Saturday, September 12, 2026

Jess X. Snow | Safe Among Stars / 2019

removing the body

by Douglas Messerli

 

Jess X. Snow and Kit Yan (screenplay), Jess X. Snow (director) Safe Among Stars / 2019 [9 minutes]

 

As a young student at the local university, Jia (Poppy Liu) is rapped by her best male friend, and as she attempts to deal with the assault, without telling her mother (Lean Cai) the reason, returns home.


     She has since become involved with a lesbian, Sonnia (Vera Lam), but even so finds it difficult to love, to be touched, as each time she feels metaphorically as she has been teleported from her body to join the stars. It is a self-protective act she has learned of removing her body from the world in order not to be violated.


     Even with her mother, she finds herself protectively escaping into space, but at the same time desiring to return to life and normality. Finally, she wills herself to return to the beauty of the world around her, allowing Sonia to actually touch her and make love, and even gently returning to her confused and somewhat angry mother. During the preparation of one meal, she takes over the dishwashing activities of her moment, and finally speaks out, ready to tell her mother why she has left school and what the problem has been.


     With that admission, one suspects, she will explain why she will never have the boyfriend her mother keeps longing for, and perhaps even introduce her mother to her lesbian friend.

   This is a simple and rather poetic film expressing the displacement of the body many feel after its violation, and how someone like her can come back to the enjoyment to the sensual and physical world around them.

     If it’s certainly not a profound film, it does simply and gracefully deal with the issues of rape and the effects it sometimes has upon its victims.

 

Los Angeles, September 12, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

Raoul O’Connell | A Friend of Dorothy / 1994

the wrong codes

by Douglas Messerli

 

Raoul O’Connell (screenwriter and director) A Friend of Dorothy / 1994

 

Right off the bat, Raoul O'Connell’s 1994 short A Friend of Dorothy presented me with far too many things I simply couldn’t swallow—and I don’t mean any of the appendages attached to the attractive young boys in this tale. For example, why does a handsome young freshman, Winston (O’Connell in the flesh) who transfers from Podunk State to New York University (he’s obviously seeking something missing in his education) with his “fat” (his father’s words not mine) girlfriend Anne (Anne Zupa) (read “fag hag”), after having the incredible luck to be assigned to a room with one of the most beautiful men on campus Tom (Kevin McClatchy), have absolutely no clue where to find a nice guy with whom he might relieve his obvious sexual tension. He reminds me, a little of a 19-year-old me, after having just landed a temporary room on Jane Street in Greenwich Village, asking some boy if there were a lot of gay people in the neighborhood. I should imagine that I wanted to go to bed with the kid and was simply playing a ridiculous innocent to attract his interest. His answer showed up the absurdity of my question: “Like selling coals to Newcastle.”


      Of course Winston’s got the hots for his roommate, but he can’t quite figure out if Tom’s gay or not (the roomie seems to have a girlfriend, but Winston can’t apparently read between the lines that she’s simply Tom’s version of his Anne), a confusion he maintains despite the fact that whenever the hunk looks his way he flashes the most glorious smile and finds some way to put his hands on the new kid, and even asks one night whether to pay his school debts if it’s an option for him to “hock the family jewels” as he seductively strips off his T-shirt. And I thought was I was being coy with my question! Winston doesn’t have a ready comeback.

     Why does Winston head straight to the library where he finds only a heavy-set, unattractive boy (the writer’s prejudice, not mine) and a horny female librarian (Bianca, perhaps a transsexual), when everyone knows (as Winston’s friend Anne later advises him) he might have trotted straight down to the library basement bathroom, which, when he does he picks up a hot boy in the next stall (Jerry Haggerty). But evidently bathroom sex just isn’t Winston’s thing. Nor are the easy-going, always sexually available boys and girls at a groovy drugged-out, guitar-playing party to which Anne drags her frustrated friend.

       Winston also seems to have some sort of aversion to the very good-looking Asian boys who are on the verge of asking him to join their gay liberation pink triangle group. O’Connell’s film seems to be filled with all sorts of subtle racial prejudices. Winston is apparently so dumb that when a park-bench preacher offers to show him the way to find joy in the village, the new kid in town allows himself to be sucked into a Moonie indoctrination session.

       Even when Winston meets Tom’s absolutely beautiful “special buddy,” Matt (Greg Lauren) who sits down next to him and puts his arm around him, the boy can’t figure it out. Why, wonders Matt, has Winston just purchased new albums of Barbra Streisand and Bette Midler and no Judy Garland? Why is Winston reading D. H. Lawrence’s Lady Chatterley’s Lover instead of Henry David Thoreau’s Walden, Tom wonders. And surely even a guy from Podunk State would have at least heard of Judy Garland and read of Thoreau, if not having actually heard or read their works.


       More confusingly, why is this young, very cute director, who probably made this movie for his NYU film degree, suggesting that entry into the gay world is dependent upon coded words and interests such as “Are you a friend of Dorothy’s?” I don’t know, maybe in the early 1990s things had changed from the New York I knew of in the late 1960s when if you saw a good-looking guy and he looked back at you, you’d simply ask “My place or yours?” or at least “You got some place to go?” And on occasion even the bathrooms weren’t that bad. And where did all the gay bars go? Surely at least Julius’ was still nearby? And even Winston must have had heard of Stonewall, just a few blocks away from Washington Square.      

       Meanwhile, Winston does get up the nerve to clumsily trip over to Tom’s bed and reach out his had to gently stroke Dorothy’s friend before they fall passionately into active sex. Too bad Dorothy’s got to leave Oz the very next day, Tom having found a job and now required to give up his university dorm room.

       Winston learns to swallow his pride and agrees to listen to a Garland record (after which I’m sure he’ll have to admit that as good as Streisand is, Garland is better) as he picks up a new boy in the record shop.

        I’d laugh at all this, except that my young gay friend Felix once told me that he utterly adored Bernadette Peters but couldn’t bear Audra McDonald. Perhaps if I suddenly found myself young again I wouldn’t know the proper codes to find somehow with whom I might go to bed. But then perhaps I’ve always just been less choosy than Winston and my friend Felix appear to have been. Certainly, I had a lot of fun. But then....I'm now an old man.

 

Los Angeles, February 8, 2021

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog and World Cinema Review (February 2021).

Friday, September 11, 2026

Brumby Boylston | Cruising Electric (1980) / 2014

the newest game

by Douglas Messerli

 

Brumby Boylston (screenwriter and director) Cruising Electric (1980) / 2014 [1 minute]

 

Satirizing the 1980 Al Pacino film Cruising this very short film of one minute imitates commercial ads, advertising a game played by two young boys of the film, including a complete hanky code which they need to learn to play the game successful, particularly “watersports.” The goal is it help the major figure cruise his way around the block and meet up with his car at precisely the right time. And there are apparently other possibilities, as when a police car suddenly follows the hero, only for us to discover that, no, he is a friendly leather friend from the bar world which Pacino inhabits.


    A father looks over the children’s shoulder as they play the game, sometimes in worried wonderment, but mostly with grateful approval of the video game created by RamJac hobby and toy company. And he seems almost in awe when, like his children, he sees the leather man appear in their imaginative “reality.”


     This film, clearly mocking how even the most perverse and violent of films can easily become toys for children, is, after all, a one-liner, the kind of episode that Saturday Night live might feature.

     It’s funny for a second or two until it dawns on us just how terrifying this transformation from a feature film into a children’s video actually is.

 

Los Angeles, September 11, 2026 | Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026)

Ignacio Juricic | Locas Perdidas (Lost Queens) / 2015

a slow spiral into disaster

by Douglas Messerli

 

 [28 minutes]

 

On May 4, 1996, Chilean police broke into a major drag bar and arrested the young boys enacting their roles as drag queens. Among those boys was Maureen Junott (Fernando Celedón) who is demanded to name names and provide his sexual partner’s addresses; he does so vaguely, to the shock of nearly all the others.


     Among the others is Rodrigo (Andrew Bargsted), whose major fear is that his mother might see the arrest of TV, and thus lose all accessibility to his own family.

     Yet his mother Carmen (Roxana Campos), a tried hospital worker, who is clearly being clocked into more hours than should be allowed, does not notice anything, nor her daughters. She mostly sleeps, Rodrigo gently awakening her as they talk about the ugly details of her job. His sisters chatter away about when each of the brother’s returns home providing the full time, from early in the morning to 10:00 the next morning by Rodrigo; but none of it seems to have much consequence, at least not immediately. But Rodrigo the good boy, explains to Carmen that “last night I was arrested.” He admits also that it may even be on TV.


      But meanwhile he is on his way to get a haircut, the haircutter Mauricio (Rodrigo Pérez), with whom he hopes to run away with to the north far from Santiago. The rest of the family prepares for a wedding celebration, while Rodrigo hardly breathes in terror of the new reports, which have captured the entire incident.

       As Mauricio attempts to calm him and put off their attempted escape, it is a slow spiral into disaster as Rodrigo slips into family gossip and disgust. One of his sisters has just spotted him kissing Mauricio, which for young curious girls is only intriguing. Yet, the youngest daughter Giselle (Maite Neira) cannot help to admit the fact to her mother, who now seems trouble.


      Rodrigo attempts to involve his elder sister in retrieving his possessions from his bedroom, which soon after Mauricio refuses to help with. He has offered a temporary escape at his place, but even the elder sister Alexandra (Macarena Lagos) comments that it is only 10 minutes away. Not a place far enough to protect her brother.

      Carmen, meanwhile dismisses Mauricio, Rodrigo intruding to admit that it is not the hairdresser’s fault, the fact of which she disregards, threatening to report him to the police. When Rodrigo argues that he is leaving with him, she insists he is going nowhere and standing in his way, locks the door, virtually imprisoning her own son withing her house.

      His mother determines that he no longer can work at “that place,” to which Alexandra proclaims given that her mother is working shifts, she cannot support the house alone. Again, Rodrigo admits that last night he was arrested and it may appear on TV. The mother only orders that they disconnect the bell.

      The two sisters, Alexandra and Giselle comfort one another, the elder suggesting that the younger uses makeup like a monkey as she reminds her of their aunt Cecilia, of whom they often made fun.

      Rodrigo appears to be sleeping with his sister in her bed, she continuing to tell him stories of their strange relatives. He snorts with laughter at the memory, but we know he is now spiritually and mentally dead, locked away in a culture which cannot bear the existence of his desires and activities.

     This painfully touching work was first short at the 2015 Cannes Film Festival and became a favorite of the gay film circuit.

 

Los Angeles, September 11, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

Shawn Postoff | Coming to Terms / 2000

pretending

by Douglas Messerli

 

Shawn Postoff (screenwriter and director) Coming to Terms / 2000 [16 minutes]

 

Damian (Matt Sadowski) is a college student, obviously now gay. When he mother (Paula Gove) calls inviting him up for the weekend to the family cottage, he explains as gracefully as he can, that he wants to make some special time to sit down and talk to her and his father, clearly planning to come out. But she clearly is disturbed, worried that something is wrong. He attempts to explain that all is well, that he is fine, his life perhaps even better than usual, but he cannot assuage her fears.


     The next day his father (Chris Regan) calls as well, begging his son to tell him what’s going on, but Damain holds his ground, despite the fact his dad tells him that his mother hardly slept all night. Obviously this is a loving family, who simply don’t leave any space for their son for his own life and explanations. They are now desperately worried without hearing a word he is expressing. How might he need special time to sit down and talk if there is not something terribly wrong with his life. Their worry dominates his own attempt simply to explain to them what is happening in his life.

     Obviously feeling some guilt for having them left them so worried, he calls three times on Thursday evening, hanging up twice for he actually speaks with his mother. Meanwhile, they have figured out what the issue is, and all his mother can say is that she does approve, as if her “approval” really meant anything for a young gay boy who has finally come to terms with himself.

     Yet families are there, often after years of blind abuse, to still confuse and fuck up you life. His father, she reports, sees it as “abhorrent and disgusting.” His moreover, doesn’t want to let his sister know, and simply doesn’t want to talk about it, the usual way unaccepting parents treat such situations.

   He attempts to explain that it’s been buried within all his life, and now that it’s surface he does not to bury it again. She is firm: “I don’t want to talk about it.”

     “Of all the people I’ve come out to, yours is the worst fucking reaction!"


      But as if it were all about her, she claims she can simply deal with it now, the usual parental escape clause, strongly suggesting there will never be a time for her and her husband to deal it the issue.  

     Yet, she does also make a good point, suggesting that he has had 20 years to confront and deal with the issue, but then to expect his parents to sit down and have an immediate conversation is unfair: “You should give me some time.”

     He explains that he has books and pamphlets that might help deal with the fact, but she is even more adamant.

     “So you just want me to keep my emotions down and pretend everything is fine.”

     She argues that she needs to unlearn what her generation has believed, but again, quite reasonably, he argues that is precisely why he wants to have a conversation about it.”

     Her answer is another chestnut in the parental world of misunderstandings and perceptions: “It’s a dangerous lifestyle.”

     Damian’s response represents what gay men have to deal with again and again: “It’s not a lifestyle mom, it’s me.” He is desperate to tell her what it’s like. Just because I’m coming out of my closet, it doesn’t mean I’m going to raid yours.”

     Again, she simply repeats her cover-up slogan: “I can’t deal with this now. I can’t.”

    “Well, I’m not coming up to the cottage unless we can talk about this.” And that is the way it seems to end.

     Yet 29 minutes later, his mother calls him again. She has talked it over with his father, and they agree that it is emotional blackmail when he refuses to be a part of the family unless they discuss the issue. Once more, they see everything from their point of view, without daring to imagine what Damain must be suffering for the own dissolution of the family.

    “Forcing me to bury it is not fair, Mom,” he attempts to explain. “How can we not talk about anything that matters.”

      “Well, that’s nothing new, is it” she snaps back, perhaps characterizing their family life more than she realizes.

      She suggests he was never part of this family. “Well, now you know why. All you could ever ask me was when I would get a fucking girlfriend. I could only come up with so many excuses. This is the one reason I needed to tell you, so that I could be a part of the family.”

      When his father describes his as something he abhors and finds disgusting, Damian rightfully argues that there’s “fucking” no way he’s coming up the cottage. And finally, he admits they have not even asked him if he has a boyfriend. He’s been dating him for two months, and they don’t even know his name and haven’t met him. “That upsets me, Mom, because he’s a part of my family. Don’t tell me about family if you won’t even acknowledge who I am.”


       “I don’t want to lose myself, Mom.” He finally pleads.

       Again, he suggests she and his father can get support of groups. But, she claims, “I don’t need that stuff, I need a family.” In fact, however, she has never really had one. It was all a delusion, the kind families pretend to block out anything they fear.

         She begs him to come, and he finally gives up and acquiesces, a decision I could never have made.

       We can only imagine just how tense and impossible that weekend will be, as he will be forced to be more closed off and separate than ever. There is no longer a family left for these blinded people. Actually, nobody "comes to terms" in this film, particularly not Damian’s “family.”

         This 2000 film was one of the earliest of the numerous “coming out” films of the new version “B” that began to appear in the 1990s and understandably became one of the favorite of all gay film genres.

 

Los Angeles, September 11, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (April 2026).


Thursday, September 10, 2026

Anthony Schatteman | Kus me zachtjes (Kiss Me Softly) / 2012

as long as you’re having fun

by Douglas Messerli

 

Anthony Schatteman (screenwriter and director) Kus me zachtjes (Kiss Me Softly) / 2012 [16 minutes]

 

Jasper (Ezra Fieremans) has a problem—or let’s admit it, he has a few problems.  His father Luk (Marc Van Eeghem) is a schlager singer whose handle is Lukkie Luk, one of those individuals who sing sweet, popular, sentimental ballads about melancholy love and easy living. They are the songs sung at sing-a-longs, mostly for geriatric audiences. Luk has a new album coming out. 

      Jasper’s mother, Martine (Marijke Pinoy) watches TV game shows day in and out.


      And Jasper lives in what the publicists of this film themselves describe as a “very grey, small town in Belgium.” If that weren’t enough, Jasper is gay, bullied by his peers, and in love with a lanky fellow 17-year-old, Mathias (Tim Bogaerts). Is it any wonder that at the beginning of Flemish director Anthony Schatteman’s 2012 film, we find Jasper in a funk?

      The movie begins, in fact, with Jasper having to sit through a performance by his father singing with two big-titted twins (Lisa and Clara Vermaercke) doing what appears to a cheerleader routine to his music. And in the very next few frames is tossed a note accusing him a being a fag in class, after which two schoolboys push him against the wall. Even a kiss on the lips from Mathias doesn’t make up for the abuse he has to endure.

       The boys talk briefly about coming out, Jasper suggesting that it might be better that his father remains, as he is about most things in life, without a clue. But inside, we can see that his inability to share his relationship with his family is torturing him. To resolve his problems, he turns to painting, which his mother admires. But there is also a rather too obvious mother-son bonding, as she suggests that perhaps just the two of them might escape for a weekend in Paris.


       Going through his pants pockets in preparation for the laundry, however, his mother discovers one of the hate notes in a pocket. On a trip into the city, she tries to talk to him, asking if everything is all right; but he answers basically in monosyllabic words, she responding, “Honey, you’re talking, you’re talking, but you’re not saying anything.” All Jasper can answer is that he hates the school, which evidently has been chosen by his father, his mother perfectly willing to send him someplace else if she could.

      Later that evening, Luk enters his room with the hate note in hand, asking if his son has something to share with him. “Are you being bullied at school? You’re not gay, are you?”

      Jasper answers what any boy in his situation might say: “No.”

      “Don’t fucking tell me that’s it true, man.”

      “What do you care, anyhow?”

      “Of course. I’d care.”

      His father already having put it in the past tense, Jasper puts on his jacket and leaves, angrily lifting and pounding his bike against the concrete and he rides it along an empty road. He ends up in the local bar where he meets up with Mathias; they kiss—for both of them an important relief.

     The boys bike over the site where Jasper’s father is celebrating his new album, once again meeting up with three school toughs who tease him about coming to his daddy’s opening.


   His father, singing with the two twins, has just reached the point in his song here, after melancholically having suggested nothing matters as long as you’re having fun, when he pleads, “So kiss me softly, on my mouth” as Jasper and Mathias enter the room, quickly move to the front, and proceed to do just what the song is arguing for. The local media cameras immediately shift their attention to the boys, the elder audience dropping their mouths in astonishment, Luk himself stopping mid-phrase to watch a realization of his song he hadn’t ever quite imagined.

      The boys stop, Jasper turning to face his father and Luk looking back in utter confusion. At that very moment, Martine rushes into the hall, shouting, “Luk, Luk, we won,” having evidently won some television contest which she has entered. 


 


   But in the utter silence that follows, it appears that no one has won, all having lost something that tentatively kept them in a relationship in which none of them were truly participating. Or, to put it another way, perhaps all of them have won, suddenly realizing that they will have to determine a new way to connect if they are to remain a family.

      This was Anthony Schatteman’s first film, and he has done at least 7 works since, some of them continuing the Jasper story (with the same actor). As his career has progressed, his subjects and filmmaking have increased in complexity and significance; I’d argue, he is one of the most interesting filmmakers of short LGBTQ films in Belgium, which has already a fairly long tradition of gay filmmaking.

 

Los Angeles, August 7, 2023

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (August 2023).

Peter Yates | The Dresser / 1983 || Richard Eyre | The Dresser / 2015

a near miracle

by Douglas Messerli

 

Ronald Harwood (screenplay based on his 1980 theater play) Peter Yates (director) The Dresser    

/ 1983

Richard Eyre (screenplay based on the 1980 theater play by Ronald Harwood, and director) The Dresser / 2015

 

Having grown a bit tired of combining films by subject, genre, and director, something I have done so many times in these volumes, I originally planned to review these two versions of Ronald Harwood’s 1980 play separately. But having seen the both over a period of two nights, I realized that comparison between the two were not only illuminating but necessary.

     Even the fact of the time between these two versions represents a period of 32 years, the earlier work having been filmed soon after the original play production makes for very different perceptions and interpretations.


    Strangely, over that period the actor who played the dresser in the 2015 film, Ian McKellen, a gay man, played his role, for example quite straight. Although it is equally clear, as in the first, production that he truly loves the man he brings to life each night in his Shakespearian roles, McKellen plays him not as would-be gay lover but performs his character as one of complete servitude. He seems far more objective about the man he revitalizes after having what appears to have been a mental breakdown in the market place of the small British village of Bradford in which the company is performing King Lear that night, than the original “dresser” Tom Courtney’s Norman might even think possible. Courtney, a straight man, plays the dresser as most definitely a slightly mincing gay man totally devoted by love to “Sir.” 

     Yes, he is servile also, but underneath that servility, there is a sexual being who comes alive in the presence of the ham actor. Although McKellen’s performance is quite brilliant, there is a brittleness to his interpretation that doesn’t permit the sexual to percolate into even a private sense of romance, which I think, strangely, leaves the actor, in McKellen’s case, Anthony Hopkins, in an even more unlovable situation than Albert Finney. Hopkins’ “Sir” has already rejected the love of the stage manager Madge (Sarah Lancaster) after her many years of frustrated and quiet love. And he has long ago lost the love of his own wife, “Her Ladyship” (Emily Watson), and in Eyre’s version he writes in scene that makes it quite clear that she, having given up her role as a major independent actress, is now ready to leave him, begging him to give up the theater. As a womanizer he attempts to woo the young Irene (Vanessa Kirby) who, quite inexplicable, is obviously ready and willing for a seduction. In short, in Hopkins’ role “Sir’ is simply a detestable fool, who occasionally is able to rise the occasion to convince the provincial audiences of his talent.

      McKellen’s Norman can, in fact, simply be seen as another figure who has loved “Sir,” and has been used and abused by him, like the major two women in his life, Madge and her “Ladyship.”

      Without having to dramatize this fact quite so emphatically as Eyre, in the original film directed by Peter Yates, it is just as clear that “Sir” has lost his wife’s love, as immediately after the play she slips home without her husband.

   All the more reason that, even despite “Sir’s” and the theater companies’ and the country’s homophobia—they has just arrested one of the major members of he company, Mr. Davenport-Scott, whom the police, since this is his second warning, oppose bail. Clearly he was caught involved in “pansy” behavior; The fool will have to be played this evening by Mr. Thornton (Edward Fox in the 2015 version)—that one figure still remains who is obviously gay, particularly in a company dedicated to Shakespeare, possibly a gay man himself, or least bisexual as the Sonnets are generally read.

     We can well imagine why in 2015 a gay man such as McKellen would not at all desire to play a gay stereotype, reinforcing the idea that gay men were all mincing, slightly hysterical beings who nonetheless could create magic for those they loved or admired. McKellen’s very age indicates that he has given over his entire life to “Sir.” And perhaps he is a wiser and more flexible gay figure who also clearly loves the actor.

       Tom Courtney in 1983 could still very well get away with portraying the standard stereotype. Yet the very fact that he is still relatively young, but has given over his youth to “Sir” says something even more poignant to my way of thinking than McKellen’s elderly version. And occasionally, we are reminded by Courtney’s performance, that some versions of character stereotypes do function far quicker to establish roles. As I mention above, while it is clear McKellen still loves “Sir,” he, like Madge and her “Ladyship,” is far more bitter and hardened about his role with “Sir” than interested in creating a frisson of sexual love between the him with the cruel heterosexual abuser. If nothing else, their relationship, as improbable as it is, challenges us to more fully understand what it is between the two of them that could even endure 276, now 277 performances of Lear, let alone of all the other numerous renditions of Shakespeare plays “Sir” has performed while Norman subserviently readies him to perform.

     Similar differences between the two films, reveal other issues. The 2015 film basically does not leave the confines of the theater itself, and again one can comprehend Eyre’s decision given that “Sir’s” entire world has been built around the theater. In some senses, he has no “other” life. All we know about “Sir’s” public breakdown is related mostly by Norman, including the vague act of taking him to the local hospital, from which Sir obviously escapes.

     But like so many films of the 1970s and 1980s, Yates opens up his film temporarily so that we too experience the actors many acts of dementia and deterioration. What this version of reality reveals is just how essential the constant Nazi bombings, the roars of the sirens warning citizens to take cover, and the bombings themselves have helped to exacerbate the elderly actor’s dementia and public breakdown. “Sir” cannot even imagine what he might be able to do to help his fellow citizens, at one point offering the poor man watching the fire rage in the building where in once lived, perhaps having even lost in the attack his wife or children, free tickets to his play that night. The shocked citizen responds only with a frozen stare.


     At another point when the actor begins to strip in public, an elderly woman attempts to help him redress, suggesting how much she has loved his performances in the past. Norman gathers up his clothing giving the woman tickets to Lear which she attends, telling Norman in the interval when he goes out to purchase another flask of his necessary brandy, how much she is enjoying the performance. It is at the moment when a doctor is about to inject him with a sedative, that “Sir” escapes the hospital, roaring in his most stentorian voice that has previously stopped a train from leaving the station without his troupe.

     In these scenes we get a sense of what is really happening daily that helps to explain this man’s breakdowns. Even as they are about to begin the plays, Norman is sent out to explain to the audience that the city is undergoing another bomb warning, and encourages people who may want to “live,” correcting himself almost immediately from the obvious subconscious Freudian slip by suggesting that anyone who wants to “leave,” should do so quietly.


     Finney is always an excellent actor, I believe far superior to Hopkins, but this is not his best role. He is best as in Tom Jones (1963) and even the later Erin Brockovich (2000) as a slightly naughty man-boy with a glint of bad behavior in his eyes. Hopkins’ general overacting, on the other hand, is almost a perfect match for the ham actor “Sir.” While Hopkins’, “Sir” can be absolutely wonderful at moments, and unbearable to watch in the very next.

     In the end though this dementia-ridden and dying actor is nearly insufferable as a human being, a character somewhat similar to the skin-flint, unloving father in Eugene O’Neill’s James Tyrone, an actor of also of some ability, but who has finally sold out to popular theater-role of Dumas’ The Count of Monte Cristo. At least “Sir” has continued with the Bard, even if he is no longer up to several the roles, finding it now difficult to even carry off the body of Cordelia, played by his wife.


     But it is the ending of this play, and the final reactions of the characters that is ultimately most revealing. In the 2015 version, “Sir” dies while Norman is reading the introduction naming those he have given most to him from the introduction to his non-existent memoirs. He thanks the carpenters, the electricians, even the scene changes without any mention of his dresser, the fact of which so infuriates Norman that when he discovers the elder actor has died, he seems angrier about the final slight than the actual death, and among his first words is “what is going to happen me,” while the impervious Madge call us his wife and the doctors, telling Norman simply to try to sober up after his many swigs of brandy. Norman takes up the nonexistent manuscript and adds thanks to the dresser, while sticking out his tongue like a child to the nearby dead man. We can well comprehend McKellan’s reaction, given the fact that we have earlier heard Sir” tell Madge that “You’re the only one who truly loves me.” But love is ice cold, that of a true masochist, while Norman’s has been that of a caring man who has given his entire life to him. Madge reports that her Ladyship will be coming at once, but that she took it very calmly, but wants him covered in his Lear cloak, which once more Norman mocks in this 2015 version. “It isn’t the death of Nelson you know?”

    Madge demands he come away, but Norman now seems more concerned that he get paid that anything else. He reminds Madge, moreover, that there is mention of “backstage managers” either, although at this point of officious Madge doesn’t even know what he is talking about. What is he going to do, he demands to know. Madge suggests that he “speak well of him,” to which McKellen replies, “Speak well of that old sod? I wouldn’t give him a good character, not in the court of law.”

     Madge tries to forcibly move him out of the room, while he shouts, “Oh, holy, holy, holy, is it. This isn’t a shrine. No pissing on the altar!”



    “I know all about you, ducky. I have eyes in my head. We all have our little sorrows: stiff upper, loyal, loving. I only have one thing to say about him, and I won’t say it in front of you, no her ladyship, nor anyone. Lips, tight shut. …You think you loved him. What about me?”

     Once she has stormed off, he begins speaking the corpse again, arguing “This is no place for death. I had a friend….”

     In short, although we know the situation, very little true love is represented in these last scenes in Richard Eyre’s text. The ending represents three bitter people whose lives have already been eaten up by the larger than life actor, who have no place else to go.

     Yet the 1983 version is far different. Yes, here too Norman is hurt by the lack of mention of him in any form in the introduction to the nonexistent memoirs, and he observe him, this time at distance adding in his own role to the lest. But that all hardly matters on the larger scale of what occurs.


     He also wonders what will happen to him and refuses, as Madge, suggests to wait outside, angered by her line: “Try and sober up.”

     And he also refuses to take Madge’s advice to speak well of him, furious with the “old sod” for not even mentioning his role to him in his nonexistent memoirs. But the lines here are much more personal: “He never once took me out for a meal, never once.” And she leaves before his speech about saying only one thing and the dead actor, and not in front of her, presenting it more as another personal diatribe, not an acclimation of hate. Indeed, the speech even to Madge is not directed at her, but remains part of a monologue, and when he says “You think you loved him,” as he responds “what about me,” he falls apart in tears. This is more than a lashing out for a lack personal recognition of his true love gone utterly ignored because it was homosexual for all these years, ignored not just by “Sir,” but by everyone in his world. He has put up with everything and even more that the women in this man’s life for some minor satisfaction that the old man might some day recognize his intense love. More importantly, Norman then does something that the fairly sexless older Norman played by McKellen could not have done in this role, he lays his body partially over the dead “Sir,” remaining in that hopeless representation of a buried sexual love as the film closes.


   In the end, as great as McKellen is, I have to say I quite prefer the 1983 film which speaks of so much more than the 2015 film is willing to explore. Norman as played by Tom McCoutney, has a far more repressed sexual love for his failed hero than any of the women might have offered him, but has been utterly so ignored by our failed actor and everyone around him that it can only be recognized as a sort of tragedy. The later version seems to end only in anger and hate, while the earlier version still explores the remnants of love Courtney daily expressed to “Sir.” And that, particularly in the midst of the AIDS crisis, represents a near miracle.

 

Los Angeles, September 20, 2026

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (September 2026).

 

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