

I am the shadow that walks there.

 

Yet I have flesh both firm and cool,

       And eyes tumultuous as the gems

       Of moons and lamps in the full Thames

When dusk sails wavering down the pool.

 

Shuddering the purple street-arc burns

       Where I watch always; from the banks

       Dolorously the shipping clanks

And after me a strange tide turns.

 

I walk till the stars of London wane

       And dawn creeps up the Shadwell Stair.

       But when the crowing syrens blare

I with another ghost am lain.

 

The poem seems to have been drafted in 1918, the last year of his life.

 

**One of the poems included in War Requiem was Owen’s “The Parable of the Old Man and the Young,” his version of the Abraham and Isaac story:

 

The Parable of the Old Man and the Young

 

 So Abram rose, and clave the wood, and went,

And took the fire with him, and a knife.

And as they sojourned both of them together,

Isaac the first-born spake and said, My Father,

Behold the preparations, fire and iron,

But where the lamb for this burnt-offering?

Then Abram bound the youth with belts and straps,

And builded parapets and trenches there,

And stretchèd forth the knife to slay his son.

When lo! an Angel called him out of heaven,

Saying, Lay not thy hand upon the lad,

Neither do anything to him. Behold,

A ram caught in a thicket by its horns;

Offer the Ram of Pride instead of him.

 

But the old man would not so, but slew his son

And half the seed of Europe, one by one

 

Los Angeles, July 28, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (July 2023).

 

 

Robert McKimson | Daffy Duck Hunt / 1949

in and out of a frozen existence

by Douglas Messerli

 

Warren Foster (story), Phil DeLara, John Carey, Manny Gold, and Charles McKimson (animators), Robert McKimson (director) Daffy Duck Hunt / 1949

 


This time it is Daffy Duck—for which Porky Pig and his Barnyard Dawg are in chase, Porky playing the role of a duck hunter—when in one of his many quick changes briefly changes gender, becoming a can-can dancer, which actually doesn’t help him since when he bends over in his can-can routine, Porky quickly shoots him in the behind.     


     But, of course, Daffy survives again and again. But when Porky sends his dog to reclaim the body and he sees that Daffy is still quite well, he plays his own game as the fearful dawg, afraid of being tortured by Porky for not bringing home the duck. Daffy agrees to play a game of a dead duck on the canine’s mouth, as he brings him home to Porky, who soon after deposits him in his heavy-duty freezer. As Porky heads off to his bedroom, Barnyard Dawg has a struggle of conscience, wherein he better half encourages him to take out the duck and warm him out of a few minutes. The Dawg warms him up in the oven, and Daffy comes back to become his apparent victim, the Dawg preventing him from actually leaving the house.

     When again Porky’s ire is invoked for having let out the duck. He is punished, Daffy thrown back into the freezer, only to soon again appear to torture the now quite disturbed Dawg, who soon gets punished again with the fracas occurring downstairs.

    Time and again Daffy escapes, causing chaos in Barnyard Dawg’s pitiable life. 


     Finally, Porky himself intervenes to make sure that the duck has remained in the freezer only to be confronted with Santa Claus singing a comic version “Jingle Bells.” They merrily sing along until they discover that, in fact, it is only April.

      When Porky is about to take the axe to the troublesome duck’s carcass, we sees a sign pasted across the body: “Don’t open until Christmas.” Daffy suggests that long before then we will find someway out of the situation, of which we have no doubt.

 

Los Angeles, September 6, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

 

 

 

Saturday, September 5, 2026

Oskar Rosetti | Je crie ton nom (I Scream Your Name) / 2015

escape into a future that does exist

by Douglas Messerli

 

Oskar Rosetti (screenwriter and director) Je crie ton nom (I Scream Your Name) / 2015 [26 minutes]

 

Nicholas lives in a retirement home where, when he daily looks around, everyone seems to be sleeping or near death, and the nurses come around checking up on their drugs and basically watching over the behavior.



   Nicolas (Jean Winger) is not at all dead and scrutinizes the local newspapers for gay call chatlines, when the nurses are momentarily distracted, to keep him alive in this hellhole of death in which he is entrapped.

     I know the feeling, only because I spent the most horrible week of my life in a rehabilitation facility, where the greatest joy of most of the citizens was nightly bingo, and where my roommate, who’d I grown rather fond of, chose, after suffering from a bout double-pneumonia, for a family-supported decision for euthanasia with drugs, even though it is not even legal in California, although medical aid in dying, chosen by the patient, is permitted. Trapped in the next bed, I became witness to his death, sharing with the family their sorrow and waiting out the arrival of the coroner so the body, my former friend, might be wheeled away.


     He makes the nightly calls, but the idea of golden showers and “banging” the other into eternity does not satisfy his far more romantic concerns.

      Eventually he calls the telephonic Kevin (the voice of director Oscar Rosetti), who he as obviously sought out before since he even knows the name of his supposed psychotherapist, Gabriel, Kevin suggests he simply grab his butt to see how he responds.

      And the next day in therapy, there seem plenty of moments in which he might have done so. Nicholas is suffering from pain in his right leg, yet the therapist cannot see anything wrong and wonders if it is psychosomatic, but the patient rightfully argues that isn’t going the help him walk.

    He suggests he does the proper exercises and he will be able to dance at the next party, asking him if there’s some one he prefers. The long straight look Nicholas gives Gabriel makes it clear that he himself is the focus of Nicolas’ love: “It’s not possible Nicolas! We’re not even of the same age!” He wonders if he isn’t interested in someone in the home itself.


     Nicolas’ answer if quite emphatic: Of course not, they’re just old here!”

     Yes, whether we like to think it or not, older men and women still love youth, a time that reminds them of their own beauty and possibilities. No, it is not perverse but actually quite natural. The elders remind them of their own impending death.

      Weren’t you married? the young man implores. “Emily died a few years ago.”

      Suddenly, from his window, Nicolas observes a newcomer arriving in a lovely blue convertible with his angry daughter.

      With a mud plaster on his face, and cucumbers in his eyes, Nicolas is suddenly visited by the slightly deaf Daniel (Pierre-André Sand), who stops by simply to introduce himself, bringing a small present. And immediately a rapport is established with the energetic new patient.

      In a call again to Kevin, he admits he has never felt like this before. The new fellow patient beings sudden life to Nicolas, who has felt for so long loneliness and isolation.

      “Just feeling like it’s possible…like I’m desirable again, at last!”

     They meet again with Daniel working on his car, asking about Nicolas’ cucumbers, which he explains keep his fresh. He admits he no longer has a driver’s license, but the director of the retirement home allow him to work on it from time to time. It’s a Mustang Cabriolet from 1967.

     At lunch, he discovers that one of his few sentient friends, Bridgette (Danny Rossel) has also met Daniel and enjoyed his company, with perhaps just a little jealousy.

     Later that night, as his passes a room on his first floor, Daniel, housed on the third floor, calls him in for help. He’s naked and doesn’t quite recall how he got into the situation. Evidently, soon after, Nicohlas is able to provide him with a bathrobe, and the two go wheeling down the hall together. He thanks Nicolas for his help, and he wonders what time Nicolas goes to bed. When he explains about midnight, Daniel admits he is unable to stay up that late at night—a man of my own heart.

     Yet Daniel admits that he has some really good weed, if his friend wishes to join him. Nicolas merely laughs, but Daniel takes that as a yes, and suggests they meet when the lights go out. On the roof of the residency, the two smoke, giggling a bit like young boys truly enjoying themselves, with Nicholas admitting that he scream’s his name while Daniel argues that it is actually, “I scream you name, liberty.” But that is, after all, what Daniel has suddenly come to mean for him.


     The next day the psychotherapist is encouraging Nicolas to walk, suggesting that he will become the “dancing queen” of the party, but finally he can take no more and demands him to shut up. Stop treating me as a child. “Yes, I can walk!”: “Bring me my chair, I’ve had enough of this bullshit.” Aging and the pain that comes with it cannot be dismissed by those who suffer it.

     Nicolas’ begs Gabriel’s forgiveness for having yelled at him, but there is deep suffering and depression clearly behind it.

     Finally, on the night of the party, Daniel knocks on his door and asks if he’s coming or not to the party. Nicolas, returning quickly to his wheelchair, Daniel bending to ask: “What’s wrong my friend, are we unhappy today?”

     Nicholas responds that it is nothing at all like that, Daniel arguing that for once he should find some fun in this house. Nicolas admitting, that it’s really horrible. Daniel sits down on a nearby chair and admits that he too finds it really horrible. Nicolas wonders does he have any weed left.

     And suddenly, hearing some music, Daniel stands and begins to dance, claiming that he loves the song. And suddenly he grabs up Nicolas, demanding he too dance, and as the two engage in a dance, suddenly Nicolas breaks out into a laugh not unlike his previous weed-induced giggles. He is again a young man in love.


   Without being able to control himself, Nicolas suddenly kisses his dancing partner, Daniel quickly pushing him away with total disgust. “Seriously? You’re a fag!” and he rushes out of the room, leaving poor Nicolas to try to imagine how he might redeem what has now become an impossible situation. Love is not possible at his age, particularly of the bisexual urges that Nicolas has begun to experience.

    But Daniel, in the violence, has dropped his beloved car keys. Nicolas suddenly rises and walks his way through the horrors of the resident hallways, and, keys in hand, leaves the building. Staggering outdoors, he enters Daniel’s blue Mustang Cabriolet and drives off, escaping the closed world behind him.


     This Swiss film is one of the most beautiful, stunning, and amazing coming out movies that I have ever seen. It is a true escape from everything in Nicolas’ endlessly delimiting past. It represents a desperate escape into a future that does not truly exist.

 

Los Angeles, September 5, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

        

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