Wednesday, July 2, 2025

Hannah Hilliard | Franswa Sharl / 2009

beauty queen

by Douglas Messerli

 

Hannah Hilliard and Greg Logan (screenplay), Hannah Hilliard (director) Franswa Sharl / 2009

[14 minutes]

 

Australian director Hannah Hilliard’s 14-minute film about a true story involving the 12-year-old boy, Greg Logan (played by Callan McAuliffe), is a simple comic tale about a difficult to please father Mal (John Batchelor). Mal, like many a would-be-macho heterosexual perceives his eldest son’s duty to compete against his friend’s son, Richard (Ben Ingram) and flirt with his friend’s daughter, the beautiful young Cassie (Ivy Latimer).


   Greg, who is more comfortable singing and dancing, is a big disappointment. Even as a pre-pubescent, he is apparently well on his way to facing difficulties in high school sports, has no evident sexual inclination for girls, and might even possibly have some gender confusion. His mother, Fran (Diana Glenn) dotes on him, but Mal is endlessly disappointed and loses bet after bet with Mike Bishop (Steve Le Marquand) on swimming races and similar sports challenges in which he insists the boys engage.

      Fortunately, the next event on their Fiji vacation is a beauty pageant which he is sure that his daughter Kylie (Tiarnie Coupland) will win, even though she is equally certain that Wendy will come in first, she perhaps in second place.

      Desperate to find something which might please his father, the cute young blond boy decides he will enter the beauty pageant himself, and somewhat as a joke makes a prank call to register his name in the contest, pretending to be a French beauty, Franswa Sharl (François Charles).

      Cassie, in love with Greg wants a kiss, but he will give it only if she lends him her best bikini outfit to which she finally agrees. Catching the play of their shadows against a canvas wall, the Logans suddenly have hope that their son might after all be somewhat normal.

       The pageant begins with girls from New Zealand, Australia, and nearby islands, all of them charmingly cute. Cassie, however, is certainly the most beautiful, as Mal’s home-film camera reveals, although he’s still sure that Kylie has a chance and he might yet win the bet.


        Suddenly a young girl come all the way from France is announced, and out of nowhere appears a beautiful blonde, with a flower in her hair, dressed in a stunning red bikini. Mal discovers Franswa is Greg only through his camera lens and is ready immediately to put a stop to the nonsense, but Fran demands he stay put.

        In fact, the judge quickly announces Franswa as the winner and Bishop pays off the bet, Mal proudly winning his very first of numerous bets on his family members. How can he not be strangely proud of his lovely son? Cassie is sure he won only because she loaned him her best bikini, and he admits it, handing the floral crown over to her and thus pleasing everyone.


      Through broad comic tropes, this colorful film hints at a great many issues faced by young gay and possibly transsexual boys and their families without bothering to really explore the deeper issues. Indeed, at 12-years-old who’s to say Greg will actually grow up to be gay?

        Of course, most any gay man remembers that at 12 years of age he already began to know that somehow he might not fit in to family expectations.

 

Los Angeles, December 12, 2022

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (December 2022).

Diana Petrov | Yet Another Family Drama / 2025

the mother who loved the fact that her son was a faggot

by Douglas Messserli

 

Diana Petrov (screenwriter and director) Yet Another Family Drama / 2025 [20 minutes] 


Mamma (Stanka Kalcheva) breaks into her son Georgi’s (Delyan Iliev) apartment in the midst of his gay tryst with a “one night stand” (Plamen Kanev) in Bulgarian director Diana Petrov’s cinematic investigation into a motherly love that borders on—if the film’s cabaret act is to be believed—and in the past has included incest.


     Although she reports she has come to tell Georgi of his father’s death, it is clear that she plans to move into Georgi’s grandmother’s former apartment with her son, despite the presence of a young man in his bed, who she insists leave the place immediately. The son comforts his lover by suggesting that his mother will soon be leaving.


     The son drinks, slams a bottle of liquor to the floor, refuses to touch any of the breakfast she has served up, puts his mother’s suitcase in the hall, and demands that his night-time lover simply ignore her.

      In the end, however, the lover dresses and leaves for the office, while the mother can be seen showering and comforting her son. There is evidently no escape from her, her love being devouring and implacable.


   Petrov, who infuses her more realist drama with outrageous cabaret acts, and psychological visions of the son’s attempt to escape his mother, describes her layered “drama” as representing three different aspects of her central figure:

 

“The movie aims to draw a three-sided portrait of its protagonist, Georgi. The first layer shows Georgi in his safe space—a wide, idyllic landscape where he feels happy and free—until his mother appears, shattering the serenity of his dream.

    The second layer, the predominant part of the film, is set in his apartment. Here, we are confined to a small, dark space, mirroring how Georgi perceives his life in reality. His dreams and hopes transform into frustrations as he struggles to achieve even a fraction of his aspirations.

    The third and final layer is a cabaret performance, representing how a complete stranger might perceive Georgi and his relationship with his mother. With bright colors and campy décor, the scene parodies everything we've witnessed so far, suggesting deeper insights into the mother’s feelings for Georgi. The song's lyrics heighten the grotesque nature of the performance by emphasizing the sexual undertones of the mother-son relationship—a subject rarely explored in Bulgarian cinema.”


     It is perhaps the spritely cabaret scene with which this film ends, however, that most engages the viewer, as what he have just witnessed is played out by Kanev in drag with a dummy representing the long-abused son, whose behavior as a “faggot” is perhaps what keeps the “naughty boy” close to her heart; she is obviously the only woman he can truly love. And she, clearly, has preferred loving the son instead of his father.

      The lyrics of the cabaret song, say it all:

 

“This beloved son of mine…

I will spank him so hard…

He pretends to be so great…

But he’s just another…

Faggot.”

 

    The only thing that makes this short film untenable to me is that Petrov seems to presume that

queer male behavior has its roots in the mother’s attentions to her son, and is a psychological condition that has grown around those incestual relationships; in fact, we have learned increasingly over the years that being gay, transgender, bisexual, or whatever is primarily biological, something we carry within us from birth, not learned primarily through nurture, although certainly this mother may have helped to foster her son’s queerness.  

     But here the presumption is that the son has sought out gay men since his relationship with women is caught up with the horror of incestual attentions from his mother, and accordingly, it is the mother’s “fault.” But there is no “fault” or even “choice” in being gay; it is merely another manner of sexual behavior, existing also in numerous other animal species.

     Even brilliant minds such as that of David Antin have not yet come to that realization. David once confided to Howard that he saw no problem with anyone choosing the “life style” we had chosen. Howard briefly attempted to explain to him that being gay was not a chosen life style, but something that chose you and was accepted by most individuals only with much suffering and pain for being different from the majority of human beings.

     Think of this way. I have green eyes. Only 2% of the world’s population are blessed with such a coloring of the eye, yet no one has ever told me that I was strange for having such a pigment difference. According to the 2024 Gallup poll, the percentage of those US citizens who identify as something other than straight or heterosexual has now risen to about 7.7%.

 

Los Angeles, July 2, 2025

Reprinted from My Gay Cinema blog (July 2025).

 

Nora Dahle Borchgrevink and Lyndon Henley Hanrahan | I Hope He Doesn't Kill Me / 2024

imagining what’s behind the door

by Douglas Messerli

 

Lyndon Henley Hanrahan (screenplay), Nora Dahle Borchgrevink and Lyndon Henley Hanrahan (directors) I Hope He Doesn't Kill Me / 2024 [13 minutes]

 

A cute young man, Buzz (Lyndon Henley Hanrahan) pushes the buzzer to the door of his anonymous Grindr hookup, but just before anyone answers, he suffers, time and again, various scenarios that might play out within.


     In first the horrifying vision, he is tied up and bound in an S&M date with the man suggesting that he is going to skin him alive and eat him, a knife already put to the boy’s throat. The young man suggests that he has eczema.

     In the second fantasy he has met up with a handsome man who drugs him by offering him a glass of water. They also fight over language, the young man arguing the other’s words are so “not sexy.” But all of that doesn’t matter in the end, since our young hero simply passes out.

     Another is into pills, chemsex, “G,” “X,” and “MDMA.” Yet another believes in having sex they were “generationing,” he passing on HIV, convinced that he was the boy’s “gift giver,” and Buzz was his “bug chaser,” turning Buzz, as he describes it, into an HIV-positive sex prostitute.


      The next ring of the buzzer brings Buzz into contact with a man who simply likes to imagine others on the street wondering what might be happening with the flashing “speckles” in his bedroom, and has scheduled a uber to show up just after Buzz and he have retired into bed.

      Buzz’ imagination next calls up a young man who seems to be as terrified of the killer behind the door as he is, which young hero describes as a “miscommunication.” But in the very next moment the new encounter asks if he can piss on him.


    The next man has just come out since his “super homophobic” Dad passed away about a half-hour before, having been wrapped in a “Turkey bag” where in he evidently suffocated. The body still lies in the kitchen.

      Perhaps the wildest of Buzz’ imaginings is when he meets up with a young man whose mother is from Sheffield, but who father “fucked off back to Chicago.” It so happens that Chicago is also where Buzz’ family is from.

       Apparently this hookup and he have had good sex since Buzz would like to see this partner again sometime. Indeed, they play a short fantasy game of Buzz’ date meeting up with his Dad in Chicago, in the midst of the game the stranger calling out “Bartholomew,” the first name of his father, Bartholomew Huggins. That just happens to be Buzz’ last name as well, and suddenly the couple realize that they have just committed incest, even worse his half-brother calls out, “gay incest.”

    Why is that worse that “regular incest” queries his Buzz,” his bedmate suggesting that Buzz himself is now pejorating gay incest by describing the heterosexual version as “regular.” His Grindr date determines that they are going to have to kill themselves, holding up a looped rope.


     When the buzzer is actually answered, it turns out to be a nice guy with whom we can presume Buzz has had great sex. But yes, we are reminded that such killers and odd perverts (all performed, in this case, by Vincent Moisy) may just be out there waiting for a visit from an innocent blind Grindr date. These are the fears of the digital age.

      This comic work from the United Kingdom, performed without any British accents, is a beautifully lit and colorful comedy with excellent acting that has made it quite popular on the gay film circuits of 2024 and 2025.

 

Los Angeles, July 2, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (July 2025).

 

Tuesday, July 1, 2025

Rainer Werner Fassbinder | Warnung vor einer heiligen Nutte (Beware of a Holy Whore) / 1971

a sheep in wolf’s clothing

by Douglas Messerli

 

Rainer Werner Fassbinder (screenwriter and director) Warnung vor einer heiligen Nutte (Beware of a Holy Whore) / 1971

 

1971 was an amazing year for filmmaker Rainer Werner Fassbinder, even for a man who made many films every year; that year he managed to shoot five feature films: Rio das Mortes, Pioneers in Ingolstadt, Whity, Beware of a Holy Whore, and The Merchant of Four Seasons, while both he and his communal-living cast were recovering from the particularly exhausting film, Whity.

      Beware of a Holy Whore, reportedly, recounts some of the difficulties the group had while shooting Whity, not only the delays in promised governmental grants, but with materials—both that film and Holy Whore were shot in Spain, where sets, shooting locations, and equipment were more difficult to procure—while also being mired in the numerous interpersonal relationships between the actors and crew. Even applying for the grants was an arduous business; as Fassbinder joked, “I can make an entire film in the time it takes others to read the small print of a grant application form.”


       It is no wonder, accordingly, that the director, Jeff, depicted in Holy Whore (the dark-haired, somewhat overweight Fassbinder being played, ironically by the handsome Germanic looking blond and blue-eyed Lou Castel) is seemingly disinterested in making the film for which the cast and crew are huddled in a semi-luxury hotel, awaiting his arrival. By film’s end, Jeff is utterly exhausted, an empty shell of a human being.

       It is the same kind of exhaustion we witness also in two models that Fassbinder surely used for this film, Federico Fellini’s 8 ½ and Jean-Luc Godard’s Contempt, the exhaustion not only from the never-ending demands creation makes, but from the kind of decadent world that seemingly accompany films and their multiple creators. Godard’s film, like Fassbinder’s, is also about violence and brutality, both sexual and intellectual, while 8½ clearly humorously and seriously accounts a mini-history of both.

      For those who know about the Fassbinder “commune,” as one character describes it, there are many in-jokes in this film—Fassbinder, himself, plays the harried directorial assistant, Sasha, and Magdalena Montezuma plays a character to whom the director had once been married, named Irm, while Irm Hermann, who played in 19 of Fassbinder’s films, is nowhere to be seen in this one; and Fassbinder’s real-life, short-term wife, Ingrid Craven here appears as a married woman desiring a bit role; and there are also several subtle references to previous Fassbinder films—but to read the movie as entirely autobiographical, I believe, would be a mistake.      

      Certainly, the various sexual goings-on in this film—heterosexual, lesbian, gay, and, in particular, bi-sexual—which we are forced time and time again to observe through various voyeuristic tableaus—may have been part and parcel of a Fassbinder shoot. At some points it appears almost as if every one of the numerous cast and crew members are determined to get each other into their beds or least upon a lobby couch. And by film’s end, they do seem to be entwined into a large group grope similar to the comical goings-on in Jack Smith’s Flaming Creatures. Yet behind the basically satirical vision of Holy Whore there are also a great many serious issues which seem far more personal, as the director character attempts to work them out, than general. If this should not be understood precisely as a group autobiography, it is certainly one of Fassbinder’s most personal works, even though he uses a stand-in for himself. 



d, given the almost bi-polar shifts in Jeff’s behavior once he does fly in on a plane (procured evidently from another isolated paradise, Ischia) it would have been almost unbearable to actually see Fassbinder playing himself. At once, instead of hugging his boy-toy of the moment, Ricky (Marquard Bohm), Jeff puts his arms around his hunky assistant-director, David (Hannes Fuchs) and then hugs several of his women actors, including Hanna Schygulla, playing herself.

      Soon after he slaps Irm, and when she drunkenly shouts out about his abuse of her, slaps her several more times and fires her on the spot, demanding she leave the site. The drugged-out cameraman, Deiters (played by Fassbinder’s openly gay filmmaker friend, Werner Schroeter) has already abused her, telling her, after a brief kissing session, that she needs to clean her teeth more often. Yet she is the only one saved from the emotional abuses which follow.

       By the next morning Jeff is shouting for and at nearly everyone, furious about the shooting location, the Spanish equipment, and the cinematographer’s inability to immediately comprehend his rather complex instructions. The actors take too long to get into costume, and the group translator is seen in the distance, for long hours at a time, entwined in a kiss with a driver. Furthermore, the money from Bonn has not yet come through. Both Jeff and Ricky wish for one another’s complete “destruction.”

       If Jeff is explosively violent, he can also, at moments, be tender in his manipulation of his cast. But the film he intends to make is utterly brutal:  As he describes it to his actor, Eddie Constantine, who has complained that he cannot give a karate chop to his female victim, “Lemmy Caution is always such a gentleman, so noble. What I want to show here is the guy at the height of power. Brutal cold-blooded, capitalistic, rational, cold as ice. I don’t want to show a rain of sympathy for people who cat in the name of some fascist government."

       In short, the world of drink, drugs, and sex which these characters inhabit is also, in a more political sense, what the movie-within-the-movie is itself about.


       The two worlds, the satirical film about filmmaking and the murderous film at Holy Whore’s heart, accordingly, are oddly mirror images, one comic and one tragic, but both suggesting that all of these figures, “real” and “imagined,” in giving their lives over to art and artifice, allow themselves to feel a sense of holiness, while still whoring for their own sense of control over one another and reality. In this world, status, even being one of Fassbinder’s original Munich group members, having grown up in a better financial situation, or imagining future scenarios for their lives, is crucial and, in the end, self-destructive.

       Of course, the real holy whore is art itself. The support that the German government lavished on film and theater during the 1970s and 80s, as Thomas Elsaesser intelligently reminds us in the DVD liner-essay, encouraged directors such as Fassbinder to become “clowns and professional enfant terribles,” in part to justify the control and power the government had built up to delimit such behavior in everyday life. Each, directors and government, needed the other to justify their existences and to satisfy their desires, the fact of which the young Fassbinder immediately perceived.

       Fassbinder’s films are almost always centered on real moral issues, but are presented, as here, in a manner which forces you to see them for what they are: artificed creations. If they are actually whores, things which make you want to love them, they, at least, are honest enough to make it very clear that they are not entirely holy, that their beauty is a created one through make-up, camera tricks, and clever acting.

     Perhaps none of the great filmmaker’s works revealed this so clearly as Beware of a Holy Whore, a work which you can simultaneously love and find utterly perverse. These are beautiful people acting quite brilliantly, but they’re only to be let out of their box for one or occasional nights. Art, alas, is not life—a fact, despite his utter dedication to it, of which Fassbinder was only too aware.

      The film ends with a statement by another bisexual author, Thomas Mann: 

    

"I tell you that I am often deadly tired of representing humankind without participating in humanity."

 

       By the end of 1971, Fassbinder must have exhausted. In 1972 he made only one film, The Bitter Tears of Petra Kant.

 

Los Angeles, September 14, 2016

Reprinted from World Cinema Review (September 2016).

Harry Dixon | Notion / 2018

choices

by Douglas Messerli

 

Harry Dixon and Mitchel Wicking (screenplay), Harry Dixon (director) Notion / 2018 [30 minutes]

 

This student film was made was made at the University of Grimsby in Lincolnshire, and the accents of that region, it will be difficult, particularly if you attempt to use the subtitles, for US audiences to follow the dialogue.

    But fortunately (or perhaps unfortunately, depending upon your viewpoint), this short from by director Harry Dixon follows many of the conventions of a “coming out movie.”


    As in so very many queer movies about 17-year-olds in their last year of school, Notion involves a great deal of afterschool drinking among both the boys and girls, in this case as they gather at Liam’s house most nights, since his parents seem to be endlessly traveling, leaving him alone to care for their quite handsome house.

    We see two such events, the first of which includes Liam (Adam Barlow), his best friend Alex (Ethan Bradshaw), and three girls, Georgia (Elizabeth France), Mollie (Evelyn Seaton-Mooney) and Beth (Megan Curry). In this film, the women seem to drink more than the men, particularly Beth, who complains of each day in school of a constant hangover, and Georgia, who can’t hold her liquor, quickly vomiting her most recent intake on Alex’s T-shirt.

     Liam quickly sends off the three girls, and suggests Alex borrow one of his shirts, promising to wash the other and return it.

     The visit to his bedroom that this facilitates, however, results in a discussion between both of them about their unhappy homelives, particularly given the death of their mothers; and before they even know it, the two discover themselves in a deep kiss.


     Alex, in particular, quickly backs away and quite literally races off, soon after announcing to all that he remembers nothing of the night and that he’s now hooked up with Georgia, the least likeable of the three girls.

     Liam remembers the events all too well, and his stunned by the sudden departure from his life of Alex and his endless denials. But then Alex has always taken the easy way out, seeking a job even while attending the university while insisting that an education only slows you down.

     Liam, on the other hand, is a serious student; and Alex’s rejection of him appears to open up a kind of new vision of what he might accomplish, and he googles what courses and experiences it takes to become a cancer researcher.

     The second part, sans Beth, brings together Alex and Georgia with Mollie and Liam, Mollie clearly fed up with the other couple.

     They drink enough to repeat the fiasco of the first time they came together with Beth, but this time, quite amazingly, everyone goes home somewhat sober, Liam regretting that he has even attempted to restore relations with Alex.

      But as he moves upstairs to bed, there is a knock at the door, and it is Alex returned. We half hope that he might finally have recognized the truth of the kiss, that he is truly in love with Liam, but like so many boys of his age, he refuses to face reality. He has come back for his lousy white T-shirt, which Liam brings him, cleaned as promised. He leaves again without any apologies, with even acknowledging that in accepting the T-shirt he has had to remember what happened.


      Liam stands by the closed door, saddened that the boy he loves has just left his life forever; we witness Alex in bed with Georgia, clearly unable to sleep, but finally turning over to hold her close as if she might protect him from his unthinkable memories and desires. We can foretell Alex’s future, having witnessed it time and again in queer cinema and everyday life, that he’ll marry and regret it for the rest of his life, perhaps even one day waking up to realize that he is truly gay and can no longer remain in a relationship with the empty-headed Georgia or, even worse, will again refuse the truth, and stay for the sake of his unhappy family.

      Liam’s face might also be said to demonstrate some relief, since he is now moving in a totally different direction in his life. He has been accepted to the college of his choice, and will surely become the cancer researcher he chosen for his career. Clearly he can find someone more appropriate as a lover than the now forever-closeted Alex.

      In this “coming out” film, the realization of loving another of one’s own sex leads not a romp in bed, but a life outside the closed-off world of high school experience. How well I know that feeling, and looked forward to college for those very reasons, even if my sexuality was not fully perceived and certainly not completely accepted by inner myself. But within a year I would discover who I truly who I was and what I wanted out of life. That changed, of course, over time; but allowed me to become someone who is happy and proud of most of my life.

 

Los Angeles, July 1, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (July 2025).

 

 

 

Craig Frank | Look Away / 2016

breaking up is hard to do

by Douglas Messerli

 

Eli Lieb and Steve Grand (composers and performers), Craig Frank (engineer) Look Away / 2016

 

In 2016 open gay pop singers Eli Lieb and Steve Grand came together to perform a song about a gay couple breaking up, not a typical subject in the history of LGBTQ+ popular musical recordings.

     The song was co-written by the performers, and was recorded on the day after Lieb had actually broken up with his current boyfriend. As Lieb has been quote in several sources:

 

“The footage is so real and raw, that I struggled if I even felt comfortable putting it out.

      I wasn’t sure I wanted everyone to see the pain I was in. But then I realized that this pain came from love and is a part of life most people experience at some point – we’ve all been there. I hope it helps remind people that pain and love are so closely related to not forget how powerful love is.”


    Fortunately, as Grand himself notes, the country-western crossover singer is an “irreverent goofball,” which surely helped to balance the painful back-to-back seriousness of the duet, where despite the lyrics, the couple is actually looking off in different directions as they consider both their pasts and futures, now alone from other.

 

Verse 1:

I’ll never touch your body again

We gave it our all, but this is the end

So we say that we tried

Watching you fade, I know it’s goodbye

 

Chorus:

But I can’t look away from you

I can’t look away

I’m trying to face the truth

from the mess that we made

So we say that we tried

But I can’t look away from you

I can’t look away

 

    The video also features the two in the recording studio, with Grand on the piano (Dave Eggar on strings), and the two in various poses around the studio.

     If the music is rather blandly pop, the performance and lyrics make it another break-through in LGBT music videos, particularly in its direct commentary on the touch and smell of another male sharing a bed, not a common subject in popular music.

 

Los Angeles, July 1, 2025

Reprinted from My Queer Cinema blog (July 2025).

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